I've been changing so much in my late 20s idk how to process it all sometimes. I've been watching Star Trek lately so the most relevant example is just like several dimensions or parallel versions of my life have being colliding but it's just my memories of myself conflicting with my current self. Things I don't identify with presently: I used to do drugs. I used to love to not sleep and party with friends and neglect my responsibilities I used to wear more makeup and do my hair really trendy and cute I used to show how I felt through fashion and hairstyle I used to not want kids I used to not give a fuck about my fertility or not having periods. I used to be a sex machine, a super sexual confident and outgoing woman in the bedroom. I used to color my hair. I used to drink Kombucha everyday- I used to eat junk food, fast food, any food I wanted including meat. I used to seek attention from other men. I used to make art and take a lot more pictures of myself and my friends. I used to use regular toothpaste and never eat breakfast. I used to never run or do a lot of exercise. I used to not do yoga. I used to go out at night. I still go to movies sometimes or dinner but that's it. I used to not feel guilty about watching the same movies and tv shows over and over again. I used to not worry about dying. I used to want to decorate my apartment in my own style. I used to not care about traveling. I used to not worry about my moms health. I think this is enough writing for now.
