#xobai

Put pen to paper

Create something worthy of your attention

But I just wanna hold your hand and snuggle into your chest

Breathe you in

Endlessly

I catch myself crying all too often

For the purest joy

I can’t sleep because I’m anxious and excited

I just want you close

But scared to settle into habits I can’t withstand

The cigarettes, the smoke

The drinking

The eagerness for other substances

To distance from your own mind

I know we need leeway

Time to adjust

You need proof

But a part of me will die if something happens to you

I can’t control you

And it hurts to watch you linger on these decisions

Please be safe

Like the words could blow away in the blizzard

Taken before I’ve penned them down

Lost to the elements

I’m an adventurer

A poetess

A champion

And I will hunt my words throughout time and space

To paint my life story

A miracle to me

I’ve spent sleepless nights crying at my reflection

Scared of the future

Alone with my anxiety

And somehow I’ve pulled through

To blossom

And lead the way

Because we haven’t all made it through

Like my life is about to be changed

Home renovation style

Welcome home

Meet your match

Aren’t you happy now?

Is this what you’ve been missing?

To put my voice on paper

And you still don’t get it

Why treat me like an equal

When you can stifle my growth a while longer

It’s fun to have someone to complain about

Hold music

Elevator noise

Something to tide you over

And I can’t give you all the answers

I’ll mask my pain for you

But know that I was told to go

And didn’t plan on running

I hope this doesn’t scare you

I’m just trying to be honest

You deserve better

And I’ll try and be that

But I had some growing to do,

And everything happens for a reason.

I came back home in the end

Didn’t I?

I’ll answer your questions