#willheforgiveme

If I tell him I'm sorry for everything and mean it, Will he listen to me when I tell him I want to die, softly and without pain? Will he understand and grant my wish of not wanting to be here anymore? Will he listen when I ask him, beg him, not to take me to hell even though I have sinned so greatly and so often and not heaven either, not even a third thing we don't know? Will he listen and make me disappear forever?