#writergirl-11

I showered, now I'm going to eat. XD When I get up again. Cause this couch is as deadly as tumblr for eating time.

Oh everything's fine. I have a performance of Richard III tomorrow which I expected and then something else came up so I won't be near a computer.

thank you!! i'm definitely feeling the right one more than the left one ((its also warmer))

For writergirl-11! Both the gif and the normal version :) THis was a fun one to do. Just a few more and im done! Im doing them in order so if you havent had yours yet and you did ask run over to this post to see if you already should have gotten it. And then just send me an ask if you see.

Dear ex boyfriend, I wanted to be mad at you when you broke up with me over text, but we only dated for two months so I was still happy when we decided to stay friends. Then when you got a new girlfriend and kissed another girl in front of me that wasn't her I was ready to angry. So even though I've gotten over that anger and we are distant friends, I'm so glad you broke up with me because 6 months later I met the best person that ever happened to me.  Dear ex bestfriend, I hate to say I don't hate you. We changed, and grew apart because of it. You went and smoked weed and cheated on both your boyfriends and started getting into weird shit and I sat back and didn't even try anymore because it looked like you didn't care anymore. Even two years later when we decided to see each other, we were just too different and wouldn't work out as friends.  And for the last goddamned time I WILL NOT TAKE BIOLOGY. EVER.  Dear bestfriend, I don't even know who you are anymore. I have three candidates so I suppose all of you are, but you all have a small part of you that makes me question it. To my roommate, I love you and I'm so glad we became better friends even thought we've known each other since we were 6 but sometimes I want to strangle you and your boyfriend because I spend too much time with you. To my eastern coast friend, I think you're hilarious and you helped me meet the love of my life but you're far too overdramatic sometimes and I wish you'd find some help because I honestly do worry about you in the best way possible. To my future maid of honor, the reason I question it is my fault because I don't even remember to call or text you anymore, except for when I need help like when I felt like my heart had broken in two. Just know that I still love you to bits wellie. Dear Santa, What the hell bro? I thought we were friends? Haven't I been nice? I was totally hoping you'd at least glance at my list because half of it wasn't even out of your price range. I know you're a single loving mother, but I really did want those books.  Dear mom, Thank you. I know I'm a little shit and not trying hard enough but you love me anyway for some reason. I'm glad I get to spend some time with you this week because even though I pretend to be indifferent because it's just habit, I do miss you every now and then. I love you.  Dear dad, I wish I could love you as much as I love mum but you haven't been a great dad since you and her got divorced. You were barely hanging on before then. I know you can't help it because it's a disease but I wish you would at least try a little harder. You're making the youngest of us three have a hard time dealing with you and mum can't even talk to her about it with her because of her bias so it's up to me, a 19 year old who's been taking care of them while mums at work since I was 14 to talk to her about it. I know you have the best or intentions but you need to try and follow through better.  Dear future me, What's it like in the future? Do I finally stop getting acne? Do I have kids? Are they adorable little shits who like reading and play sports like their father (is it even him?) does? I guess I can't really get these answers until I'm you but I hope for their sake I'm a better mother than I feel like I'm going to be. Dear past me, Sup you little shithead? Don't be so quiet because your friends are total bitches. You find friends who actually like you and think what you say is important and you get way better boyfriends than the rest of them who don't even have them as far as I know. Chin up, it gets midly better. Just make sure you pay attention in class.  Dear person I’m jealous of, I don't have a specific person to he jealous of. Whatever part of their life I'm jealous of, I have a part that's better than them. Honestly I just wish I was as smart as you. I just wanna do well in life like you. Dear person I had a crush on, I still understand why I had a crush on you. You were so cute and nice to almost everyone and you were an amazing artist as well as smart. You inspired that boy I write about who is literally my perfect boy, if my boyfriend wasn't already perfect enough. Just once I wish I could have kissed you to know what it would be like.  Dear significant other,  I love you more than anything. It's funny cause I once had my doubts but then I spend five minutes with you and remember that you are one of the single greatest things to ever happen to me. Last night when I told you that I didn't mind not having sex and that I just enjoy being with you and you said that you didn't hear that kind of stuff from me very often, it reminded me that while I think you are the most important person to me, I forget to tell you that sometimes but know that I am always thinking it. 

Thanks! ^^

Thanks. :) I'm just tired from arguing with someone on tumblr about depression of all things. And I appear to have used up my energy for the day on that.

I should just buckle down and write my book, become as famous as JK Rowling, then people can spend years arguing about who should have ended up with who while I sit back and throw AU idea's at the fandom and laugh at them, from said Hobbit Hole.