#with disciple

[10:59] DISCIPLE: -Disciple doesn't like being in her room. She doesn't like being in the INFIRMARY, much less having to stay in a room seperate of the Signless.-

[10:59] DISCIPLE: -She's digging into her sheets, shredding them with her claws and chewing on the fabric, growling low and constant.-

[11:00] ARADIA: -she carefully approaches her- hi disciple

[11:01] DISCIPLE: -She looks up. She doesn't stop growling, sitting completely still as Aradia enters her room and approaches her bedside.-

[11:06] ARADIA: all of this is pretty stressful isnt it

[11:08] DISCIPLE: -She spits out the fabric, staring at Aradia.-

[11:08] DISCIPLE: Did she speak to the ones who died today?

[11:08] ARADIA: no i...i havent slept yet

[11:08] DISCIPLE: She cannot sleep.

[11:09] DISCIPLE: The Huntress does not sleep, either.

[11:09] DISCIPLE: She has slept too long already.

[11:09] DISCIPLE: It aches and hurts and to close her eyes is impossible.

[11:12] ARADIA: -her wings flutter a little- is there anything that calms you down?

[11:13] DISCIPLE: He does not wake and she does not know when he will.

[11:14] DISCIPLE: -She rips the sheets in two and throws them aside.-

[11:14] DISCIPLE: It is cruel.

[11:15] ARADIA: have you been alone in here?

[11:16] DISCIPLE: She has seen the others.

[11:16] DISCIPLE: But now it is her.

[11:19] ARADIA: well thats no fun

[11:20] ARADIA: it probably makes everything seem much worse when you are alone

[11:21] DISCIPLE: Rrrr. No.

[11:21] DISCIPLE: No, she does not see the fun.

[11:21] DISCIPLE: They are stranded.

[11:21] DISCIPLE: Lost.

[11:21] DISCIPLE: Damaged...

[11:21] DISCIPLE: Alone.

[11:22] ARADIA: you are not alone disciple

[11:22] ARADIA: i know it seems like it

[11:22] ARADIA: given your surroundings

[11:22] ARADIA: but none of us are alone

[11:22] DISCIPLE: What is she to do for her people now?

[11:30] ARADIA: in time disciple

[11:30] ARADIA: you must focus on getting better so you can assist others to the best of your ability

[11:31] DISCIPLE: -She growls, rolling over onto her bed.-

[11:31] DISCIPLE: She is Crew now. The Captain has said so.

[11:31] DISCIPLE: What does she think?

[11:32] ARADIA: i think that we will need as much help as we can get

[11:32] ARADIA: and i think i know what i want to do

[11:33] DISCIPLE: What is this?

[11:34] ARADIA: i want to help out around here

[11:34] ARADIA: and be a nurse

[11:34] DISCIPLE: -She sighs against her shredded pillow.-

[11:34] DISCIPLE: Good.

[11:34] DISCIPLE: This is good calling.

[11:34] DISCIPLE: You help them.

[11:35] ARADIA: you think so?

[11:35] DISCIPLE: -She nods, relaxing a little as she just collapses onto her belly.-

[11:35] DISCIPLE: Yes.

[11:35] DISCIPLE: -Her voice is muffled by pillow fluff.-

[11:35] ARADIA: would you like me to get you more pillows?

[11:35] ARADIA: and blankets?

[11:36] DISCIPLE: She would bite them more.

[11:37] ARADIA: well

[11:37] ARADIA: i would give them all to you but i think we may need to conserve at this point

[11:37] DISCIPLE: This is acceptablerrrrrrrr.

[11:41] ARADIA: -she grins at her-

[11:41] ARADIA: good im glad

[11:43] DISCIPLE: She does not know what she does. She already has her title. Her purpose. Perhaps she will pledge to do as she always did.

[11:43] ARADIA: exactly

[11:43] ARADIA: besides you need to rest

[11:43] DISCIPLE: She needs no more rest. She has slept enough.

[11:44] DISCIPLE: -She growls stubbornly, flopping over a second time so that she's on her back now.-

[11:50] ARADIA: sometimes resting just means not moving around

[11:50] DISCIPLE: -She looks at her DEAD IN THE EYES and rolls around a whole bunch more.-

[11:51] ARADIA: or you can do that hahaha

[11:52] DISCIPLE: RRrRR!!!

[11:54] DISCIPLE: -She eventually gives up and flops back down, still once more.-

[11:58] DISCIPLE: Rrr. Does she have any good memories? Old memories of her home?

[12:17] ARADIA: i have many good memories

[12:18] ARADIA: also many of where i grew up on alternia

[12:18] DISCIPLE: Rrr. She has few of Alternia, herself. None she enjoys to remember.

[12:18] ARADIA: i can imagine

[12:18] ARADIA: i lived out on the outskirts

[12:19] DISCIPLE: Rrr. So did she, yes.

[12:20] ARADIA: sometimes it was easier to pretend like it was my own little world out there

[12:21] DISCIPLE: She likes to think that way herself. To be distant from the troubles.

[12:23] ARADIA: it makes it easier to see things from another perspective when you are outside

[12:23] DISCIPLE: There are too many rules here.

[12:24] ARADIA: i agree

[12:24] ARADIA: its not like being out in the wildnerness as much as i wish it was

[12:25] DISCIPLE: -She sighs, having settled into a relatively comfortable laying position, not squirming quite so much anymore.- No. Even though they are criminals now.

[12:26] ARADIA: i guess we are all criminals arent we -she's smiling for some reason. it's an interesting thought. exciting-

[12:26] DISCIPLE: Rrrr. The thought is more familiar to her than "Ambassador."

[12:27] ARADIA: oh i bet!

[12:36] -- apostolicChronicler [AC] is now an idle chum! --

[01:42] -- artifactualAnnihilation [AA] is now an idle chum! --

[01:42] DISCIPLE: He was hurt shielding her. Because she was too tired. Too weary. Perhaps she is getting old.

[02:13] ARADIA: or maybe because he cares about you enough to sacrifice himself just to ensure that you get chance to live

[02:14] DISCIPLE: Rrr. Foolish man.

[02:15] ARADIA: you would do the same for him though wouldnt you?

[02:16] DISCIPLE: That is different.

[02:16] DISCIPLE: She does not mean as much to them as he does.

[02:17] ARADIA: perhaps not in his perspective

[02:18] DISCIPLE: It is true. He is the one who inspired the rebellion.

[02:21] ARADIA: -she pauses- but he cares for you more than he cares for himself

[02:28] DISCIPLE: He does. He always has.

[02:28] ARADIA: and that is why he did what he did

[02:28] ARADIA: not because you are fragile

[02:28] ARADIA: but because of how much worth you have to him

[02:30] DISCIPLE: He is still foolish because she said so.

[02:32] ARADIA: -she smiles- thats enough of a reason for me!

[02:50] DISCIPLE: :33

[02:50] DISCIPLE: Yes.

[02:53] ARADIA: -she just giggles at her- is there anything i can get you? any food or anything?

[02:57] DISCIPLE: Her meals are raw and bloody.

[02:57] DISCIPLE: Tell them this.

[02:59] ARADIA: that may be difficult...but i can try

[02:59] ARADIA: i believe we are on a planet we are not allowed to explore

[03:07] -- apostolicChronicler [AC] is now an idle chum! --

[03:25] DISCIPLE: Rrrr.

[03:25] DISCIPLE: Well, she will find something.

[03:26] DISCIPLE: She is sure.

[06:26] -- apostolicChronicler [AC] is now an idle chum! --

[06:49] -- apostolicChronicler [AC] gave up trolling artifactualAnnihilation [AA] at 18:49 --

[09:58] -- apostolicChronicler [AC] began trolling artifactualAnnihilation [AA] at 21:58 --

[09:59] DISCIPLE: If she is caretaker, she will look after her mate, yes? He is sick. He will not awaken and they do not know when.

[09:59] ARADIA: of course i will :)

[09:59] ARADIA: and i can keep you updated too

[10:00] DISCIPLE: Rrr. Good.

[10:01] DISCIPLE: She has grown accustomed to having him. It is strange to be apart again.

[10:03] ARADIA: it feels like a piece of you is missing doesnt it

[10:04] DISCIPLE: Yes.

[10:04] DISCIPLE: It is true.

[10:07] ARADIA: thats the hardest part

[10:07] DISCIPLE: Does she know love like this?

[10:07] ARADIA: -she pauses as if she's thinking- no

[10:07] ARADIA: but i know about it

[10:09] DISCIPLE: -She bows her head, nodding.-

[10:14] ARADIA: it must be nice though

[10:14] ARADIA: and also difficult

[10:15] ARADIA: but it seems to be worth it

[10:15] DISCIPLE: It is many challenges. She is told her relationship is not so much like other trolls.

[10:15] DISCIPLE: She thinks perhaps that others overthink what they are.

[10:15] DISCIPLE: What they should be.

[10:15] DISCIPLE: What makes them happy.

[10:15] ARADIA: i think youre probably right

[10:16] DISCIPLE: Of course she is.

[10:16] DISCIPLE: She knows these things.

[10:16] DISCIPLE: :33

[10:33] ARADIA: -she smiles at her, but her mind feels elsewhere-

[10:33] ARADIA: would you be ok if i came back later?

[11:10] DISCIPLE: Rrr. Yes.

[11:10] DISCIPLE: She will not be here, but she will be found if she loks.

[11:11] ARADIA: -she nods- i will make sure to look then

[11:11] ARADIA: feel better ok?

[11:12] DISCIPLE: She will try.

[11:14] ARADIA: -she waves at her and turns to leave the room- bye disciple!

[11:15] DISCIPLE: She will be well.

AA: hello!

AA: my names aradia

AA: and i cant remember if we ever formerly met

AC: :oo?

AC: She does not remember her?

AC: The Huntress does not forget.

AA: oh so we have!

AC: She was different.

AC: She used her words...

AC: Differently.

AC: Has she changed again, she wonders?

AC: Is she free of her cocoon?

AA: i am indeed!

AA: i am very much alive

AA: and i also have wings

AC: :??

AC: She is VERY different!

AC: How does she do this?

AC: Tell her!

AA: well have you seen some people around with wings?

AA: other than the nitrams of course

AC: She smells their strange smells. Follows them, somtimes.

AC: It is unusual to her, and she does not yet understand.

AA: oh yes well that is because we all went through a restorative process through kurloz the medical examiner

AC: She does not know this one.

AC: What is he?

AC: Is he troll?

AA: yes he is!

AC: Tell her everything. She will write it down, every letter.

AA: about kurloz? well he looks like a mime kind of

AC: Tell her about herself, as well.

AC: Her thoughts and her feelings.

AC: Tell her of what she knows of the life that is after death.

AC: Of what she feels being new agian.

AC: Tell her!!

AA: oh all right!

AA: i will happily tell you as much as i can

AC: :33!!!!!

AC: Tell her many stories, yes.

AC: She will write them personally in her documents.

AC: She wishes to see her speak them!

AC: Where is her scent?

AA: well i know that all of my experiences after death are pretty different than most

AA: because i also communicate with the dead now that i am alive

AC: :oo

AA: i was a ghost for a while

AA: and then i possessed and merged with a robot chassis!

AA: and now i am alive :)

AC: Rrr. She remembers the hard shell, yes.

AC: She was unhappy then. She is glad this is no longer so.

AA: yes i am incredibly happy!

AC: :33

AA: :D

AC: Is the metal-shell gone?

AC: Forever?

AA: yes it is! i exploded it

AA: it was kind of satisfying

AC: Prrrr.

AA: yes exactly!

AC: She sometimes finds satisfaction in causing destruction, yes.

AC: But she thinks it is destroying a thing that feels like prison to her.

AA: you know what

AA: i couldnt put that in a better way

AA: that was well said

AC: She is very good at words! That is how she is writing it.

AC: She can show her, if she wishes to approve of the words.

AC: They will be in her Book.

AA: i would love to see them!

AA: i would be honored

AC: She is not done writing yet. But she will see, soon, yes.

AC: Does she wish to say anything of her wings?

AA: well i quite like them

AA: they are light but very effective

AA: it took me some time to learn how to use them

AA: i know that to some it is coming naturally

AA: but for me it was more of a process!

AC: Tell her of this process.

AC: She likes hearing stories like this.

AA: well i had to practice

AA: at first i didnt really understand how to use them

AA: but i had some help from rufioh whose had wings for most of his life

AC: Rrrr, yes, this is good.

AA: i think so too!

AC: She is able to do it now, yes? She does it well?

AC: Show her a picture.

AC: And tell her of the dead things!

AA: oh of course!

AA: here let me just...

AA: ok

AA: got it!

-- artifactualAnnihilation [AA] sent file me.jpg --

AA: what dead things would you like me to tell you about?

AC: She hears them?

AA: oh yes!

AA: i nearly forgot we were talking about them

AA: well

AA: as someone of my caste

AA: many of us have psychic abilities

AA: before my death they were fairly unpleasant

AA: all i could hear often were the screams of the dead in my sleep but i could never tell where they were coming from

AA: i would see all of them but there was no way for me to help them

AA: and it was so distressing

AC: But now she knows more clearly? She can hear them, real voices?

AA: closer to when i died i heard them when i was awake as well and those were difficult to get rid of

AC: :cc

AA: when i died i was on my own

AA: i didnt really hear anyone else

AA: and when i was revived i didnt hear them when i was awake anymore

AA: but when i fall asleep...

AA: i feel led to particular souls where i can converse with them and hear them for what they are saying

AA: and what they are needing

AA: and i help escort them to the other side so they may truly rest in peace

AA: many of them are so scared of whats beyond

AA: terrified

AC: :oo

AA: but i help them see that there is beauty in their death

AC: :OO

AC: This is a very good story.

AA: why thank you!

AC: Do they listen to her, always?

AC: What does she say?

AA: yes often times they do

AA: well i tell them that i am here to help them

AA: and awaiting them is a peace theyve never known that they deserve to find

AC: Does she believe this is true?

AA: sometimes i have to change up my approach depending on the individual

AA: i do believe it

AC: Does she think she will find this peace? She did not know such peace before.

AA: eventually when it is my time

AA: when i die of old age likely before anyone else here

AC: Rrrr. Perhaps she will not! She lives again after death.

AC: She is different now.

AA: that is true

AA: i do not know what to expect in that regard

AA: now that i am healthier than i have ever been

AC: !

AC: Perhaps she will live forever. She has a very important thing, yes.

AC: Helping the dead find their peace.

AC: :33

AA: believe it or not you are the first one that ive been able to talk to about that

AC: Rrr? Others, they have not asked?

AA: well i suppose hardly anyone knows of my connection with the dead

AC: Why does she tell her?

AA: because ive wanted to tell someone and you were not mortified by our conversation

AC: This is a good reason, yes.

AC: She is good at listening.

AA: you are great at listening!

AA: in fact i really enjoy talking to you

AC: And she likes her as well.

AC: She is a very pretty lightning bug.

AA: we should hang out some time

AA: or maybe go exploring!

AA: i feel like you would be very fun to explore with

AC: She will do this. She goes on many hunts.

AC: What does she hunt for?

AC: Does she collect the bones? She will split them with her, as well as the meat.

AA: oh yes i love bones and skulls! i need to rebuild my skull collection

AC: She has some. She has featherbeast and antlerbeast. She has woolbeast and cholorbear.

AA: o_o

AA: thats a lot!

AC: She is a very good huntress.

AA: it sounds like it!

AA: do you ever find any ancient artifacts?

AC: She is an ancient artifact.

AA: thats very true!

AA: i would love to hear about that from your perspective actually

AC: Rrr. It is a story she tells much, yes.

AC: She is willing to tell her as well.

AA: please do!

AC: Does she wish to know of the whole story? Of meeting the rebels, of preaching their ways? Writing their texts and escaping their world, to found another?

AA: i do!

AA: i want to know everything!

AC: Prr, prr. She will tell in parts, because she knows it is very long.

AC: The story of her lover. And how she met him.

AA: yes!

AC: He fell into her trap. He fell and was stuck, and she was very hungry.

AC: She came to him and he spoke to her-- few had ever spoken to her, and there were many words that she did not know.

AC: But he was patient and he taught her these words.

AC: He helped her.

AC: So she did not eat him that day.

AC: She came to check her trap again the next day-- and she saw him drawing things in the dirt. He was still very stuck, yes, but she was fascinated. She wanted to know what he was doing.

AC: He taught her to use her claws, to make little pictures.

AC: She did not think that she was very good.

AC: But he was patient.

AC: And he taught her much, prr.

AA: that sounds so romantic!

AC: She did not know she was falling in love.

AC: But she knew that she did not wish to kill him when she came the third day.

AC: They spoke many things to each other, even as he was growing weak.

AA: wow!

AC: Prr. There were many days like this. There was one who hunted him as well-- one who came for her. She would have killed the huntress, had he not spoken on her behalf.

AA: who was it?

AC: It was the Mother.

AC: She was angry and afraid.

AC: Worried as well.

AC: She understands now.

AA: i think she quite likes you now

AC: She has known her a long time.

AA: how old were you when all of that happened?

AC: She was alive.

AA: so you dont know?

AC: She is sweeps. It does not matter.

AA: oh ok!

AC: Prr. That is all she will tell of this story for now. She will hear more again, if she speaks to her again, yes.

AA: that seems like a good place to stop but i imagine i will not be able to stop thinking of it for a while!

AA: i will definitely speak with you again

AC: She has more answers for her another time. This is good.

AA: yes it is!

AA: i suppose i will let you go now

AC: She could have gone any time she please.

AA: that is also true!