Jul 21, 2021
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#I love how it’s been. Six years since I came out as bi to my immediate circle#even though most people knew before that absolutely no one was surprised (which is……. another topic)#but I STILL have moments where I think back on a perfectly innocent memory from being a kid or teenager#and suddenly realise…….. babes that was very gay of you#I thought I had gone through them all but every once in a while something pops up 😭#like I suddenly remembered I was at this girl’s house who I knew from horse back riding#and I didn’t particularly like her but my mum had made friends with her mum#I think I was? 12?#and there was this website where you could play games#and one of the games was catching beer bottles in a crate and there was a woman on the edge of the screen#which. sure.#but the more bottles you caught the less clothing the woman was wearing smsmsmsm#and we played this? for hours? HOURS#spoiler alert that girl has a girlfriend now#I also matched with her on tinder sksksksksks n and months later my mum texted me like omg I have gossip#[…] is gay#and I was like yeah I know#before I realised that I wasn’t supposed to know dmdmdmdd GOOD fucking BYE#anyway. lots of things like that. that I thought were just normal things I have to go#or how it literally took me until like two years ago to realise that my childhood best friend who always made me cry and whose boyfriends#I absolutely hated and who I could stare at for hours and think she was the most gorgeous girl I’d ever laid eyes upon#….. that that wasn’t platonic. babes you were in love with her.#I remember she once asked me if I was a lesbian or something bedause I’d never had a crush on a guy (we were 11????????? calm down???????)#and I felt#my stomach sink in panic though I didn’t realise why#and then when I did have a crush on a boy that summer I immediately ran home and proudly told her first thing because see I’m not gay#never mind that you had dreams about her 😭#or didn’t feel like home was home if she didn’t sleep in your bed with you#oh man it’s been a ride#anyway I’m oversharing again apologies I just had lots of time to think snsnsnsn
