#askxaik

Xaik: /he looks up, smirking/ les étoiles... sont vraiment brillant ce soir , mhn? 

Xer: -looks up at the sky- Ils sont. Been a while since I've been outside.        

Xaik:/smirks/ you should go outside more often. it'll do ya good. /still trying to peek under the hood/                     

Xer:-has relaxed, the hood slipping down and revealing the mark on his neck- ...I should. But there is so much that needs to be done in the lab.        

Xaik:mhmm. /nods, reacts calmly to the mark revealed on xer's neck/ ..dîtes-moi. who was it. /stern face/                     

Xer: -blinks, looking from the stars and back at Xaik- Wh-what do you mean?

Xaik: /tilts his head and points to the mark on xers neck/ you know exactly what i mean.                     

Xer:-blushes looking away, hand moving to cover the bite mark on his neck- Nobody.                  

Xaik:/squints/ vous manquez le point. a name. who is it. /pretty sure he knows who, but wants xer to be the one to say it/                     

Xer: -red, looks disgruntled- ...Vous ne pouvez pas dire à personne. -not looking at Xaik-                     

Xaik:d'accord. /leans in closer to xer, interested in what he has to say/             

Xer:-decides to take a chance, hoping nothing bad comes of this- ...Vix.        

Xaik:/grins and rolls his eyes, sitting back up, his prediction being correct/....the fucken snake .hmph. je savais déjà. i just wanted you to be the one to say it. if you dont mind me asking... qu'est-ce qui s'est passé? /curious /                  

Xer:-sighs not looking at him- I... I was between a rock and a hard place. If Tix finds out it'll cut out my tongue. ...And Vix threatened me. What else was I supposed to do? -seems to pale as he talks-                     

Xaik:/quickly puts a hand on his shoulder, reassuring him/ dont worry xer, you have my word./sighs/ you're not the only one he's threatened. he gets in your head, makes you feel small. if you ever want to talk about it, let me know okay? i know it made me feel better when i spoke to jai about it....                     

Xer:-hand moves to xaik's hand, squeezing it lightly- I.. I talked with Lixana already. She is letting me stay in her room. At least for a few days. -sighs- Thank you, however, Xaik. ...May I ask how you knew?                     

Xaik:/frowns and looks down/ i knew the moment i tried to pull your hood off in the kitchen. i know those teeth marks from a mile away. trust me. i do. /tries to change the subject but fails/                     

Xer: -hadn't known that it would be obvious just from the teeth marks, hand still covering the mark- Just... Don't tell anyone. -sighs- My coat is still in his room. I'll have to get it back eventually...                                      

Xaik:/nods/ dont worry, i wont. /gently tries to put his hand on xers mark/ can i see it?                       

Xer:-chews his tongue for a moment, seeming to debate it with himself before removing his hand and tilting his head for the other to look- It... It had been my first time.                     

Xaik:/tilts his head, still frowning at how troubled xer looks/.....and... was it... consensual? /knowing how vix can be very intimidating at times/                    

Xer:...Does the fact he had a knife with him answer your question? -shakes head, running a hand through his hair-                     

Xaik:/eyes widen, putting one hand on his mouth/......xer..... /doesn't know what to do, so he just does the next best thing and hugs him/..... i swear, he will never hurt you again. well now you have two people supporting you, me and lixana.                     

Xer: -surprised, blinking for a moment before returning the hug- ...Thank you. -honestly isn't sure what to say-                     

Xaik:/he draws back, patting xer's shoulder/ if you feel threatened, you let me know, ill come running./sighs/ ive had my personal share of bad experiences with vix.                     

Xer: Have you? -is honestly not fully aware of the goings on around the base, choosing to remain to his labs- Doubt there is much you can do against him without Tix getting wind of it. -points at the almost fully healed cut on his cheek- I had been threatened not to tell it. It found me shortly afterwords with this on my cheek and I lied to it. ...It threatened to cut my tongue out if it found out I was lying.                     

Xaik: /nods/ ....i know.. im sick of him always being the winner. /clenches fist/ we have lives too. he gets away with so many things.... he's... he's played with both jai and i so much... /he tries to fight the little tears starting to form on his face/ .... i dont want him.. no, the serpent , to do this to anyone else. ive had enough of his bullshit. im done. /nods, trying to calm himself down/... you gonna be alright? /tries to divert the subject/                                     

Xer: -places a hand on the others shoulder, squeezing it lightly- I will be eventually. I just need to... Hide until this goes away. -motions to his neck-    

Xaik: /tilts his head/ ?! uh..... i can heal that for you y'know.. /gives him this puzzled look/                    

Xer:....I really should read everyone's file. If you haven't noticed I do not pay attention to much that goes on outside the labs. -shakes head- Can you? Then I won't have to starve myself in fear of going to the kitchen.                  

Xaik: /nods/ it'll just take me a second, oh. and ill treat the one on your cheek too. you trust me? /starts to open his mouth/                                       

Xer:...Don't heal the cheek one. Tix forbid me from using anything to it aside from stitch it up. -blinks as Xaik opens his mouth, decides he's already told him so much, why not trust him? merely tilts his head to give access to the bite-      

Xaik:..mkay. /he opens his mouth to draw out some medicinal venom and coats his sharp fingernail with some of it/ ...hold still. this is going to sting a little. /he hovers his hand over to the bite mark on xer's neck and slowly inserts a nail, injecting the medicine in  it/ ...should be gone in a good five minutes. /smiles/    

Xer:-is used to listening to doctors orders, sits still, hissing softly as he felt the needle like nail pierce his skin, nods once xaik is done- Thank you. ...So you are the doctor here?                     

Xaik: /nods/ yep... i dont look the part, but i am. /chuckles/                     

Xer:-runs a hand through his hair and sighs- If a scientist can have fire colored hair, then I am sure the Doctor is fit with blue and black hair and scars.              Though poison is an interesting element for a doctor. Almost as bad as when the others let me cook knowing I'm disease.                     

Xaik: /nods/ yep. you're right about that. /yawns/ alright, well i think im going to catch some much needed rest with jai. laissez-moi savoir si vous avez besoin de quelque chose, okay?                       

Xer:-nods at him- Thank you again, Xaik. Je vais garder cela à l'esprit.

Xaik: /he takes a deep breath and turns back to bex and xev/ um.... guys? can i talk to both of you for a sec?                     

Xevr: /jumps a bit and turns to xaik, tilting his head/ ...?                     

Bex: -swivels ears towards him, glancing at him for a moment before looking away again- You may speak if you wish.                     

Xaik:/he takes a moment to gather his thoughts/.... i wanted to personally say sorry to you both... back at that mission... i.. i wasnt thinking at all, i got scared and didnt react when you needed help the most.. /looks down/ i just.. i just wanted you guys to know that i didnt mean to leave you two alone there, im so ashamed of it. i-im sorry.. /covers his face/                     

Bex:-tails swishes, not saying a thing, waiting for Xevr's response, she had been plenty scared herself but had still tried to save Xevr, ears flatten against her head-                     

Xevr:/jumps a bit and turns back to bex, playing with her hair/ ....thank you. /stays quiet for a moment, unsure what to say. It had been a few days already and only tix and di seemed concerned so far./ ..                     

Naxta: /sits back in her chair, unknowing what they are referring to/                   

Xaik: /he continues to look down/ i...i've been meaning to tell you guys for awhile, but there were so many people around you guys, that i wanted to make sure that it was just me and both of you talking about it altogether privately. /looks down/ i-i screwed up.... again.. /clenches his hand trying to breathe to calm himself/                   

Bex: -lashes tail now, tensing- You... You think apologizing will make up for it? I was scared too. I have only been outside before that once before and even then I lost my heart then.  -slides off of Xevr's lap tail floofing- I was scared. But I did not abandon him to die in the street. I might have been able to get him to move if one of you two helped me. He is too big for me to move on my own. And... It came so close to us. I thought we were as good as dead back there. There was not anything I could do and you both just stood there watching. You think I am going to forgive you just because you said sorry? -voice raises in volume, still not looking at him, eyes tearing up-                     

Xaik:/looks directly up to bex/ then tell me what i should do to earn your forgiveness.                     

Nexta: /Naxta attempts to silently sneak out, not wanting to get in the middle of this/                                    

Xevr: /freezes a bit, surprised by bex's reaction. He was..agreeing a bit with her, but maybe not with the way she said it./ ..Bex..i wasnt supposed to be. There i mean.. /blames himself for coming but also feels..disppointed that they did not try to help, nor even asked if they were alright/ ...                     

Xaik: /looks down/ if sorry isnt enough... what can i do to earn your forgiveness. /he repeats/            

Bex: -finally turns to Xaik, glaring at him, ears twitching as Xevr speaks- It does not matter that you were not supposed to go. What matters is that you did  go. You went with me and I was supposed to help you and I could not. And... And they just watched. -hisses in frustration, glaring at Xaik the whole time- Prove that you are sorry with your actions. Not with words. You would not have waited so long if you were truly sorry. there were plenty of times where Xevr and I were alone. You could have even come back to the base after the mission to check if we were alright. You did not. You were off doing lord knows what with Jai. It seems you can only care when it is convenient for you. Is it because he gives you the sex thing that you tend to Jai more than those you supposedly care about?                     

Xaik: /he flares up and immediately gets up from his seat/ stop. bex stop this. i get it i fucked up okay?! what more do you want me to do?  ill do whatever you want me to do to show you im sorry okay?!                     

Xevr: /jumps again and makes himself smaller, not liking this at all. The words struck hard since he considered both Xaik and Jai his friends//hesitates a bit but finally gets up, not liking his friends fight each other/... Xaik. Bex. No. /walks over to Bex and takes her hand/ ..Thank you. No more yelling. /turns to xaik/ ..Bex is angry. For me. She stayed behind. For me. She almost died. For me. /takes a deep breath/ ..if..Jai. If he was the one...in danger. Would you have..watched? /pauses/ ..thats what she asked.                     

Bex:-shaking, hand squeezing Xevr's tight, trying to calm down for Xevr, tears spilling over finally, shaking-                     

Xaik: /he flinches, eyes widening to the question xev asked/............... /he tries to make out a sentence but cant because tears are running down his face, falling to his knees, slamming the ground with his hands/ ..................... ......no....... /barely managing to even make up that word/                     

Xevr:/flinches a bit at xaik's reaction/ ...if you, Xaik, were..in danger. Would Jai have...watched? /squeezes Bex's hand/                    

Xaik: /still kneeling, he cannot stop the tears from falling, whimpering, letting out a few more taps on the ground, angry at himself choking on the tears as he opens his mouth/ ......nNO........ /his attempt at a yell was broken by his whimpering/                    

Bex: -shaking still, still glaring at him through her tears, wanting to bury her face in Xev's chest but doesn't, wondering why the hell Xaik was acting the way he was, it wasn't like he was the one who nearly died only a few days ago-              

Xevr: /takes a step back/ ..almost dying..is not what hurt the most. /caresses bex's hand with his thumb, still feeling back that he almost draggred her to her death/ ...its this.  I may not...see, Xaik. But I understand..I see theres..no place for me in this...friendship of yours. /turns around/ ..what can you do to..prove yourself? /pauses, breathing after talking for so long/ ..Why dont you show me that..you care about other people than..Jai. Same for him. /uses almost the exact same words as Vix without knowing/                     

Xaik: /looks down still whimpering/ ......fine.....i will. /nodding/                     

Xevr: /nods and quickly wipes the tears at the corners of his eyes before they fall then walks away, pulling Bex with him/                     

Bex: -stays rooted to her spot for a moment still glaring at xaik when she feels xevr try and pull her along, hisses at him one last time before turning and walking away with Xevr, swiping at her own tears, soft sobs escaping her-