so-- i want to express my love for something (and im doing it a post here because i tried dishing on chats and nobody seems interested lmao or knew what i was talking about)
ive been a big fan of interactive fictions since i was little - i would play these really old scruffy game-books. that is what we called them here. they were basically books that allow you to make choices as the main characterĀ (sending you on a different page according to your choice), having you write down inventory, stats etc. and i absolutely loved them. they were actually the first thing that made me want to write stories myself)
while im at the subject i suppose some of you are aware that I write a bit. I want to explain to you WHY im such a disappointment as a fandom writerĀ (u can skip this part if you want. ill keep it in 1 paragraph) I started writing when i was around 12 years old~ and i basically kept at writing original stories in my native language (Bulgarian) which nobody wanted to read. I moved on from writing solo when I was around 15 ā and I started writing in a duo, again original stories. I wrote with different partners - different stories. Ā 4 years ago (20 years old at the time) I found myself at a place where I moved cities and I had grown apart with my writing partners. Unfortunately I had become too accustomed to working with a partner ā I found myself completely crippled as a solo writer. I was unable to put together 2 pages before I felt drained and without motivationā¦ which led me to completely stop writing (which was a miserable time because it was also when I stopped drawing altogether- incited by my loss of inspiration and motivation which was closely tied together with my writing) // 2 years ago I started drawing again and I felt motivated to go back to writing so i finally cracked and tried to write fics in english in the hopes that those at least someone would enjoy and i wouldnāt have to feel like i sucked balls as a writer (because thatās how it feels when nobody wants to read anything you write. Even more try keeping that up for almost 10 years. No interest from anybody except for my writing partners. Actually having partners was the only thing that kept me motivated to continue as long as did)...~ writing fanfics turned out to be vastly different than original stories - first because of world building, second because of character creation - both of which is what i most enjoy about writing. Without those i suppose my imagination gets stumped and i canāt think of a plot or character arcs/development (because I donāt feel completely free with the characters or the world~ because they are not mine and I want to honor their original setting as much as I can) which leads me to abandon the projects i start. Another obstacle is the language. While I think im fine as an English speaker I find myself lost when it comes to literature flow ā simply said, sentences are structured differently. Also more often than not my vocabulary feels lacking and I donāt know how to best express my thoughts when I canāt think of the right word ā something that I have no problem in my native language. These things together lead to a difficulty in my thought flow which in turn leads to me being unable to write or writing very slowly and loosing motivation or focus. When you put all of these together, they make me angry and make me lose confidence in my writing skills and also my language skills so in the end I drop whatever im writing. I tried adapting in a different way ā writing first in my native language and then translating it but it takes 3 times longer to write, first to translate the words, then to rework the structure on the sentences and paragraphs. An example for this method is my Fairy Billy fanficĀ (which was also first an original story that i adapted into a fanfic because my main OC felt flat. it felt a lot more rounded up and complete when i combined it with stranger things lore and harringrove dynamics) In my opinion, yes, it sounds better but itās hardly worth the effort and time.~ i guess all i wanted to say is that i hate disappointing anyone that follows my fics and also i really miss writing original stories with a partner...
ANYWAY! back to what i wanted to say in the first place->
im so obsessed with these interactive stories i found a few days ago (RPG for android called Delight Games) its extremely fun!
there is this series in their library called Ring City (its classic medieval fantasy) and you can play different characters (warlock, demon, rogue, ranger~) basically in the same world (kind of overlapping in places). its such an awesome world build and ive played 2 characters (there are 2 more i havent) and im so in love with it!!Ā
but i played all the chapters they have so far and i have to wait for more (im crying) and i dont know what to do with myself!!! AHH i wanna talk about it so much with anyone else who had played it to compare choices and geek over it lmao
