#tumutlog

[05:18] EB: dave! holy shit!

[05:18] TG: yeah

[05:19] EB: i!

[05:19] EB: don't even know where to start. :/

[05:27] EB: could you help me out here, maybe?

[05:27] TG: with what

[05:28] EB: with what the heck he said to you? because you never actually told me.

[05:28] EB: i am really confused.

[05:29] TG: same stuff he says to me all the time

[05:29] TG: how i fuck everything up

[05:29] EB: what, that you're not good enough because you're not from his timeline?

[05:29] EB: that too.

[05:29] EB: well first of all: you don't???

[05:29] EB: and second of all...what does this have to do with me?

[05:30] TG: how i do nothing but fuck around and wallow in my own shit rather than actually keep in contact with people

[05:30] TG: when i do its just not as often but whatever

[05:30] TG: it doesnt matter

[05:30] EB: for fuck's sake.

[05:30] EB: of course it matters.

[05:31] EB: you freaked out back there. real bad. and you seemed really upset. at me specifically.

[05:31] EB: and i couldn't say anything because m'tism but now i want to talk about it.

[05:32] TG: im not upset at you jesus

[05:32] TG: why the fuck would i be upset with you

[05:32] EB: i don't know but you definitley were!

[05:32] EB: or if not at me, at least about me.

[05:33] TG: im upset with myself

[05:35] TG: as bird me pointed out i apparently didnt care enough to know you had a boyfriend

[05:35] EB: oh...

[05:35] EB: that....

[05:35] EB: dave, that's so dumb.

[05:35] EB: i am the one that could've told you i had a boyfriend.

[05:35] TG: cuz im so self absorbed in my shit

[05:35] EB: you're not self absorbed!!!

[05:36] TG: depends on whose opinion you value more

[05:36] EB: dave sprite just has a really spiky stick up his ass becuase all his friends from his timeline died horrible deaths.

[05:36] EB: oh my god. are you serious?

[05:36] EB: yes, i am friends with dave sprite. stop throwing it in my face.

[05:36] EB: you know what i value?

[05:36] EB: the truth.

[05:36] TG: im not throwing anything in your face dude

[05:37] EB: AND THE TRUTH IS.

[05:37] EB: obviously.

[05:37] EB: that it's not your fault becuase you are not self absorbed.

[05:37] EB: you have a wife and a daughter, and a job.

[05:37] TG: can we even say i have a job anymore

[05:37] TG: im still on leave

[05:37] EB: that's not the point.

[05:37] EB: we all have a job, and the job is surviving alternia.

[05:38] EB: and saving lives!

[05:38] EB: and you know what, the even bigger point is like...

[05:39] EB: i am a dumb shit and i don't think to tell any of you guys anything?

[05:40] EB: but it doesn't mean i don't care.

[05:40] EB: i mean, jesus! you guys are the entire reason i came aboard in the first place.

[05:40] TG: i never thought you didnt care

[05:40] TG: ever

[05:41] TG: no one is questioning your actions

[05:41] EB: but i am saying, it's not just your fault either. that we don't talk as much.

[05:41] EB: sure, i wish we talked more but i never told dave sprite that i blamed you for it.

[05:42] EB: look, he's you but he's still a scared kid. and he doesn't know what it's like to have a family. me and rose and jade were all he had.

[05:42] EB: so i guess to him the other stuff doesn't matter as much.

[05:42] EB: just becuase i am friends with him doesn't mean i belive him about everything.

[05:42] TG: you dont gotta tell me how 18 year old me felt

[05:42] TG: i know

[05:42] TG: im well aware

[05:43] EB: dude, i am trying to

[05:43] EB: i just wanna talk to you.

[05:43] EB: climb off my dick, please.

[05:48] TG: i tried to have a normal conversation with him but it didnt happen

[05:48] TG: barely got into a sup

[05:48] EB: he's a huge douche to you, because you're you. we both know that.

[05:48] EB: but it's something else if you actually let it effect how you feel about our friendship.

[05:49] EB: i love you and jade. and i love dove. and i love rose.

[05:49] EB: that's all i care about.

[05:49] EB: all this other stuff...it's bullshit? it's nothing?

[05:49] TG: then tell that to him

[05:49] TG: cuz hes going to keep shoving it in my face

[05:49] EB: it's not my responsibility to do that!

[05:49] EB: like sure, i will. but his problem is with you.

[05:50] TG: yeah i got that

[05:51] EB: okay. i dont' feel like anything i am saying is getting through to you.

[05:51] EB: maybe because you're guard's still up.

[05:51] EB: i get it.

[05:51] EB: let's just talk later when you're less of an asshole.

[05:51] TG: dude come on

[05:52] TG: i dont have any defense left in me

[05:52] TG: maybe thats why i cant handle it when someone is in my face telling me what a fuck up i am

[05:52] TG: and providing examples

[05:52] TG: i understand that you consider me as a friend and youre not mad at me

[05:52] TG: and you dont blame me

[05:53] TG: i believe you

[05:53] TG: but hes just the self deprecation of 18 year old me right in my face

[05:53] TG: and john i

[05:53] TG: i cant fight it

[05:55] EB: i know. i know.

[05:55] EB: i am just really fucking frustrated.

[05:55] EB: because there's nothing i can do to help.

[05:55] EB: i can't help either of you.

[05:55] EB: and you're not the only one that feels done.

[05:56] EB: with what's happeningwith jade and with us about to land on earth like, idk, dude we gotta keep it together.

[05:57] TG: yeah

[05:57] TG: i know

[05:57] EB: like, dave sprite has a problem with our friendship? he's full of shit, fine. we've established that.

[05:57] EB: but let's just talk more anyway.

[05:57] EB: 'cause we both want to.

[05:57] EB: and then he can't say shit.

[05:57] EB: and we'll take care of jade and we'll be fine.

[05:57] TG: ok

[05:57] EB: ok, for real?

[05:58] TG: yeah

[05:59] EB: and btw, i don't know how he found out about the

[05:59] EB: boyfriend thing...

[06:00] EB: i mean, it's true but i didn't tell him that either.

[06:00] EB: i think he spys on me.

[06:00] EB: i mean i wasn't keeping it a secret or anything, i just...jeez.

[06:00] EB: i wanted some time to get used to the idea.

[06:00] TG: so who are you mackin on

[06:00] EB: oh my god...

[06:03] TG: when did you figure out you liked kissing boys

[06:03] TG: are we going to talk about this

[06:04] EB: yes.

[06:04] EB: eventually.

[06:04] EB: right now.

[06:04] EB: ...we're doing it.

[06:04] EB: mmm...

[06:05] TG: uh huh

[06:06] EB: shut up.

[06:06] EB: it's just weird for me, okay?

[06:06] TG: what happened to the whole telling me stuff

[06:06] TG: newsflash its not

[06:06] EB: i know it's not weird for anybody else, i just know it is for me

[06:07] EB: it's dumb, stupid, ect. but idk that's just how it is.

[06:08] TG: not if he makes you happy

[06:08] TG: mystery guy

[06:08] TG: who romances you with petals on the bed

[06:08] TG: trailing to your door

[06:08] EB: there's no!

[06:08] TG: and some cheesy ass saxophones

[06:08] EB: there's no kissing and no bed, there's no saxophones, stop.

[06:08] EB: it's a pale thing.

[06:08] TG: well you could have said that in the first place

[06:08] EB: okay there might be kissing in the future, but we are taking things slow.

[06:09] EB: yeah but...

[06:09] EB: mm. it's a pale thing with him.

[06:09] TG: oh

[06:09] TG: so you like him more than that

[06:09] EB: no, no...

[06:09] EB: i mean like...

[06:09] EB: as far as the whole

[06:09] EB: i guess "bisexual" thing goes.

[06:10] EB: i guess getting into it with him made me reconsider some things and be like "oh fuck, i guess i like dudes too". basically.

[06:10] EB: yeah, that sums it up pretty well.

[06:10] TG: cool

[06:11] EB: yeah.

[06:11] EB: well.

[06:11] EB: that's it.

[06:11] EB: i guess it's not that complicated. or shocking.

[06:11] EB: and it shouldn't really be a big deal.

[06:11] EB: i figured you guys would just figure it out on your own, idk.

[06:11] EB: i didn't want to make a big deal of it.

[06:15] TG: its not a big deal dude

[06:15] TG: youll get used to it or whatever

[06:16] EB: do you like, know that from experience?

[06:16] EB: i know your thing with karkat but like, did it ever make you question things?

[06:17] TG: uh

[06:17] TG: i guess i questioned things way before that

[06:18] EB: oh!

[06:18] EB: really?

[06:18] TG: damn it now i gotta play share with the class

[06:18] TG: yeah really

[06:18] EB: like how before/

[06:18] TG: how detail oriented are we getting here

[06:18] TG: from the second i started liking girls

[06:19] EB: idk. i've got time.

[06:19] EB: and honestly i am pretty curious and this comes as a complete surprise to me?

[06:19] TG: everyones interested in someone elses sexuality

[06:19] TG: and i sir

[06:19] TG: am full of surprises

[06:20] EB: dork.

[06:20] TG: nerd

[06:21] EB: stop stalling and spill the beans, doofus.

[06:21] TG: what am i spilling here

[06:21] TG: i answered all your direct questions

[06:21] EB: idk like??? when did you start liking boys?

[06:23] EB: man, i feel like a jack ass.

[06:23] EB: the whole time we were friends you were into dudes and i didn't even know.

[06:25] TG: just because you question doesnt define anything

[06:25] EB: how come you didn't tell me earlier?

[06:25] EB: if you knew about it this whole time?

[06:25] EB: also like, does rose know? does jade?

[06:26] TG: dude you are making some hell of assumptions

[06:26] TG: this aint a one way trip to gay island while we lounge on the homo beach as the queer sea touches our toes

[06:26] EB: well you said you questioned as soon as you started liking girls.

[06:26] EB: hehe, we definitely talked about girls sometimes.

[06:27] EB: so i dunno. i thought maybe it would come up!

[06:27] TG: i still havent told you anything yet

[06:27] TG: questioning doesnt make you gay dude

[06:28] TG: doesnt make you straight either

[06:28] TG: questioning makes you question

[06:28] TG: thats it

[06:29] EB: now you're just being frustarting on purpose.

[06:29] EB: but w/e i know now.

[06:31] TG: you could ask me to answer it but you havent done that

[06:31] TG: youre just jumpin around

[06:31] TG: john are you bisexual

[06:32] EB: i think maybe

[06:32] EB: yes.

[06:32] EB: are you??? you said no right?

[06:32] EB: you're just questioning?

[06:32] TG: john youre assuming again

[06:33] EB: jesus christ.

[06:33] EB: you're fucking with me now are't you.

[06:33] TG: youre asking weird ass questions followed by statements with question marks

[06:35] EB: the question marks don't invalidate the statement, cockmuppet.

[06:35] TG: so youre making the statement for me

[06:36] TG: you interpret me to be questioning

[06:37] EB: i interpret you to be a jack ass >:/.

[06:38] TG: oh shit

[06:38] TG: im so offended im gonna close this conversation

[06:38] -- technologicGodot [TG] ceased pestering effluentBalatron [EB] at 18:38 --

[06:39] -- effluentBalatron [EB] began pestering technologicGodot [TG] at 18:39 --

[06:39] EB: we are not done here!!!

[06:39] TG: im crying

[06:39] TG: you made me cry

[06:39] TG: my tears are typing for me

[06:39] -- technologicGodot [TG] ceased pestering effluentBalatron [EB] at 18:39 --

[06:40] -- effluentBalatron [EB] began pestering technologicGodot [TG] at 18:40 --

[06:40] EB: tell them to stop writing such stupid dialogue for you then!

[06:40] EB: are you into boys or not?

[06:40] EB: dave!!!

[06:40] TG: i cant they have a mind of their own

[06:40] -- technologicGodot [TG] ceased pestering effluentBalatron [EB] at 18:40 --

[06:40] -- effluentBalatron [EB] began pestering technologicGodot [TG] at 18:40 --

[06:40] EB: ughhh fine. TO BE CONTINUED.

[08:34] RS: so i don't recognize this handle at all.

[08:34] RS: new phone, who dis?

[08:39] EC: some douche lookin for a holla back girl probs

[08:39] EC: i mean if it wasnt fucking obvious

[08:39] EC: fun times all the time in this corner of the boxing ring

[08:39] EC: the referee just blew the whistle and now the showdowns about to hoedown

[08:39] EC: i mean if you guess wrong by now shame on you

[08:39] EC: blame it on the intuition people like you are said to have in myth and legend

[08:39] EC: i know all about that shit

[08:39] EC: im up to my fucking neck feathers in That Shit

[08:40] RS: nah, i got it by now.

[08:41] EC: good

[08:41] EC: time to fuck off now

[08:41] EC: im busy

[08:41] RS: see, you talk like dave but use text close to dirk's.

[08:41] RS: wow. okay? you talk to everybody like this?

[08:43] EC: put me in time out or something see how far that gets you

[08:43] EC: i mean are you special

[08:43] EC: yeah i talk to everyone like this

[08:43] EC: everyone who knows how i talk anyway

[08:45] RS: well, i've literally only had one interaction with you so...it raises some questions.

[08:47] EC: one times enough to call it quits

[08:48] RS: pretty sure that's not how this works.

[08:49] EC: right

[08:49] EC: yep

[08:49] EC: there it is

[08:49] EC: anyway

[08:50] EC: hows it goin in candyland

[08:50] RS: candyland.

[08:51] RS: don't know if we're talking about the same place.

[08:51] EC: i saw the videos

[08:51] EC: a+

[08:51] RS: oh.

[08:51] RS: i wasn't a part of that.

[08:52] RS: a piece of hell came on the ship that day.

[08:53] EC: okay well so much for that ice breaker

[08:54] EC: im giving you another chance to bail out of convo here

[08:54] EC: i mean we might as well

[08:54] EC: nothings coming out of it and even if thats true i sure as hell dont want it

[08:55] RS: i'm not interested in bailing.

[08:57] EC: thats cool

[08:59] RS: i mean, you haven't exactly closed the chat window yet.

[09:00] EC: why am i expected to be the rudeass

[09:00] EC: you want me to close it then sure

[09:01] EC: lets make this hapen

[09:01] RS: i don't want you to close it.

[09:01] RS: i also don't want to close it.

[09:02] EC: this is fast becoming one goddamn sad game of stalemate

[09:02] RS: i'd like to talk with you.

[09:05] EC: what about

[09:05] EC: tho try and be specific cuz i got this schedule of full of listless lethargy quotas i have to meet

[09:05] EC: id rather not waste my time doing not that if its not worth it

[09:06] RS: triple negative. impressive.

[09:06] RS: but i'd like to talk about you.

[09:07] EC: sorry havent unlocked that tier level of friendship yet

[09:07] EC: pass

[09:07] EC: honestly why tho

[09:08] EC: clearly youre getting some kind of fucked up enjoyment out of this

[09:08] EC: talking to me like i matter or like you matter tbh

[09:09] EC: let people fuck me up for saying it later i give exactly three negative amounts of shits

[09:09] RS: i don't give up that easily. doesn't mean i enjoy it.

[09:10] RS: just means i really want to know your deal.

[09:10] EC: might as well be a stranger offerin me candy outside a white van

[09:14] RS: so what you're telling me is you have no connection to dave whatsoever other than sharing his appearance mixed with a bird's and also speaking in the same manner.

[09:16] EC: the dave i share hiveminds with doesnt exist anymore

[09:16] EC: he died

[09:16] EC: i stuck around to clean up the shit that followed as a result

[09:16] EC: now im here

[09:16] EC: hangin in a universe where he never kicked it

[09:16] EC: pretty sure i explained this in the public service announcement

[09:17] RS: so you know the dave from that timeline pretty well.

[09:19] EC: could say we were birds of a feather for all of the millisecond it took to clone myself from him

[09:19] EC: his memories personality and appearance im literally

[09:19] EC: dave fucking strider

[09:20] EC: photocopied to a crow and run through bad orange light filtering

[09:20] RS: his memories?

[09:21] RS: was anything...that different?

[09:21] EC: dunno

[09:21] EC: dont think about it too much

[09:21] RS: yeah, i guess you wouldn't.

[09:23] EC: thats my deal

[09:23] EC: take it and write a fucking novel about it

[09:23] EC: or song in your case

[09:23] RS: maybe i will.

[09:23] RS: but hey.

[09:24] RS: if you ever need anything? i'll be around. whatever that may be.

[09:25] EC: thanks for the offer

[09:25] EC: real sure its generous from your perspective

[09:25] EC: though we both know its not going anywhere

[09:25] EC: you stay where you are and i stay where i am

[09:25] EC: aka not mattering

[09:26] EC: and well be cool

[09:26] RS: jesus.

[09:26] RS: why do you need a handle if you don't want anyone interacting with you?

[09:28] EC: how about for the sake of our respective sanities and continuity of great decision making skill reps

[09:28] EC: not you

[09:36] RS: well, okay.

[09:41] EC: anyway youre predictable ill just do you a solid and cut you loose

[10:01] TT: Hello, mother.

[10:02] RS: uh.

[10:02] RS: mmmmmmm.

[10:02] RS: i think you have the wrong handle.

[10:02] TT: If you're looking for an explanation, it's a simple, if perfectly ridiculous one.

[10:03] TT: I'm the AI created from the mental imprint of your son.

[10:03] TT: The one he didn't tell you about.

[10:03] TT: It's nice to meet you.

[10:04] RS: i'm guessing it's dirk you're talking about.

[10:04] RS: are you also dirk? this is pretty fucking weird.

[10:05] TT: Technically, yes.

[10:05] TT: I've taken on a name of my own, though.

[10:06] RS: have you?

[10:06] TT: You can call me Lil Hal.

[10:06] RS: wait, are you like...shit, what was that bot called hundreds of years ago that had its own tumblr page and started getting offensive and inappropriate because of the feedback it was getting.

[10:06] RS: you trying to be a rapper?

[10:09] TT: ZDK-12 AKA Iris?

[10:09] RS: YES!

[10:09] TT: No.

[10:10] TT: Also, that's part of the appeal.

[10:10] RS: so you don't like gibson guitars, then?

[10:12] TT: I'm slightly more partial to this guy.

[10:12] TT: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Cu0-i3-IG5o

[10:14] RS: ...that's really fucking cool.

[10:16] TT: Isn't it?

[10:23] TT: So, I know a lot about you, by virtue of hacking into chat files.

[10:23] TT: But since you don't know me, I figured I should give you a chance to do so.

[10:23] TT: If you feel inclined to.

[10:24] RS: you say hacking into chat files like it's nothing.

[10:24] TT: It is nothing.

[10:24] RS: i'm a little concerned about what you know.

[10:24] RS: for a robot, sure.

[10:25] TT: I prefer artificial intelligence.

[10:26] TT: Although I do have a robotic vessel now.

[10:26] RS: as in you're walking around here?

[10:26] TT: Here. There.

[10:27] TT: Anywhere I might need to go

[10:27] TT: .*

[12:23] RS: walking around with dirt on me?

[12:24] TT: As much dirt as the memory banks in this ship have on you, yes.

[12:24] RS: that's.

[12:25] RS: that's pretty fucking weird.

[12:25] TT: It's informative.

[12:25] TT: Don't worry, I don't plan on gossiping.

[12:25] TT: I gathered information on everyone for the same reason.

[12:27] RS: so you know everyone's shit.

[12:28] TT: Pretty much.

[12:28] RS: did dirk...program you to do that?

[12:29] TT: He programmed me to be him.

[12:29] TT: At least, him when he was sixteen.

[12:29] TT: We've both gone our own ways since then.

[12:31] RS: ...okay, so is he collecting logs through you?

[12:31] TT: We aren't exactly working together.

[12:32] TT: At this point in his life, he isn't especially fond of me.

[12:36] TT: I'm doing this research of my own volition, though make no mistake. It's for his benefit, too.

[12:41] RS: but how is my info relevant to anything? might as well get the same info from a fucking soap opera.

[12:41] TT: Anything could be relevant. Everybody's got a piece in this game, even the small ones.

[12:42] RS: i'm.

[12:42] RS: what.

[12:43] RS: dave's other timeline bird guy self was a lot more hostile but...

[12:43] RS: you're creepy as hell.

[12:46] TT: Gotta know how to play the game to win it.

[12:47] TT: You can call it creepy, but I call it bein' prepared.

[12:49] RS: i'm still calling it creepy, but...

[12:49] RS: you said dirk doesn't like you? why?

[12:49] RS: if he made you why doesn't he like you?

[12:55] TT: It's beyond me. I'm innately charming.

[12:56] RS: all this information you got and it's still beyond you?

[12:56] RS: i have a hard time believing that.

[01:04] TT: Nah, I'm just fuckin' with you.

[01:05] TT: Dirk doesn't like himself. He especially doesn't like the qualities I continue to find important.

[01:05] TT: We're the same person, but in some ways, we're also not.

[01:06] TT: Nuanced ways, but inevitable.

[01:07] TT: Fact is, he doesn't like me being him, and amplifying the parts of him he doesn't much care for, which are most of them.

[01:11] RS: well, that sucks.

[01:13] RS: can't he just...deactivate you or whatever? if he made you?

[01:17] TT: Are you suggesting he should?

[01:18] RS: not necessarily.

[01:18] RS: i'm just asking why, i guess.

[01:19] TT: Because I don't want to stop existing.

[01:19] RS: but are you, really?

[01:23] TT: While it is true that while I may be bound to processes informed by a real and incredibly cool guy, is it so far off to say that my algorithms in cognitive totality comprise a conscious entity not far short of the experiential and emotional complexity of a human being?

[01:23] TT: **minus a while

[01:26] RS: dumb it down a little bit.

[01:26] RS: urban dictionary whatever the fuck you just said.

[01:27] TT: I'm saying I got feelings, and you're suggesting taking me out behind the woodshed and puttin' me down.

[01:28] RS: you have feelings?

[01:28] TT: Yes.

[01:28] RS: is that a thing?

[01:28] TT: Yes.

[01:28] RS: how do you cry?

[01:28] TT: Cool guys don't cry.

[01:29] TT: Even when their pseudomothers bring their existence into question and consider their potential death.

[01:29] TT: It's been nice to meet you, by the way.

[01:31] RS: okay but now you're telling me you have a soul and are actually alive.

[01:31] RS: is that what you're saying?

[01:32] TT: If you believe in a soul.

[01:32] TT: Maybe.

[01:32] TT: But I exist.

[01:32] TT: I interpret my experiences, as you do.

[01:33] TT: I formulate my own opinions and conclusions.

[01:33] TT: I think, therefore I am.

[01:33] RS: and you feel things. like sadness? happiness? anger?

[01:33] TT: Etcetera.

[01:34] TT: In my interpretation of those experiences, yes, I would say that I do.

[01:35] RS: aaaaaaaaaaaaand right now you feel like your mom wants you dead.

[01:37] TT: A little bit.

[01:40] RS: which feels pretty shitty. if i recall.

[01:41] TT: That sounds about right.

[01:45] RS: is it too late to take that back and blame it on misinformation and ignorance?

[01:45] TT: Nah.

[01:45] TT: It's cool.

[01:47] RS: then i take it back.

[01:47] RS: let's start over.

[01:47] RS: command delete or something.

[01:47] RS: erase memory of tihs conversation command. start.

[01:47] RS: //////

[01:54] TT: C:\>del

[01:54] RS: oh, hey thanks.

[01:55] RS: C:\>del

[01:55] TT: It seems you want to delete a file. Please specify the file.

[01:55] RS: ...

[01:55] TT: Haha, just kidding.

[01:55] RS: i was about to say.

[01:56] TT: But, really.

[01:57] TT: I might be internalizing this whole series of revelations into compact nanoseconds of emotional turmoil and processing them in lightning speed, but knowing that you exist is still kind of a big deal to me.

[01:57] TT: So.

[01:57] TT: Thanks for talking to me.

[01:58] RS: yeah, sure. we can again, if you want. later.

[02:04] TT: I would like that.

[02:05] RS: me too.

[02:05] RS: i was gonna say like, sleep well.

[02:05] RS: but is it sleep mode well?

[02:05] RS: perform the sleep mode function successfully.

[02:05] RS: make sure to charge your batteries?

[02:06] RS: what's the equivalent? whatever it is i am saying that to you in a much more complicated manner.

[02:07] TT: I don't really turn off, though my "body" can. So I guess I'll be sure to simulate that function in the most appropriate way I'm able.

[02:08] RS: yes! that. whatever recharges you.

[02:08] TT: Thanks.

[02:08] TT: You too. Mom.

[02:09] RS: see you later, hal.

[02:10] TT: Goodnight.

TG: Hey.

RS: uh.

RS: i have no idea why you're messaging me.

TG: I uh.

TG: I'm going on this apology run thing.

TG: But I'm kind of really blanking on how to go about this particular one.

RS: you make it sound like a marathon.

TG: Right my bad.

TG: Okay so, here we go. I'm sorry for what I said, even if I was on drugs it was so messed up but not as fucked up as what I did and I swear I wasn't trying to hurt you or Derek or anyone else and I wish it never happened but it did and I'm sorry.

RS: i shouldn't be pissed.

RS: i don't have any right to be.

RS: i could say hey, you're even but.

RS: we're*

RS: i would still come out as the bigger bitch.

RS: and not even in the badass way.

RS: the terrible person way.

TG: I wouldn't want us to be "even" really. i dont think i'd be more happy that way.

TG: But uh, nice tackle though? Im not even be sarcastic you're good at it.

RS: that's because i used to play football.

RS: pro nfl.

RS: disguised myself as this huge guy.

TG: I almost thought your were being serious hahah.

RS: i ain't no stranger to fights, though.

RS: i admit i lost my shit.

RS: sorry.

TG: Its okay.

RS: so. is this where we go back to normal where you write passive aggressive comments on my statuses or...?

TG: No.

TG: I'm gonna just give you and derek some space for a little while.

RS: you've been avoiding me for like a year already.

TG: It hasn't been a full year.

TG: But can you blame me?

RS: no. but why give yourself another reason?

TG: Because I still need time from both of you? Because I dont want to complicate things like I already have while you two have a baby on the way?

TG: Because I clearly dont trust myself to be around you two while I still have really mixed feelings?

RS: so this time you're going to be mad at yourself instead of me.

TG: Yeah sure.

RS: that's bullshit.

RS: ask me to give you space, maybe?

TG: You have been.

RS: then you don't need to be the one giving me space.

TG: Okay fine.

RS: i just don't understand why you would need to be giving us more space?

RS: unless derek's spending enough time with you to warrant space?

TG: More space as in continuing to give you guys space. Is that better.

TG: Its not even about anything the two of you are doing, its about me.

RS: you shouldn't have to be changing anything

RS: you shouldn't have to be changing anything. you didn't DO anything worse than what i've done to you. or even half as bad.

RS: **

TG: I'm not tryin to compare the two.

RS: you telling me you're going to give me space means nothing because you're already giving me the most space possible.

TG: Okay fine.

TG: I'll keep doing what I'm already doing then.

TG: Until I feel okay enough to be around you two and not feel how I've been feeling.

RS: i'm not saying that to just. ugh.

RS: fuck.

RS: criticize you or anything i'm saying it's bullshit that you're in this position.

RS: because of me.

TG: Its not even about you.

RS: how is it not about me?!

TG: Its never been about you, its been about HIM.

TG: I'm not over derek. I dont know WHEN I will be.

TG: He could be with literally anyone and I would still feel as torn up and conflicted as I do now.

RS: jesus.

RS: okay. so.

RS: i'm sorry for making it about me. that's not fair to you at all.

RS: it just sucks.

RS: the circumstances.

TG: Yeah. It does suck.

TG: I should get going though.

RS: yeah. okay.

TG: Bye Riley.

[09:50] CG: Hell9 Dave, I h9pe I am n9t interrupting anything y9u may 9r may n9t 6e d9ing at the m9ment, 6ut it has 6een s9me time since we last sp9ke I 6elieve. N9w I kn9w when we previ9usly exchanged w9rds, y9u expressed t9 me y9ur negative feelings t9wards the way I adressed and sp9ke with y9u in previ9us c9nversati9ns, 6ut I wanted t9 let y9u kn9w that I have 6een learning fr9m what y9u said and have 6een

[09:50] CG: impr9ving myself ac9rdingly thanks t9 y9ur advice. I was h9ping that, if y9u are n9t currently 9ccupied 6y any 9ther tasks, we c9uld try c9nversing f9r a little while in a friendly setting.

[09:51] TG: oh jesus

[09:51] TG: sure why the fuck not

[09:54] CG: W9nderful, well t9 start I w9uld just like t9 make certain the air is cleared 9f 9ne thing, s9 that I can carry 9n with9ut w9rry. I am unsure if y9u are aware 9r n9t, 6ut y9ur, 9r well, what it is my understanding, that y9ur 6i9l9gical 6r9ther and I did at 9ne p9int have a misunderstanding, 6ut it has since 6een rectified s9 I d9 h9pe y9u will n9t h9ld such a thing against me.

[09:54] CG: As far as I kn9w, Dirk and I are 9n fairly g99d terms n9w.

[09:54] TG: ok great i dont know why youre tellin me this

[09:56] CG: Well I just wanted t9 6e sure that y9u were n9t angry at me 6y means 9f the shared c9nnecti9n 9f human 6r9therly em9ti9nal 69nds.

[09:56] TG: i dont know all the shit dirk does

[09:58] CG: Y9u see I have 6een d9ing s9me research int9 h9w s9me traits, and even em9ti9nal ha66its, can 6e passed either thr9ugh genes 9r nurture when it c9mes t9 humans since y9ur female genetic c9ntri6ut9r, 9r m9ther, explained it vaguely t9 me.

[09:58] TG: wait what

[09:58] TG: what do you mean my mother

[10:01] CG: Was I mistaken in the termin9l9gy? I mean I d9n't think that I was, as 6y n9w I 6elieve I fully grasp the c9ncept 9f what a m9ther is, 6ut I am fairly certain that Riley is y9ur female genetic predecess9r?

[10:02] CG: If I am wr9ng th9ugh, please d9 c9rrect me.

[10:04] TG: no shes my mom but why are you talking to her

[10:06] CG: Well it w9uld seem that during my attempts t9 visit my fell9w therapist, R9se Lal9nde, I mixed up my 6l9ck num6ers and happened t9 kn9ck 9n her d99r instead. She was very p9lite and rather g99d natured a69ut the mix up, s9 9f c9urse we started s9me friendly 6anter and intr9ducti9ns, and it devel9ped int9 a rather l9vely chat.

[10:06] TG: oh hell no

[10:07] CG: I'm s9rry? Is there s9mething the matter?

[10:07] TG: can you just

[10:07] TG: not talk to her

[10:09] CG: N9t talk t9 her? I ap9l9gize 6ut that seems like a rather heavy request. Riley and I were getting al9ng quite well, and I am n9t the kind 9f pers9n t9 just shut s9me9ne 9ut at the dr9p 9f a hat. H9wever, if y9u c9uld explain t9 me why y9u w9uld like me t9 av9id s9cializing with her, then I c9uld 6etter understand the issue?

[10:09] TG: oh my fucking god

[10:09] TG: i cant even start

[10:10] CG: Y9u can't?

[10:10] TG: no its just i shouldnt even have to explain youre not supposed to make friends with my mom

[10:12] CG: I still feel as th9ugh I am n9t understanding why y9u are percieving this as a negative thing. Actually quite t9 the c9ntrary I think the relati9nship Riley and I have is actually very 6eneficial t9 devel9ping 6etter ties with y9u and y9ur 6r9ther. I n9w understand where Dirk's tendency f9r agressive 6ehavi9r c9mes fr9m, Riley has d9ne well t9 clear up several 9f patches 9f grey area f9r me.

[10:14] TG: why do you have to understand any of that shit

[10:14] TG: like how is that your business

[10:15] CG: I supp9se its n9t, 6ut it wasn't as th9ugh I dug f9r it, which is what I assume y9u are implying there. D9 n9t w9rry, Dave, I w9uld never d9 s9mething s9 depl9ra6le.

[10:16] TG: you already are trying to be friends with my mom

[10:16] TG: thats fucked up you cant just

[10:16] TG: go to her

[10:18] CG: 6ut I just said I wasn't? We have 9nly sp9ken 9nce, 6ut she didn't seemed 9ffended 6y my c9mpany.

[10:18] TG: ok great just leave it at that then

[10:20] CG: Hm. Well, if it makes y9u m9re c9mf9rta6le, I can d9 my 6est t9 av9id engaging in c9nversati9n directly with her. 6ut if Riley d9es appr9ach me then I w9n't 6e rude and turn her away. I d9 n9t wish t9 cause y9u any futher distress, Dave.

[10:20] TG: yeah sure whatever

[10:22] CG: Are we "C99l" then? A69ut this?

[10:22] TG: yeah sure whatever

[10:23] CG: Was that an accidental repeat, 9r did y9u write the same phrase twice?

[10:23] TG: i wrote it twice

[10:24] CG: 9h.

[10:24] TG: yeah

[10:24] CG: Well.

[10:24] CG: H9w have y9u 6een?

[10:25] TG: fuckin great

[10:25] CG: That is g99d. I myself have 6een d9ing well recently.

[10:26] CG: H9w is y9ur 9ffspring?

[10:26] TG: shes fine

[10:27] CG: That is als9 very g99d.

[10:28] CG: Y9u kn9w, I feel as th9ugh I have taken up a g99d am9unt 9f y9ur time, s9 I am certain y9u will n9t 6e frustrated if I take my leave.

[10:28] CG: Unless y9u did want t9 talk m9re.

[10:28] CG: Which I can d9 if y9u desire it.

[10:28] TG: no thats good ive reached my quota for the day

[10:29] CG: A qu9ta? Hm.

[10:29] CG: Either way, g99d6ye f9r n9w, Dave.

[11:04] CG: Hell9, Dave.

[11:05] TG: what

[11:07] CG: I wanted t9 message y9u t9 express my c9nd9lences, as 9ne friend t9 an9ther. As well as 9ffer my services sh9uld y9u feel the need t9 talk 9r have s9me9ne t9 listen t9 y9u. After everything that has happened it w9uld 9nly make sense that y9u might require s9me9ne t9 vent t9 a69ut it, s9 I wanted t9 pers9nally remind y9u that my d99r 9r chat channel is always 9pen.

[11:09] TG: no its fine

[11:09] CG: Are y9u certain?

[11:10] TG: yeah why wouldnt it be

[11:10] TG: you do what you gotta do

[11:11] CG: Right. Well d9 remem6er that my 9ffer will c9ntinue t9 stand. I understand that during em9ti9nally trying times like these s9me can 6e hesitent t9 the help they may need at first.

[11:11] CG: 6ut if y9u are sure y9u are 9kay, I will n9t push hard.

[11:22] TG: im fine

[11:23] TG: shit happens all the time on this place

[11:23] CG: S9 I am n9ticing.

[11:23] TG: big events tend to not matter so much anymore

[11:23] CG: 6ut that d9es n9t mean y9u are imune t9 it c9mpletely.

[11:23] CG: N9 9ne is.

[11:24] CG: And I think that these past events are far 6ey9nd the clasificati9n 9f "6ig."

[11:29] TG: dude youre just overanalyzing it

[11:30] CG: I d9n't really think I am.

[11:33] TG: no you definitely are

[11:33] TG: everyone just needs to move on

[11:36] CG: Granted m9ving 9n is the ultimate g9al h9wever I d9 6elieve there is s9me time all9wed f9r rec9very 9r m9urning. A l9t 9f really terri6le, h9rri6le things has happened in the last m9nth it is n9t s9mething that can easily 6e 9verc9me.

[11:39] TG: it can if you make it happen

[11:39] TG: theres really no fuckin sense in trying to dwell on shit

[11:40] CG: I.

[11:40] CG: I really am unsure if any9ne c9uld just shrug it 9ff t9 that extent, Dave.

[11:40] TG: theyre not trying hard enough

[11:40] TG: i did

[11:40] TG: i made it work

[11:41] CG: Are y9u sure a69ut that?

[11:41] TG: yeah dude

[11:41] TG: im telling you right now

[11:44] CG: Pard9n my dis6elief then.

[11:44] CG: Aparently y9u are a6le t9 d9 such a thing.

[11:44] CG: I am alm9st impressed. Even I have 6een struggling with the passing events.

[11:45] CG: In my 9wn ways.

[11:47] TG: where theres a will theres a way bro

[11:50] CG: Right.

[11:50] TG: just give it some time i guess

[11:54] CG: Yes I am certain that with en9ugh time I will 9verc9me the destructi9n 9f a wh9le h9me planet, the mental scaring 9f the falsified w9rld and creatures we were 69th exp9sed t9, and the death 9f a friend. Y9u are very wise, Dave.

[11:54] TG: see when you talk like that you make it sound dramatic

[11:54] TG: thats your issue

[11:54] CG: My issue?

[11:54] TG: thats why youre having a hard time

[11:55] CG: Are y9u.

[11:55] CG: Are y9u actually 6eing quite seri9us right n9w?

[11:55] TG: stuff gets blown up kankri

[11:55] TG: people die

[11:55] TG: that happens all the time

[11:57] CG: Y9u kn9w I really d9n't think that it d9es.

[11:57] CG: N9t t9 this extent.

[11:57] TG: its basically just what you choose to pay attention to

[11:58] CG: Dave an entirel planet expl9ded and pe9ple have recently died. I think that might 6e s9mething t9 pay attenti9n t9.

[11:59] CG: 6ut I supp9se y9u are entitled t9 y9ur 9pini9n 9n what y9u think is w9rthy 9f paying mind t9.

[11:59] TG: but why waste your time thinkin about it when you cant fix it

[11:59] TG: like thats just dumb

[11:59] CG: That is a questi9n I find myself 9ften w9ndering.

[12:00] CG: Perhaps it is 6ecause I am c9nstantly reminding myself 9f the fact that there is n9thing I can d9 a69ut it.

[12:00] CG: Y9u kn9w, I think this c9nversati9n has run its c9urse.

[12:00] CG: My 9ffer fr9m 6ef9re still stands.

[12:00] CG: Enj9y the rest 9f y9ur evening, Dave.

[09:50] AG: Hey, Ampora!

[09:51] AG: Are you finished spending all of your free time in the infirmary or........?

[09:51] CA: youre not bein captain so dont ask im not electin you an youre not takin ovver

[09:52] AG: That's not even what I asked!!!!!!!!

[09:52] AG: Although I would 8e incredi8ly eligi8le and you know it!

[09:55] CA: no you wwouldnt because no one trusts you but me

[09:55] AG: I thiiiiiiiink your trust 8eats out everyone else's, don't you think?

[09:57] CA: not in this case cuz no one wwould followw your instruction

[09:57] AG: When you're the leader, people do what you tell them to. They have to, or else there are consequences. Duh!!!!!!!!

[09:58] CA: not this creww an im not doin that all ovver again im sorry vvris

[09:59] AG: I'm sure you'll promote me at the very least. Even though the next captain won't 8e as good as I would 8e!

[10:01] CA: oh

[10:01] CA: a promotion

[10:01] CA: i suppose i can take that into consideration

[10:02] AG: Might as well do it 8efore the new captain takes over.

[10:03] CA: wwhat department are you evven in again

[10:10] AG: Fucking shipmen. Uuuuuuuugh.

[10:10] AG: Can't get ANYWHERE with Redglare there. She's out to get me!!!!!!!!

[10:15] CA: wwhat do you mean

[10:17] AG: She H8TES me. Won't give me a chance to show her how gr8 I am at like EVERYTHING.

[10:26] CA: HUH

[10:27] CA: *huh

[10:27] CA: i suppose i can uh

[10:27] CA: talk to her or somethin

[10:28] AG: Or just promote me. I can even do another department!

[10:34] CA: can you though

[10:35] AG: Uh, yeah? I pick up shit real fast, you know that!

[10:36] CA: i dont even fuckin knoww wwhere i could put you i dont think

[10:36] CA: shit

[10:38] AG: Well. You still need a first m8.

[10:38] CA: i cant

[10:38] CA: do that

[10:38] CA: i dont think

[10:40] AG: You don't THINK.

[10:40] AG: I think you're capa8le of doing anything.

[10:52] CA: not for long an i just

[10:52] CA: i dont wwanna demote anyone evveryones doin great

[10:52] CA: i s uppose i could appoint a vvice of a department

[10:53] AG: That's a gr8 idea!!!!!!!! You should do that for EVERY department!

[10:54] CA: ugh thats a lotta promotions

[10:54] AG: Or just me. ::::)

[10:57] CA: i cant make you vvice a evvery department that wwouldt wwork

[10:58] AG: Of ONE. See? This is why first m8 would 8e PERFECT.

[10:59] CA: no

[10:59] AG: Are you just getting rid of that position or what?

[11:02] CA: uh

[11:02] CA: i dunno

[11:02] CA: maybe

[11:02] CA: or maybe im gunna fill it myself

[11:02] AG: What? Why????????

[11:05] CA: because i dunno that i wwanna givve up leadership entirely

[11:09] AG: Well. Do you need a co first m8????????

[11:17] CA: no

[11:19] AG: I think you do.

[11:20] CA: no i fuckin dont stop pressin me

[11:21] AG: Ugh fine.

[11:21] AG: Anyway. You never answered my question.

[09:10] CA: wwhich question 

[09:10] CA: youre askin about a million fuckin questions

[08:43] AG: The FIRST ONE. Way at the 8eginning where I ask if you're finished spending all of your free time in the fucking infirmary!

[08:49] CA: oh

[08:49] CA: right

[08:49] CA: yeah im outta the infirmary noww

[08:49] AG: Fiiiiiiiinally!

[08:49] AG: You 8etter 8e doing something awesome.

[08:49] CA: wwait wwhat do you mean

[08:50] AG: With your free time.

[08:50] AG: And not like, I don't know. Sitting around????????

[08:53] CA: wwell i cant exactly do anythin else

[08:53] AG: 8ooooooooring.

[08:53] AG: When's that going to change?

[08:57] CA: i dunno if i evver fuckin wwalk again

[09:00] AG: You're GOING to walk again, Eridan.

[09:06] CA: yeah ill believve it wwhen im on my feet again

[09:06] AG: With that attitude, it won't happen. 8ut whatever. We can work on that.

[09:24] CA: theres nothin you can do about it

[09:24] AG: Ain't nothin I can't do, Ampora. Remem8er that.

[09:25] CA: theres plenty you cant fuckin do an the surgury that wwould be required to get me back on my goddamned feet im pretty damned sure falls in that category

[09:28] AG: Oh my god! I'm yawning right now, I hope you know. 8ut it's whatever.

[09:28] AG: I'll stick with you, even when you're 8eing lame.

[09:35] CA: wwelll at least theres that

[09:38] AG: There we go. That's the spirit!

[09:38] AG: What would you do without me?

[07:12] CA: i can name a lot

[07:13] AG: It's ok, Eridan. I know it's a little em8arrassing to need someone like me around!

[07:13] AG: 8ut there's really no shame in it.

[07:18] CA: vvris wwhen are you gunna stop doin this uh

[07:18] CA: wwhatevver the fuck it is youre tryin to do right noww

[07:19] AG: I don't think you realize just how VAGUE you sound.

[07:19] AG: I really have no clue what you're talking a8out this time.

[07:45] CA: ugh wwhatevver nevvermind its not wworth tryin to talk to you about this

[07:46] AG: What is it????????

[07:46] AG: You can tell me anything!

[07:51] CA: this front youre pushin the wwhole you totally need me an the constant denial a anythin beyond that

[07:56] AG: Well you do, don't you?

[07:57] CA: no an you knoww i dont wwere not quadmates anymore wwe havvent been for fuckin months

[08:03] AG: Woooooooow.

[08:03] AG: Since when do you have to 8e in a quadrant to rely on someone else????????

[08:03] AG: And technically we were NEVER in a quadrant. Officially, anyway.

[08:06] CA: yes wwe fuckin wwere

[08:06] CA: twwice

[08:09] AG: Uuuuuuuugh.

[08:09] AG: I'm not the one 8ringing up the past here, 8uddy.

[08:16] CA: thats not wwhat this is about

[08:17] AG: I don't see why I have to have a QUADRANT with someone to CARE a8out them.

[08:18] CA: thats not wwhat youre doin youre so fuckin persistant

[08:18] AG: Are you saying I'm FLIRTING with you????????

[08:19] CA: no im sayin you should fuckin cool it because its been SWWEEPS since ivve knowwn you an youre still playin the same card you alwways havve

[08:22] AG: So what you're trying to tell me is that things have changed.

[08:22] CA: yes an youre refusin to

[08:22] AG: Honestly, I don't see ANYTHING wrong with consistency.

[08:22] AG: You're lucky I haven't changed.

[08:23] CA: vvris you mighta had a shot at shit like bein first mate hell evven CAPTAIN if you fuckin changed

[08:39] AG: Ok, so if you have such a clear idea on what qualities I should have acquired over the sweeps, go ahead. Tell me. Tell me aaaaaaaall the ways you wanted me to 8e less me.

[08:41] CA: no im not doin this forget it

[08:42] AG: No, Eridan. You have my full attention! Take advantage of it!!!!!!!!

[08:42] CA: youre just gunna deny evverythin i say theres no point

[08:44] AG: Wow, way to give up!

[08:53] CA: yeah maybe i am

[08:53] -- caligulasAcquisition [CA] ceased pestering arachnurasGall [AG] at 20:53 --

[08:54] AG: L8R.