#whyamicrying

An Engagement Story

in a private moment Vihaan bared his soul to Kelela and he proposed. Giggly revealing that he thought she'd be his wife after the first residency celebration where they had a conversation that completely solidified his attraction to her... how cuyteee.

What?

What just happened? Somehow, I found myself caught in the middle of the drama between her and Andy. And now… we’re friends again? "Friends" might be too strong a word after just two days, but tonight, for the first time in a long while, I felt no anxiety. Being around her, Emily, and a few others made me feel more like myself than I have in years.

I even stayed and had a couple of shells with her when I knew I should've gone home. I just didn’t want the night to end—I missed her more than I realized. I’ve healed a lot over the past few months, especially since Gabe came back into my life, but... I still overthink everything.

Originally, I planned to approach this ceasefire cautiously, walls fully up. That lasted all of ten minutes after she sat down beside me. Suddenly, I was spilling 75% of everything that happened in my life over the past year. So much for keeping things close to the chest. I even showed her what I made, the thing I promised myself I’d keep secret and pretend didn’t exist if it ever came up.

I guess the truth is, I’ve accepted that I’m in love with her, which is only second to Stacy. The difference is, I’ve let go. That feeling will probably never disappear completely, just like with Stacy, but the space it takes up in my heart is shrinking a little more each day.

Now, it’s small enough for me to remember what made me feel that way about her in the first place and to appreciate those parts of her as a friend. It’s genuinely been a privilege to watch her grow from the person I first met into the amazing woman she is now.

I originally came back to Tumblr because I needed a space to scream into the void without judgment. But now that I’m here, now that I feel this way, I’m not sure if I need that void anymore.

Thank you for this brilliant idea you got @jacksoopticboop

I don't even know how to start

Jack took time for his mental health which is very courageous of him but most of all, he trusted in us, and look where it went : people founds new friends all over the world, met other persons and that's beautiful !

And I know that he cares about every single one of us, not as a number, but as human being, he makes us laugh every video, he's joking with us, he's giving us this PMA that we all need in our life, he's always there like a friend or even like a second family, he loves talk to us like we do, he encourages us to do the best of ourselves every day, he's the little sunshine of our community

This year is actually really hard for me in my familly, my school, my friends I was in depression and I still be upset at this moment and I'm just tearing up for even think about it

But Jack helped me so much to forget my problems, every time I'm crying because of what my mom did to me, I'm watching his videos, or tumblr and it gives me the energy and the inspiration to continue my life... because he's always positive and makes people more happy, he's so kind with all of us and I don't know how to thank him. I'm just so proud of who he is and what he's doing for his community. And also he's not that kind of youtuber who does their videos for the money, always money, they don't care about their community at all ! No. Jack is doing it by passion, from the bottom of his heart, he never gives up because he has that passion to do what he loves... He's such an inspiration for those stupid "money" youtubers and for the artist (edits, drawings, all that kind of stuff)

I personally met incredible and talented people because of him, I made friends !! Me, the little shitty and shy person that I am, I mean it. Now I'm just crying but by joy, because I am so proud of Jack and thankfull

I can't continue this monologue because I can't fond the right words to describe all that love I have and I just hope he'll continue to be our small coffee bean

Just thank you @therealjacksepticeye

Thank you