#whaaaa?

uururururhghhghghghhhhhhhh I can't ever remember the name of this blog but they had a couple gorgeous scenes with a pet whumpee (....bbbbbbblue?) and their little rabbit doll that they believed was alive. And. Something. Something something something smashing their fingers in a door? (i remember ['white. is white a feeling?'] and it changed my whole fkin world - been writing a little difference since i read that description) Such a good blog. Good pieces. I used to be kinda squicked by pet whump and now I love it and that little rabbit is a lot of why. Someone please drop a link so I can find it again, but anyway really really good scene where whumper ripped the little doll apart instead of punishing whumpee - left them locke din the cagee screaming and sobbing and begging for them to stop, but they didn't, they just ripped her arm off and the pet was begging so pretty and I loved it.

Wow that was a tangent. My brain is bbbrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr today (owpain).

But that's what this reminded me of, and is the only time I've seen a whumpee who believes a doll to be real (true or not), so just know that this list is going to be heavily influenced and inspired by that scene. man that was a good scene - okay im done

(In)Animate Caretaker

Whumper stepping on them without paying attention while crossing the room.

Caretaker struggling with knots, trying to tug free ropes as thick as their body. Maybe getting an arm stuck - dangling like that.

Whumper demonstrating to Whumpee what they’re going to do to them - on Caretaker. Caretaker forced to be completely silent and try so fucking hard to stay limp through the pain.

“Aww, I didn’t know you still played with toys, Whumpee.”

Tiny Caretaker desperately trying to push a med kit across the ground to where Whumpee can reach it. Shoulder pressed to it, feet slipping against the ground. Barely making any progress.

“I can’t take you with me - th-they’ll take you away-”

Whumper quite literally tucking Caretaker in with Whumpee - just being condescending about it, but at least they’re both there now.

Caretaker dragging themself across the room with broken legs to try to get to the bleeding Whumpee - having to pull themself through the hot, sticky blood that’s quickly pooling.

“They won’t see me. They won’t. I’m just gonna grab something really quick - you need food. ‘I’ll be fast - I promise-”

Whumper’s head tilting once they see Whumpee wince at Whumper throwing Caretaker across the room. Starting to piece it together.

Caretaker having to play dead halfway through a stitch. 

Whumper finding Caretaker in a completely different room - taking it as a sign that a naughty Whumpee had gotten out of their restraints/cage/room. Punishing Whumpee for Caretaker’s mistake.

Whumper casually picking up Caretaker and throwing them across the room on their way to Whumpee.

Whumpee having to shove Caretaker under their pillow when Whumper shows up - will they suffocate??

Congratulations, I can now for the life of me not stop saying whaaaa? (Still love you though *dashing smile*)

9:30 yesterday morning, I wake up with welts under my knees running down my shins.

Not alarming, considering I have dermatographia/demographia and get welts that maybe itch a little, but otherwise just come up then leave.

This was weird though, because I woke up with welts for no apparent reason. Went to show my parents and realised it was up my forearms too.

Fast forward a couple hours, welts have become fiercely, terribly itchy and spread up my upper back, the back of my neck, my head, my ears(???what?), on both sides of my arms and legs now and crawling up my thighs.

Do 111 online, they say see the pharmacist. See the pharmacist, they can't give me anything stronger than the prescribed I already have for eczema, they say see the GP. Go into the GP's, see a doctor? Right away?

So, she gives me uberantihistamines, but because my body is already full of histamine, it's like locking the barn door after the horse has bolted. Nothing I can do except wait it out, maybe use cold packs on it, and keep being aware of my breathing/swallowing in case my throat starts swelling, but she doesn't think it's likely.

Also tells me that it doesn't seem to be an allergic reaction? Okay.

Later that evening, literally covered in bright red welts, from my scalp to my feet, my face, the only place I didn't have it was my waist on the front…?

Itching, annoyed, feeling absolutely freezing cold so I'm bundled under two blankets and two hoodies and still shivering.

So I go to bed, wrapped in cold wet towels to manage the itching on my arms/legs, absolutely knackered.

Wake up! Go downstairs because maybe calamine lotion will help me sleep longer than 2 hours? Feel weird and dizzy and breathless…

Go to the loo, hmm, feeling… bad. Dizzy, SO cold, full-body feeling like pins and needles meets thawing hands after you've been out in the snow, I'm convinced I'm going to pass out and half scared I'm actually dying.

Puke.

Blugh.

Felt less like I'm going to pass out immediately, but I threw up, which was worse, and I'm still itchy and shivering.

Go back to bed, get doused in calamine and more wet towels, go back to sleep.

Get up, uh-oh, the fainting pain is back, bam, puke again. This time, just water, which is the worst thing to puke after Bovril.

Get back to bed, wake up this morning less welty, but now my feet and hands are ridiculously swollen, big fat sausage hands, and the itching has become a burn.

Bottom lip starts to swell so I gently freak out a little, but thankfully it's gone down.

I still feel pukey, my hands huuuurrrt, feet aren't too bad because they're in cold wet socks, but I'm still cold, still shivery and all weak like a strand of dying algae. Also dizziness is happening.

Still don't know why its happening. The itching was annoying and uncomfortable, but nothing close to a migraine - the fainting and puking though was bad.

Can you get anaphylaxis without a swollen throat? Like? IDK.