#weeeee.

on one hand there's not remembering it, but that becomes monotonous because you're literally repeating the same day eternally [though since you can't remember i guess the monotony wouldn't bug you]

on the other, remembering your previous loops seems awful worse. the murder parts of the game aside, you eventually would run out of things to do if the loop were, say, central to a specific place like it is in game

SPR WARNING=SIDENOTE-PARENTHESIS-RANT WARNING Again. Rant-rambling. It happens. Skip it if you have to reread to keep the actual update able to be followed. (Or read it if you're sick of hearing me talk about my life, it's hard to follow these things anyway)

So. Another day spent in a hospital for shit no one can explain.

I woke up on Saturday feeling totally off and knowing some serious shit was about to go down. And sure enough within the next two hours, it felt like my ears were being filled with sand and I lost my hearing to this weird sandy-static feeling and made the decision to send myself to the ER when I was positive it was turning into a seizure-type-episode, and also decided 'better in a hospital than on a pull-out bed where 911 will route you to a hospital that judges someone in pain asking for something more than a dose of ibuprofen they take more of every 8 hours almost every day for a migraine and actively inject corrosive and dangerous intravenous-forms of medications into veins because they take(NOT inject) those daily too'.

SPR WARNING The hospital of my choice is in one of those "'famous' Arizona-'district'-pairings" that may or may not be considered part of the 'major city' a 'major street' blends into depending on who you're trying to tell where you live and is also reason no one knows what you're talking about if you don't call it that. (ie 'Mesa', 'Chandler', 'Gilbert', usually 'Glendale' and 'Tempe', sometimes 'Scottsdale' and 'Flagstaff' if not rich and/or frequent (rich)traveler- All "Phoenix".  So. 'Vail', 'Marana', 'Oro Valley', usually 'Green Valley'- All "Tucson".[Unless it's on the freeway in 'Vail' before 'Tucson' and/or has a ranch or big patch of land off freeway before major neighborhood-developments, in which case, 'Vail' is "Vail".] Get it? Not really? Yeah I know. Nobody does. I present to you, the point somehow.)

They're actually more of a "specialist hospital for old people and their old people problems" if you ask them and they also have some weird "ER-Somehow-Not-Totally-'Affiliated'-to-'Actual'-Hospital-Even-Though-We-Can-Admit-You-Into-It" thing that I don't think is even common enough at all in the slightest to actually be a thing you can actually do. But since I tend to have the 'old people problems' 'only old people get', I see no reason to not see the only semi-competent and actually managed(-at-all-in-the-slightest[albeit, barely]) Emergency Room, ACTUALLY closest to my apartment that isn't this one (also, don't ask me to finish that story yet, I've had to cut myself off my dextroamphetamine) (also again/hint, and not this one [in which you may also have recalled] the aforementioned 911-default one) That: 

DOES NOT treat you like a druggie for wanting painkillers other than your usual and unrelated regimens and morphine because all lesser opioid/opiate medicines trigger your gastroparesis and cause a weight loss/malnutrition crisis for OVER A YEAR due to the ONE TIME they were tried.

Has doctors in the same building 24/7 DOING THEIR JOBS 90% OF THE TIME(BELIEVE ME IT'S A UNHEARD OF PERCENTAGE IN EMERGENCY ROOMS)

DOES NOT force people in obvious crisis and therefor ACTUAL EMERGENCIES to sit in a waiting room full of 'people who don't know what "Urgent Care" is's, waiting on 'people who don't know what "Urgent Care is'. SPR WARNING (fuck you and your S's. [SEE][Any other letter wouldn't have made THAT weird looking either. SUPPOSEDLY YOU CAN TYPE 'Ss' AND HAVE IT MEAN MULTIPLES OF THE LETTER "S"{PROBABLY SHOULDN'T DO THE Ss EXAMPLE AS 'Ss', AN EXAMPLE, EITHER BUT FUCK YOU TOO AS WELL THANK YOU.}], IT IS GOING TO WORK, because I CALL THEM 'people who don't know what "Urgent Care" is' AND I HATE ACRONYMS) ('IT WILL READ AS IF I AM SPEAKING', THE CARDINAL RULE OF A REAL-LIFE-HERMIT[NOOOOOOO ACRROOOONYYMMMMSSSS{DONE LAUGHING ABOUT THE WHOLE 'SPR WARNING' THING YET?? BECAUSE "SIDENOTE-PARENTHESIS-RANT WARNING" DOESN'T WORK WITH THE HYPHENS? IF YOU WANT ME TO SAY 'SUE ME', INSTEAD HOW ABOUT SUING TUMBLR FOR HAVING 1, 2, 3 TEXT DISTINCTIONS WITHOUT A LINK|click that one. It's what I hope for when people do those hashtag-links or something. I'm always disappointed.|}] AND VLOG-LESS BLOGGER)

DOES NOT leave you there for 3 hours until a doctor even speaks to you and can order medications, tests, and treatment options.

DOES NOT make you wait another 3 hours for the doctor to sign discharge papers AFTER taking the IV out and being ready to walk out of the hospital.

Has nurses that go and FIND the doctor if you need something rather than waiting for the doctor to magically appear again, usually hours later.

Realizes that the longer they keep people there, the more people will get stuck in the waiting room and/or be absolutely livid over it on both ends.

Listens to the words coming out of your fuckin mouth.

Has never sent me to a waiting room, even after triage.(PROBABLY, BECAUSE THEY CAN GET BEDS OPEN BY DISCHARGING PEOPLE WHO NEED TO BE DISCHARGED AND ADMITTING PEOPLE THAT NEED TO BE ADMITTED.)

Makes copies of every single test result they have, even if it's completely normal and/or highlight any abnormality, no matter how small, making it impossible to be unable to follow up with your doctor(s).

Has no problem letting you eat and drink whatever you want so long as the doctor isn't worried about any possible surgeries in your future(granted they have virtually no cafeteria-worthy options, but they DO have 4 vending machines[aka what I would die to have functioning in my house all the time] one of which has drinks and another with microwave options[next to said microwave].) (All in the waiting room.)

And, has nurses that like to joke around about everything and aren't afraid to use that famous 'dark hospital humor' with patients that have obviously seen a time or two(something they would ACTUALLY KNOW because they and the doctors all PERSONALLY READ YOUR FILES/HISTORY)

To name a few.

So to finally wrap this up, nothing admittance-worthy since my symptoms lessened and the only real 'finds' from a CT scan, an hour-long ultrasound of my neck for some reason, blood/urine tests, and chest X-Ray, Were low White Blood Cell count, high infection cell levels, and low potassium.