#xyloblogging

the reason: when i was in middle school & much more autistic, i was OBSESSED with rincewind. so obsessed, in fact, that seeing ANY content featuring him would overstimulate me. usually to the point of going dizzy and nauseous... from excitement, sure, but uncomfortable nonetheless. therefore, as one can guess, i have gained an unconscious "tumblr = him = scaryyyy" association

to add insult to injury, i still experience this when reading fanfiction. but, in spite of said adversity, my attempts at becoming more resilient to my own autism have not ceased, and i am convinced that one day i will escape the prison of my own emotional responses altogether

ermmm wdym you're autistic??? science has proven a WHIILE back that autism is EXCLUSIVELY caused by emotionally cold mothers, if you didn't have an emotionally cold mother you're literally NOT autistic by the DEFINITION!! wdym you have social struggles, sensory issues, rejection sensitivity and every other symptom known to man?? it's just a comorbidity of anxiety and sensitivity because i already TOLD you that autism is exclusively traumagenic... ugh, just look it up! and frankly it's extremelly offensive to people with Fridge Mother Syndrome who have went through ACTUAL TRAUMA just for you to claim that you have it because you want to be different. and don't even get me started on those people with "sensory issues to smells", that's just not real, SCIENCE has proven so already!! no REAL person with FMS has those, the ONLY valid sensory issues are to foods and maybe clothing textures with the latter being EXTREMELY rare. and ofc if you don't hate velvet you dont actually count as someone with FMS because SCIENCE has proven that every person with it always hates velvet. UGH im so tired of these FAKERS!!

and some of yall will be like:

i have a bit of beef with paul kidby. NOT AS A PERSON but as an artist. if you know me you can already guess why. it's not the style (which i love and has attempted to emulate in my younger years), it's not the potrayals (many of which are quite brilliant)...... it's this sort of. you know. a slightly noticeable uhm. issue. uh. and im going to put it the way i would in a private space with my friends because i don't want to mask my opinion for palatability. the issue is, quite precisely. erm.