April 13th 2016
I was messaged at work by my wife. She’s been taking to a new gentleman for a couple days and the the message was telling me that she planned to meet with him for coffee on Sunday. Those Oh so familiar feelings began to swirl inside of me. I decided that I wasn’t going to say anything to her about how I felt. Not in a message anyway. This would give me the time needed to think about everything. By the time I got home I already had my thoughts together, I told her that I felt uneasy about it. I did not at all tell her to not see him. I explained without her having to say anything, that the reason I think I feel this way is because I feel alone. I’m still processing my resent break up. She’s got a partner, multiple people she during the day, and now another potential partner. And I don’t know how to handle this. I told her that I know that this is my problem to get through. I’m telling her that this is how I feel. Just so she knows. This was also the first time that I was able to break down a little and talk with her about my breakup. It felt good to talk and be open without it leading to a fight or at least animosity of some kind. That was the depressing part of the night. It was earlier discussed that we would take advantage of the night and we had an in home date. Chinese food, Victor Frankenstein, and cuddle time. Wjth everything that’s been going on latly between us, it was a way to reconnect. We talked and reassessed our relationship and talked about us putting one hundred percent back into us. I hope that this sticks.
