#wilbur posts

Beings with problematic sources (including fictives and fictionkin) generally get the short end of the stick, but I feel like whatever gets thrown at fictives, gets thrown at factives (and factkin) worse.

So, I just want to remind you. You don’t have to feel bad about your source. You don’t need to source separate. You don’t need to spend your life repenting your source’s actions.

I am not my source. But, my source meant a lot to my system and my creation as a nostalgia holder reflects that. I know that there are problematic factives out there who very much are their source. You are valid too.

That being said, your source is not an excuse for bad behaviour. Sometimes, you’ll need to unlearn certain beliefs and behaviours that might stem from your source. That isn’t an attack on your source or you. It might suck at first, but trust me, it’ll be better in the long run.

it's weird because I feel so Alone sometimes. Like even tho I have a tight friend group in our system sometimes when I'm around them I still feel...alone.

No one I know has the experiences I do..most of our introjects our fictives and I know we have some other YouTuber introjects but they're so different from me.

Even our other burs don't relate to me, they're nice and all but I don't relate to them, they'll all three fictives and I'm just the odd one out you know?

I've even tired talking to the systems friends on some occasions but I always feel like I'm intruding. Like I'll be overlooked because I'm not that persons friend even when the other person is also a System.

I wish I had someone who understood what I'm going through. I feel isolated even tho I'm not. I don't relate to our factives and I don't relate to our fictives not even brainmades.

Honestly I don't know why I made this. Guess I just needed to vent..or maybe I'm looking for advice.. Hard to say.

- sincerely, @kidneywillstealyourrightball