I couldn't sleep last night cuz thoughts of "him" took over my mind. I wanted to see how he was doing. Wanted to ask him why did it happen. Like, what went wrong. How he played me so well. Wanted to know why I couldn't see it from the beginning. Why I couldn't tell it wouldn't be a forever thing. How was it so easy for me to let him in and so easy for him to let me go. Well, I asked nothing. I knew it would only hurt more. But I thought, no one needs that kind of pain anyways. There's something out there that won't be forced, won't ever be selfish. Right? I believe, just like hurt people hurt people, healed people heal people. So I tried closing my eyes, and a sudden peace came to me. I was free. Why didn't I see that? Free from a self-centered, I want what I want when I want it type of love, or whatever they call it. I am now free to love and be loved, without any conditions. Cuz frankly, that's what I was created for.