Rest In Peace Ma!!! Shelly how am I going to do this thing called life without you? Mom, I love you, please say it back, My ears need to hear it more than ever, Mom, I love you, my heart needs to feel it more than ever. Shelly how am i supposed to survive without you? I’m sorry for all that I put you through but I cherished you, without there would be no me, I would be lost in this world and I pray that the love I poured into you paid for all the stress I cost you. Thank you for saving me, kissing on me and hugging on me, you was THAT WOMAN, when everyone was gone, We had you Ma. You were the lifeline a lost child needed, you were the heartbeat to my pulse, you were the breath to my lungs, you were the foot to my print, the spine to my back and the soul to my life, send me a sign and tell me where do I go from here. I’ve cried tears, to float a boat, I never wanted wind in your sails because I just can’t see you go, so i am holding on to you like an anchor. We never spoke about emotional things, we just knew the unconditional love was there because we showed it, we never spoke about tough times because we just overcame them but now I wish we had time to have those conversations. Mama you aren’t allowed to leave, I’m allowed to be selfish about my mom, you saved me from a cold world and they say a parent isn’t supposed to bury their child but it’s even harder for a child to bury their parent because who’s going to parent us during these hard times, who’s going to wipe the tears away, hug your shoulder and tell “it’s going to be aight” who’s there to parent a grieving child? I took our time for granted, thinking we would get more time and I’m sorry mom, I should have did more, I should have said more, I loved you unconditionally but I should have loved you more. When everyone went home to their families, I knew when I got lonely and needed a shoulder, listening ear or a love I couldn’t find, I knew 4:25 - 4:06 was there like clock work. ❤️🕊😇 I needed you more than you needed me and I need you more than ever now, I just pray you heard my last “I love You” forever Shelly’s Boy!!! 💔😇🕊😢4:06 Gang #WardStrong #thisisknowledge (at Heaven's Gate) https://www.instagram.com/p/CRyn-PehpiP/?utm_medium=tumblr
