#wildlots

In that moment between sanity and everything falling apart they tell you to count to ten: One: your breath is shaky and your palms are sweating Two: ‘Why don’t you just calm down?’ they say Three: the room starts to spin, you are losing the battle with your thoughts Four: you have forgotten what it feels like to be happy, you think it will never happen again Five: you take a deep breath Six: you tell yourself it will all be okay Seven: you don’t know if you believe your own words Eight: the pressure on your chest starts to release Nine: the thoughts start to loosen their hold on your captive brain Ten: the cycle begins, again.

The day I realized I was in love with you was my last lonely day, because even though I can not have you every day that I see you I feel as if I am whole.