#weightloss changes

When I was fat, I didn’t really care that I was fat. Some people were very vocal about how fat I was but there were only a few times I found it offensive. Like that time I was told I couldn’t sit at the front of the FX because it’s for 2 people. I told the driver to chill and paid for 2 people instead. My feeling was hurt for about 10 seconds and I moved on. Even though I was fat, I felt pretty (although, looking at previous pictures, I kinda like myself better now to be honest). So yeah~ I just didn’t really care that I was fat.

Lately, I was told by someone to be mindful of my jokes and that’s when it hit me. “OMG, I’ve really gone to the other side.” I felt uneasy and started thinking of all the times I may have offended somebody overweight. My brain (and current joke supply) haven’t adjusted to this new me yet.

I now know this is something I have to work on. 

”MySpace Angle” is when you take selfies from above to reduce your visible size — this is an old trick that’s still quite popular because it works. Most of my previous pictures when I was still a fatty were taken at this angle because it hid my double chin and the absence of my collar bones. 

Before: When I see a fat person, I see someone I can have awesome food trips with. Someone who will not judge me for stuffing my face with whatever food I want and feel happy for me. A food BFF!

Now: When I see a fat person, I look at their face and imagine how hot they can be once they decide to lose all their extra weight. In my head I’m like “Wow~ he’s really handsome. That guy’s gonna be super hot.”