Feb 23, 2019
I better stop crying because
1. Phoenix doesn't feel sick yet, so he's probably at least got some time--i want to spend that enjoying him, not crying over something that hasn't happened yet
2. Crying scares him and I want him to feel happy as long as possible
Also crying wastes time and gives me headaches-- going to run out of my caffeine pop and aspirin at this rate
But how not to when I can't help thinking about how sweet he is and how I can't stand the thought of him hurting or leaving my life so soon. He's only 7, a lot of life should be ahead of him! He deserves everything good, not sickness
#cat#phoenix#please let him be ok#called vet today#the pills arent working#vet not there#i want to help him if i can#even if it takes all my money#i wish i could be sick instead of him#oh look im crying again#also very tired#had to take dad to take his old car to junker#so got up earlt#working now#good thing job doesnt take much#need to get more $ fot cat
