#wavesofemotions

the really only safety place for me is writing. It is the only escape I can come home with. Its like having my own inner circle, with no one to judge you, and with no one to control you, it helps to outgrow myself from all the pain that have felt. And for all of the people who always gives there toxicity on me. I hope, I just really hope, and I pray that let writing stay with me and soon I’ll be able to write more on life and happiness in a brighter days. 

𝖄𝖔𝖚 𝖜𝖎𝖑𝖑 𝖋𝖎𝖓𝖉 𝖍𝖊𝖆𝖑𝖎𝖓𝖌 𝖎𝖓 𝖞𝖔𝖚𝖗 𝖔𝖜𝖓 𝖊𝖘𝖘𝖊𝖓𝖈𝖊 💜🌊🖤 Last January I had a vivid dream of two orcas in a small pond. It wasn't right, they couldn't breathe. They were so magnificent it was scary. I tried to walk past them but one beached itself and I felt so deeply it wanted to talk to me. I turned and looked into its eyes. "I'm Lost" The broken voice of a child, deep soulful eyes, vulnerable & scared. I promised to help them both & looked to the sky asking for help in returning them to their home. I began a healing journey & this dream revealed the orca was me, my soul. My inner child was asking for help. Calling me to swim deep. When I feel overwhelmed, I go to the water. Surrender to the love of the divine feminine element. Recently, I heard a new depiction of my favorite tarot card, The Star. A naked woman & body of water. "You will find healing in your own essence" There is such grace & power in holding space for yourself. To show yourself unconditional love. To allow yourself to cry, through each tear you release your old story. You rebuild trust with yourself. With the embodiment of love, you return to your soul's essence. You return home. Forgive yourself for abandoning your soul. Affirm I am listening now, I am here, I won't leave you, you're safe to be who you are, I love you in each moment. Divine Union is Within☯️ #holdinghandswiththedarkness #holdspaceforyourself #wavesofemotions #soulfuleyes #orcaspirit #teardrop #release #divinefeminine #divineunion #healingwaters #healingjourney #returninghome #soulguidance #innerchildhealing #sanctuary #thestar #swimdeep #soothesthesoul https://www.instagram.com/p/CI4BBw7FKTW/?igshid=3ujxthbopsnx

tired of all the people’s bullshits. tired of pretending to understand all the shits in life. tired of some people who constantly tells you that you can’t make it, tired of all of them who always says that life is hard for you and will always be tired. tried of pretending to be happy for them, and for what they want. tired of being able to do what they want me to do. tired of all the people who worship there money and fame. tired of all people who seeks attention only for themselves. tired of being with toxic people and environment. tired of everything. tired of trying. tired of being someone that is not me, my wants, my needs, my hobbies, my passion, my goals. I know declare to follow whatever my heart really lets me be. I don’t care even if will not please them those people, if it will not benefit. It’s time for me to fight for me, to give justice to me, and to let myself be truly free.

My wings came in waves. #wavewings #wingsofwaves #wavesofemotions 🌿💜🌿

It's better to be this way cuz idgaf lol jk kinda but not really.