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Period 3 - Life Lately

There were many times that I lost confidence in my journey here. But I thank the Lord for sustaining me. There were many times when I felt like things are not going to be alright. But He always makes a way. His love and goodness indeed is boundless. The journey is still long. But I am thankful because I have come this far.

These has been very helpful as well

1. Eating healthy and weekend exercises

2. Taking care of my pothos

3. Journaling

4. Spending quality time with colleagues and foodtrips

5. Appreciating the outside view while listening to good music

6. V call with fam and maintaing open communication with my friends

JUNE

The fear is overwhelming. But I thank you Lord for flooding my feed with your love. I am of little faith. I continue to hold on to the same because I know you are greater than whatever I am feeling right now.

I know they mean well for warning me to be fearful, careful and to perform well. I know they wanted to comfort me in their own words. But I am stucked. They say to push more, it is okay to make mistakes and there is more room for improvement. But they expect perfection, no less. They say it is okay to ask but it is a must to be independent. And I can't seem to define the borderlines.

It’s been 8 months since I started working as a Line Quality Analyst and since then my life has revolved with work. For a while, I stopped watching kdramas and series, playing summoners war, reading, writing, doodling and doing other stuff I love to do. I became so focused with my work. I didn’t have much time to spend with my family and friends for the past 8 months too. Now that I have adjusted with my work life, I started catching up with my passionate hobbies and not just catching up with sleep.

But, I still have difficulty dealing with other people. I really have to work harder not to be mean and cold and be more gentle and kind. Work life is still stressful. There are still days when I want to quit and transfer to another job. There are days when I feel lost and days when I had to muster all of my strength so I could get by. To keep me going, I just keep on reminding myself that struggles are always a part of life and that I could overcome them. I have experienced a great deal with my life. So I just need to keep on doing what I have been doing. That is to keep on fighting.

Despite all the struggles, I am grateful that I have a work because I could support myself and my family. But financially, I still have a long way to go. Honestly, I really want to have my own house now. I know it’s difficult to achieve that at this moment but I still keep on thinking about it. I really have to remind myself to take things slowly. (Tap on my own back) In God’s time Badeday! It will happen in God’s perfect time! Everyday, all I pray from God is for me to have a more grateful heart, more patience and faith for His will in my life.