fuck me up with your most angsty monopoly mountain thoight
okay
remember when at the start of the LL, Scar gave Grian one of his lives?
And then Grian died. But it wasn't Scar's life that he lost.
Scar's life stayed with him and it was heavy
heavier than anything in his body, it burned him, it made him struggle to breathe. And he was so, so desperate to get it out
He wanted to return that life back, he hoped that he loses it when he gets killed again.
That life was a reminder. Of something from the past, something someone he wanted to forget. Because he knew, that it would only hurt more if he gives in.
So he scratches his chest with his fingers till the blood draws, he pours ice cold water on himself only in hope that the burning feeling, the itch, the sting will go away even for a second.
And he decides to go and return Scar's life back. Even if it means he'll go on red. But when he comes up to the Magical Mountain, he can't bring himself to pull it out. So Grian spends time with Scar instead. He pretends to be his bodyguard and laughs and jokes and his breathing evens out.
And when Grian goes on red, his chest is still beating with Scar's life. And when he goes to take another life from him, Grian knows what he's doing.
When Scar dies, his lives in Grian chest were pounding so fast, like they were trying to get back to Scar. And it was so, so painful he hardly kept his stance straight.
