Ive been living in Victoria for I think 6 months now. Over half of the time I will spend here has already happened. It's weird to build a life knowing that shortly you will have to abandon it, but it also somewhat takes the pressure off. I don't have the time to worry whether or not these people actually like me before reaching out, just send the damn text if you want any sense of a social life. In many senses, I feel like I'm really living for myself here. I've been consistently moving my body in a longer streak than most of my adult life, and actually enjoying the process and the strength I am begining to feel. I bike more than I bus now that the weather is decent. For the last 2 months I have traveled somewhere anytime I have had consecutive days off, en fait - this week is my first week taking a break from that and for the first time I am experiencing the desire to take it easy from traveling and adventure (though I better get something on the books for next week hey).
In more exciting news, I finally have my own camp setup. Last week my partner got to tag along to a lil overnight backpacking trip and it was ME who carried the heavy bag, it was my tent we used, my camping stove, I had my own sleep system, I insisted on hiking with the heavy pack because I am starting to have confidence in myself and my body. I do feel that I lean heavily on the people around me who are more experienced to collect wood and start the fire and remind me not to whistle in the woods and all other things really because these gals grew up doing this shit. I think I'm getting off track.
Its now 3 hours later. I came here wanting to find a path to PR but it hasnt fallen into my lap nor been behind any of the doors ive opened. At this point I am ready to stop worrying about it and be excited about whatever is to come next. I can travel, I can go home, I can get another WHV in a different country, I just dont want to worry myself about status in Canada anymore. Of course I am going to be so sad to leave this country, but I do believe that it will always be here and there will be other, probably longer, pathways I will be able to take in the future if I can just manage to get a career oops. The weather in Vic isnt even that good man like it was 25 yesterday but today its raining boo. That's just what ive been telling myself to not feel bad about leaving.
