#wellnotanymore

This one was written when I was deciding whether to resign from my first job - the job I had for almost 5 years and pretty much the only thing I know in terms of doing a job during that time.

Well. . I did resign.

Lessons from the Devil Wears Prada

No one would ever be enough to change anyone. No matter how good you are, or no matter how they need you to make their lives easier. People with soaring egos and tenacious superciliousness are the hardest ones to bend. You'll just exhaust every strength you have that one day, you would have to say to yourself that you should have left them earlier than you've realized or you shouldn't have started having a relationship with them at all. Because all you have to do in the end is quit - and leave them the hell on their own.

 But these people, no matter how much pain they cause your ass, are the ones whom you can learn a lot of life lessons from. They're the ones who'll truly test your limits. Because they're the ones who teach lessons in a way that you’ll learn not just by osmosis but also by reflection - in a way that gets you to dig deeper in yourself to understand the things around you and how you feel about them and determine whether its right or wrong, and whether you’ll adapt it in your system or not. And with these, they're the ones who you'll thank the most for everything you know in your life. They're the ones who, with no much effort, will painfully reveal the real you and what you really want to become and what you want to have in your own imperfect-but-you-decided-to-be-a-happier-than-theirs kind of world. Because now you realized that these people's worlds are no different than yours - sick, sad, chaotic and with bigger problems they themselves don't know how to solve that they chose not to mind them instead - numbing themselves to pain and enriching their egos and superciliousness as remedy. You see how horrible their worlds are and how these worlds turn supposedly sane and good people into little monstrous replicas of them.

 People with excellent judgment and high moral standards become exactly the opposite making poor decisions and losing their characters. Those who seem good, engaged in unimaginable hideous acts like;

 1. hooking up and banging people they don't even know except for the name probably (or they don't even know that as well) just to give themselves a break from all the pressures caused by getting into the world they try super hard to fit in. I bet these people's next step is paying for casual sex because time will come that with their so called busyness, they won't have time to talk their way to get some stupid girls to bed, but they have the money to pay, thus the ghastly act is done.

 2. getting involve into a forbidden love affair. By this, I don't mean lying about or sneaking out late at night to see a boyfriend whom your parents don't approve of. But getting into a romantic relationship with a man twice or thrice your age and whom you know is married. And that is for the sole reason of getting ahead of everyone else and the perks that go with it - the highest executive position one can possibly have, money, and the things that money can buy.

 3. destroying other people's lives instead of helping them. Being in a position where you have people under your supervision who looks up to you for help and inspiration definitely feels good. But if you are someone who are in that position by accident, that is you are there because you like the feeling it brings to you - the authority, the prestige, the luxuries, you'll do everything you can to keep your position even if that means sacrificing other people's lives - other people's way of supporting themselves and their families - just to get your selfish motives done. Instead of working on other people's strength to make there lives better, you find faults in their personalities so that you would have grounds to kick them out of their jobs and to make yourself a hero in the eyes of those you set as little gods in your life whom you have to please every time for you to be retained in wherever you are right now.

 4. having a family in the verge of getting destroyed because the wife doesn’t have time for the family anymore. She arrives at home almost often than not, with the lights off, and her kids and spouse already sleeping. And then one day, he heard him said that she’s more like a “boarder” in their own home, nowadays. Another working mother couldn’t help the tears falling from her eyes when her kid told her this: “you know, Mom, someday, if I’ll run a company of my own, I won’t get my employees’ time for their families”.

 5. letting somebody else control your life. The kind of life where you say "yes" even though you know deep inside, not just in your heart, but even some parts of your brains tell you that you should say "no". But you have to manage impressions, some would say. But that's just to justify and to stop their egos from hurting knowing that they're letting other people manage them to become the worst person they can be instead of becoming a better one. Well, I guess this is just one of the many horrible things a person can do for money.