#whatswrongwiththem

Knowing myself, I’m going to have a lot of posts about girls, and they will mainly be about how they suck. I don’t understand what it is about them, but there’s just something that makes them super selfish and self-centered I guess.

My mom says it’s because they get boyfriends. She says that girls always start to act differently when a boy is involved. I get that boys change the dynamic of any best friendship that girls have, but I mea, is that the only reason?

I’ve always grown up getting thrown around and tossed from friendship to friendship. I’ve always had girls treat me wrong, change plans, and tell me that they have something else to do. All I have to say is... it sucks. IT FUCKING SUCKS.

I have gotten so used to it because I’ve been going through this since 5th grade, and I thought I was through it. Granted, the way that I had decided best to deal with all of this was by not confiding in or trusting any friends so that I wouldn’t get hurt. I would always do what they wanted and try not to give my opinions because I knew they would never want to do what I wanted, or I guess I never wanted to give them the chance.

Recently, though, I decided that I needed to be more confident in myself, that I needed to reach out and trust people more. I moved to a new town, and I ended up making friends. As I write this it all seems petty, but I think it;s because I’ve had so many bad experiences with friends that this ruined my trust and confidence I had with these new friends. 

I mean, the moment they bail on you, is the moment you know it’ll happen again, and that’s what happened... again. And now I’m doing what we originally planned on without my friends because I’m the bitch who won’t just do what they want, after they gave me a three day notice.