until the moon falls
"Umm, absolutely fucking not." Ciri is started at the gruff voice that interrupts her shuffling into the great hall. Her clothes are askew, her shirt is half poking out her brown leather leggings. Vesemir is gonna bite her ass off for the abominable way her boots are tied, and if Calanthe would have lived, Cirilla would have earned herself a slap from the state of her messy braid that's half yesterday's braid and half knots and frizz from her last attempt at sleeping.
She felt all five witchers eyes upon her when she came into the room, the sound of their grunts and jeers letting her know that she was the last one to come out of her room. Geralt's gaze burns brightest, and she tries to ignore it as she walks over to the large pot upon the fireplace, bubbling bland gruel an odd mix of off white oats, black specs and white milk that hadn't been fully mixed in yet.
Vesemir's eyes are heavy, and she licks her dry, chapped lips when he grunts at her appearance. She doesn't want a lecture, she tried her best to be presentable after another long night of no sleep, plagued by her ghosts and her broken heart, the voices off all she had lost and had been taken from her and the smell of smoke from Cintra's burning walls that never seemed to leave her nose no matter how many times she washed her face or dunked her head in water.
Aiden and Coën are concerned, they're the most sensitive witchers, probably considering they aren't wolves, that they had lost their families just as Cirilla herself had, and unlike their beloved wolves, there is no mentor or two brothers each to comfort their losses. They're more open with their feelings, gruff as a witcher can be, and they brought her comfort in ways that despite how much she loved Geralt, he never could quite understand. They stare at her with pity and understanding, and a baseline of concern that all present witchers wear.
Eskel is the most standoffish towards her, even with the red headed prick of a wolf lives in this cold, drafty keep. It's nothing to do with her, she knows that, but he has issues regarding a different royal witcher child surprise, one from so long ago that seems to echo in the same hallways as Cirilla. It took over two weeks for the witcher to not scuttle off whenever the Queen of Cintra was in the room, longer to recognise that this girl was not Princess Diedre, that this was not his child surprise. That the rightful Queen of Cintra was Geralt's girl, and there was no need to fear a five foot pretty blonde with a broken heart and a wooden sword. Now, he is lovely, and now he watches her with pity and his own grief in his eyes.
Lambert, however, he is the only one to bring her out of her reviere, her head aching and heavy from lack of sleep. Nerves shot to shit from her ghosts and her demons, her instincts slow and her body lagging with her exhaustion and her fear.
She hadn't expected Lambert to speak, hadn't expected any of them to, to be honest. They never did. Cirilla allowed them their ghosts and their pasts, and they allowed her hers. Ciri never asked Geralt about Blaviken, never bothered Eskel about Diedre, she and Lambert never spoke about his parents, Vesemir didn't tell her about all the bodies of the boys he had raised and loved and burned in the pyres, and Coën and Aiden kept their sackings to themselves. That was how it always was, how it always had been. Apparently, not today.
"What?" She mumbles, scratching the back of her head, feeling the impressive blonde knot at the back. Her attempt to fill a bowl with a couple ladelfuls of bubbling oats is shorted when her black chipped bowl is removed from her hands and the oats are returned to the pot.
"Nope." Lambert grunts, dropping the bowl and grabbing the girl's shoulders. "Back to bed with you, Majesty."
The nickname that had always been just a tounge in cheek joke didn't come out as snarkily as it always had, so Ciri frowns at him, spinning right around when he tried to push her to the doorway.
"What're you doing?" She slurs. "Got training-"
"No, you do not." Geralt and Lambert say at once. They eye each other, and Ciri looks from one protector to the next, licking her lips.
"Listen to Daddy, pup." Lambett huffs. "Look't the state'a you." He drawls. "You look like shit, nerves shot to pieces, got bags under your eyes darker than the markings on the milk cow. You really think we're gonna give you a weapon when you can't stand straight? You'll take your own hand off, loose a foot. Now, what you're gonna do is drink some water, get a ladelful'a gruel down your throat and take your prissy little arse back to bed. And if any of us see you even lookin' at the training grounds, you're banned from all swordplay til we see your arse sleep from dusk till dawn. Understand, girl?"
Ciri looks to Geralt for backup, only to frown in betrayal when he shrugs her off.
"He's right, Cub. No good to anyone, even yourself, if you're exhausted. Drink, eat, then go back to bed. I'll check on you after breakfast, make sure you're still in the furs."
"And he'll tan your hide if you think of sneakin' out when none've us are looking. You got that, Princess?"
Utterly betrayed, Ciri huffs, reaching over for the big brown water jug.
"Fine."
"Don't look so dour, Pup. After all, you can see me throw this dick off the rooftop any day of the week." Eskel smirks, Lambert flips his middle finger at him, and Ciri manages a smile.









