thinking
--well it has already been a few days since I have written in this blog and i am feeling so damn lazy --i am behind on literally everything
--i am a bum not working --i haven’t applied to any schools and oh i am not going to be able to this year because deadline is literally in 2 weeks so i have really screwed myself over and its making me feel like shit
--i do not want to be this lazy person that i have become--i just have no motivation at all --like its so bad
--does everyone get like this at somepoint in their life? does everyone feel like shit about themselves and just not do anything
--i mean i have an amazing life that is not my issue but it’s really apparent to me now that it is an issue i have with myself i feel so down about it but i feel like i can’t do anything to fix it
--fuck me man
