#xaik

Xaik: /he takes a deep breath and turns back to bex and xev/ um.... guys? can i talk to both of you for a sec?                     

Xevr: /jumps a bit and turns to xaik, tilting his head/ ...?                     

Bex: -swivels ears towards him, glancing at him for a moment before looking away again- You may speak if you wish.                     

Xaik:/he takes a moment to gather his thoughts/.... i wanted to personally say sorry to you both... back at that mission... i.. i wasnt thinking at all, i got scared and didnt react when you needed help the most.. /looks down/ i just.. i just wanted you guys to know that i didnt mean to leave you two alone there, im so ashamed of it. i-im sorry.. /covers his face/                     

Bex:-tails swishes, not saying a thing, waiting for Xevr's response, she had been plenty scared herself but had still tried to save Xevr, ears flatten against her head-                     

Xevr:/jumps a bit and turns back to bex, playing with her hair/ ....thank you. /stays quiet for a moment, unsure what to say. It had been a few days already and only tix and di seemed concerned so far./ ..                     

Naxta: /sits back in her chair, unknowing what they are referring to/                   

Xaik: /he continues to look down/ i...i've been meaning to tell you guys for awhile, but there were so many people around you guys, that i wanted to make sure that it was just me and both of you talking about it altogether privately. /looks down/ i-i screwed up.... again.. /clenches his hand trying to breathe to calm himself/                   

Bex: -lashes tail now, tensing- You... You think apologizing will make up for it? I was scared too. I have only been outside before that once before and even then I lost my heart then.  -slides off of Xevr's lap tail floofing- I was scared. But I did not abandon him to die in the street. I might have been able to get him to move if one of you two helped me. He is too big for me to move on my own. And... It came so close to us. I thought we were as good as dead back there. There was not anything I could do and you both just stood there watching. You think I am going to forgive you just because you said sorry? -voice raises in volume, still not looking at him, eyes tearing up-                     

Xaik:/looks directly up to bex/ then tell me what i should do to earn your forgiveness.                     

Nexta: /Naxta attempts to silently sneak out, not wanting to get in the middle of this/                                    

Xevr: /freezes a bit, surprised by bex's reaction. He was..agreeing a bit with her, but maybe not with the way she said it./ ..Bex..i wasnt supposed to be. There i mean.. /blames himself for coming but also feels..disppointed that they did not try to help, nor even asked if they were alright/ ...                     

Xaik: /looks down/ if sorry isnt enough... what can i do to earn your forgiveness. /he repeats/            

Bex: -finally turns to Xaik, glaring at him, ears twitching as Xevr speaks- It does not matter that you were not supposed to go. What matters is that you did  go. You went with me and I was supposed to help you and I could not. And... And they just watched. -hisses in frustration, glaring at Xaik the whole time- Prove that you are sorry with your actions. Not with words. You would not have waited so long if you were truly sorry. there were plenty of times where Xevr and I were alone. You could have even come back to the base after the mission to check if we were alright. You did not. You were off doing lord knows what with Jai. It seems you can only care when it is convenient for you. Is it because he gives you the sex thing that you tend to Jai more than those you supposedly care about?                     

Xaik: /he flares up and immediately gets up from his seat/ stop. bex stop this. i get it i fucked up okay?! what more do you want me to do?  ill do whatever you want me to do to show you im sorry okay?!                     

Xevr: /jumps again and makes himself smaller, not liking this at all. The words struck hard since he considered both Xaik and Jai his friends//hesitates a bit but finally gets up, not liking his friends fight each other/... Xaik. Bex. No. /walks over to Bex and takes her hand/ ..Thank you. No more yelling. /turns to xaik/ ..Bex is angry. For me. She stayed behind. For me. She almost died. For me. /takes a deep breath/ ..if..Jai. If he was the one...in danger. Would you have..watched? /pauses/ ..thats what she asked.                     

Bex:-shaking, hand squeezing Xevr's tight, trying to calm down for Xevr, tears spilling over finally, shaking-                     

Xaik: /he flinches, eyes widening to the question xev asked/............... /he tries to make out a sentence but cant because tears are running down his face, falling to his knees, slamming the ground with his hands/ ..................... ......no....... /barely managing to even make up that word/                     

Xevr:/flinches a bit at xaik's reaction/ ...if you, Xaik, were..in danger. Would Jai have...watched? /squeezes Bex's hand/                    

Xaik: /still kneeling, he cannot stop the tears from falling, whimpering, letting out a few more taps on the ground, angry at himself choking on the tears as he opens his mouth/ ......nNO........ /his attempt at a yell was broken by his whimpering/                    

Bex: -shaking still, still glaring at him through her tears, wanting to bury her face in Xev's chest but doesn't, wondering why the hell Xaik was acting the way he was, it wasn't like he was the one who nearly died only a few days ago-              

Xevr: /takes a step back/ ..almost dying..is not what hurt the most. /caresses bex's hand with his thumb, still feeling back that he almost draggred her to her death/ ...its this.  I may not...see, Xaik. But I understand..I see theres..no place for me in this...friendship of yours. /turns around/ ..what can you do to..prove yourself? /pauses, breathing after talking for so long/ ..Why dont you show me that..you care about other people than..Jai. Same for him. /uses almost the exact same words as Vix without knowing/                     

Xaik: /looks down still whimpering/ ......fine.....i will. /nodding/                     

Xevr: /nods and quickly wipes the tears at the corners of his eyes before they fall then walks away, pulling Bex with him/                     

Bex: -stays rooted to her spot for a moment still glaring at xaik when she feels xevr try and pull her along, hisses at him one last time before turning and walking away with Xevr, swiping at her own tears, soft sobs escaping her-