Why am I cranky?

Because I'm reminded how much I hate it when people who live in a house or apartment with other people do certain chores tirelessly without help to the point thag if they dont do it- no one else will.

And I feel like an asshole for hating this because of other things like "well every once in a great while one person will do a little bit of work" or "I get paid to do it so" or even just "well they all work and i stay home anyway so..."

And I guess because at one point in my life I was the one doing all the chores fucking because the other person worked and just expected me to do it all because I stayed him this rubs me the wrong way, it always has and always probably will.

And I feel like it makes me an asshole.

Then I am frustrated with the Covid shit because my son's social development is taking a massive hit, hes not able to go out and socialize and play with kids his own age and he keeps asking to go play or to go to the park and I cant take him because im.scared of Covid. It's so fucking heartbreaking when he talks about missing his friends and wanting to play with other kids and he cant.

And to add to thag everytime I leave to go do my jobs, I see the parked packed full of kids because their parents just dont fucking care, and it makes me feel like I'm over reacting and hurting my son's social development because I am the one with anxiety.

Then my mom calls up after she leaves like "yeah I need you to clean the back yard because someones coming to mow the lawn" at the last fucking minute which was super fucking annoying.

And then I keep thinking about other things with other people. Like people who are always lamenting on being lonely and wanting to talk and then when intry it's all just one word replies.

I can't

I cant hold a conversation with that, I cant hold a conversation when all I'm getting is

"Haha"

"Lol"

"Mood"

"Same"

"Yeah"

Or various other things. That's not... that's not a very stimulating conversation and it feels so one sided and I try to be paitient because I knownits hard sometimes to be social but I cant work with that.

Among a few other various things that annoy me but arent a big deal.