wildemoon said: His death has hit my harder than any celebrity death since Jonathan Brandis (who I was desperately in love with in my tween years). He still pops up in dreams, I still get choked up listening to old Glee songs. Still hurts.
He's the first of my idols to leave us (see, I still can't write it). I still dream of him too, but it's always After. Once I dreamed he was alive and hid out here in Sweden with Chris. I was pissed at him for hurting us all, but still so happy. Right after his death I dreamed I tried to talk him into not going to Vancouver, like it was still in his future, but the rest of the world was in the present (at the time). I still sob or cry while listening to his Glee old songs, or songs about Finn (I've got a playlist dedicated to him and Finn, it's on right now). I think it will always hurt, at least a little bit.
