trying to imagine the internal games and tricks I’d use to cope w/ gemma’s situation and like. I don’t even know. I don’t even know. nothing is yours. nobody truly cares for you down there. everything is totally drained of what makes life worth living. you have your private thoughts, but you don’t even know if they Get those from you when you’re taken into the various testing rooms bc you don’t even know what they’re doing in there. nothing is yours!!

















