#wing.txt

General thoughts

Avidmc was the reason I ever fixated on vampires in the first place, I would not have even bothered with bannerfall or the flight if it were not for them. I had a lot of fun, and I really enjoyed being in all of these fandoms. I loved tf!avid and v!avid a lot and cc!avid can’t change that.

Depending on how things go with the flight and tf!water in-canon after all this, I may continue to fixate on tf!water, but probably not. If cc!water does continue on the flight it will be a version of tf!water who has just lost the two most important people in the world to him, and I don’t think I want to see the consequences of that!

I had a lot of fun with bloodrain and aviscott, this whole time I’ve been using them to try to figure out how I can let myself hyperfixate on fiction without it completely taking over my life and making me miserable. I actually made a lot of progress with that experiment, and learned that constantly creating fanart, fanfic, and anything else helps immensely. I was planning to go back to aviscott and vsmp at some point to try again with that fixation but uh…that probably won’t happen now.

I may take a break from art in general, just because I don’t really feel like it rn. bloodrain was what was driving me to create.

I’ll probably avoid also any media for now that I would risk hyperfixating on, and I might even leave mcyt fandom altogether. I actively did not want to be in any mcyt fandom before aviscott dragged me into it against my will. As far as I can tell, this kind of drama just. Keeps. Happening. I’m not sure if I want to risk trusting another cc in case it happens again.

I may go to a different fandom, probably Houseki no kuni if I do. I’m not sure. Theres also a low but nonzero chance I’ll start making gtarp fanart (Probably Leo Escobar or chase rp LSPD, as spaceboy is a comfort streamer for me rn and is playing chief of police). I might continue with tfsmp, just following different characters? But it’s a bit of a hassle to fixate on a livestream-based smp. There’s a good chance I will at least watch pantheons, and I might be in the fandom for it. Crossing my fingers for more compelling yaoi storylines because that is the kind of thing my brain latches onto.

Either way, i will be back on this blog closer to artfight!!!! I am very very excited for artfight.

Art & animatic wips

V!avid & aviscott sketches

A very old vsmp aviscott wip I didn’t want to post bc I hated the expressions 😭 i still think it’s pretty though. Was based on an idea for a fic that atp will never be written. It’s hard to tell but Scott is wiping blood off of Avid’s face

An rough draft for a vsmp aviscott animatic. Song is Snakes by Sorry

Tfsmp sketches

Tf!avid drawing. I am still so happy with my linework on the boots, I wish I got to finish this. Honestly, at this point I might as well make a new character so I can reuse that linework

BIG Houseki no kuni/land of the lustrous manga spoilers below!

Some sketches for a hnk au with bloodrain as cinnaphos. Some of the conversation on the bridge in the stream when avid was corrupted reminded me of a cinnaphos conversation from one of the later chapters. And then a bf!avid as an Admirabilis. Here’s some ramblings from my notes about this:

Water and cinnabar are very similar characters. Water feels cursed with their water magic, cinnabar feels cursed with their mercury. If it so much as touches anyone else it will permanently damage them, and it kills all plants and wildlife. They can control it, but not enough to feel safe around others. So they self isolate in a dark cave on the coast, far away from the school.

Both self isolate, are vaguely suicidal, both have an idea in their head that they are meant to be alone and self-sabotage any potential friendships. When someone tries to be their friend, they give them zero grace to make mistakes and take any excuse to push them away.

Avid and Phos both have good intentions but don’t go about it the best way. Later in the manga, phos has been beaten down and discarded so harshly they let go of their love for the world and take revenge. I noticed the similarities between this version of them and corrupted!avid, they will say whatever they can to cause pain to the people that wronged them….avid tried to prey on water’s loneliness, which immediately reminded me of this scene with cinnabar.

Also phos and avid both had someone they were close to who was violently ripped away from them due to circumstances that they readily blame themselves for, and this experience completely alters their view of the world and changes them as a character.

Also also phos at one point tried to convince cinnabar to run away with them to the moon, which they refused. Similar to avid day 1 wanting to run away with water, and water refusing to leave because of marm.

I am sure the overlap between these two fandoms is just me but. I’m having fun. ( 🌀🌀🌀🌀🌀Ooo you want to watch/read hnk so bad 🌀🌀🌀🌀🌀🌀it’s absolutely gorgeous and tragic and changed my life 🌀🌀🌀🌀you want to read the manga so bad 🌀🌀🌀)

And then just some more thoughts:

- i really really wanted to do this audio with bloodrain 😭 i still think it would be really funny. (Anyone who’s better at separating art from the artist and wants to keep making stuff you are more than welcome to steal the idea)

- I believe in peace by shayfer James and Kate Douglas fits tf!marm very well

- Hide by rainbow kitten surprise is a song about accepting being gay that SO fits tf!avid: