the way they butcher my man kimchi so early on is laughable. wdym he is operating on the dichotomy of good and bad. this man? that i put under the cut for your convenience?
here is his narration about the nineteen lives he's had:
There was no will in my movements.
There was no desire in my slaughter.
I was merely a puppet, moving only as commanded. A carousel that drank blood at the summon of duty. Whether I destroyed, cried, or laughed, in all those days, I was a hollow shell incapable of containing the longing of a soul.
But I was not sad.
Nor was I happy.
i BET he wanted things to change because this is also what he has to say about that
But I thought, now, it was different. [...]
I thought I was free now. That I would cry and laugh of my own will, eat and drink, and at times, talk to others—simply live like that.
Like a fool.
okay? this man now operates on the Good and Bad? he doesn't even know what that means. he's never had to before. he's never even experienced it. he's not a good guy or a bad guy he's a blank slate. what are they doing
even in his narration not once he's referring to anything good or bad. he calls his duty sorrowful because it's one filled with bloodlust and death, but it is not cause he's, like, an inherently good guy. he's inherently a fucking nobody. if i quote the exact phrasing he uses to rationalize not killing credos it's gonna kill some people. the "endlessly welcome endlessly detestable" straight up from the text. kimchi will not look at the man whose bullshit he deems "dear and frightening" and go oh........are you....... good..... or (smiles smirks evilishly) are you bad?......... jesus christ man he is working on a completely different plane have you seen him get an aneurysm from just SEEING credos and clocking IMMEDIATELY this is also the guy who is essentially his god. what are we doing
