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Change your vision and growth will follow. Closure isn’t a necessity but clarity is. Once you stop wanting revenge is when you’ll be able to move on, be at peace and grow. How can you be at peace, how can you be happy, how can you experience mental, emotional, spiritual and physical growth if you are out seeking revenge on the people that crossed you or did you dirty on some level. At some point you have to let go of what was in order to embrace what is. Don’t get so caught in what has happened or is happening to you and start loving yourself out of those situations so that you can be at peace with yourself and grow. That pain has you stuck, that bitterness has you jaded and that envy has you at odds with people that has mentally, physically and emotionally moved on without regardless of your wellbeing. Heal yourself by letting go of the past and moving on without any regrets. Don't lose hope, quit, blame yourself, have regrets or give up on love because someone took your love for granted, someone failed you, someone wasted your time or someone wasn't ready to give your their all like you was. Timing is everything, Rome wasn’t built over night and your healing process isn’t going to be a overnight process, time heals all wounds. You might be broken, hurt or in pain but that feeling doesn't last forever. Sometimes you got to watch the love turn into hate, friends turn into enemies, family turn into strangers, loyalty turn into betrayal, shred some tears, endure some pain, embrace some hurt, witness jealousy first hand, feel the weight of the world on your shoulders, feel broken, beaten, lost, alone and hear your cries fall on deaf ears in order to find yourself and rise up. It's lonely when you are stressing, down, broke, hurt, embracing pain, dealing with heartache, overcoming obstacles, determining what's real and what's fake but as long as you keep faith, hope, god and just know your time is coming but patience is everything. Timing plays a key part in everything that's happening to you, even through the tough times, have the patience to wait it out it and know that your time is coming sooner or later… #thisisknowledge (at Philadelphia, Pennsylvania) https://www.instagram.com/p/ClcDYmMvpbS/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

Some prayers don’t get answered twice, especially when God knows you are wasting his time. Don’t pray for it, beg for it and then mishandle it when you get it. The Prayer worked, you got what you asked for, you kept begging for, you got your chance to have it and now look at you, fumbling because it’s too much to handle. Normalize not asking for things or people you know you aren’t ready to handle because some blessings will only occur once. Don’t be too prideful to admit and embrace the fact that sometimes we just aren’t ready for the things want whether it’s mentally, emotionally, physically or spiritually but some how we love asking for them anyway. They say you only miss the shots you don’t take but sometimes you have to be selective with the shots you take because taking the wrong shot will have you in situations we didn’t prepare for. If you want it, if you think you need it, if you are constantly praying for it, be willing to put the work in to keep it. You can pray to have something and you can speak life into having things because that’s the easy part but see the hardest part is actually doing everything in your power not to lose it. It’s yours to have and hold but it’s also yours to lose. Don’t fold under pressure, play the hand you was dealt because every hands a winning hand if you play your cards right. Moral of the story: stop wasting gods time sending him prayers and asking him for things you know you aren’t built and ready to have… #ThisIsKnowledge https://www.instagram.com/p/CKTtsPWhqtc/?igshid=8sl9j342hk3e

And you and I don't share no common bond, So forgive me if I don't receive you with open arms… #thisisknowledge (at North Miami, Florida) https://www.instagram.com/p/B8Ch0n6H7PW/?igshid=g30vuuyb72gx

Stop expecting you from people. You expecting you from people that’s going out of their way not to understand who you are and that’s your downfall. Some people will never be able to reciprocate or give you the type of love you need, want or deserve because no one has ever given them that type of love they need, want or deserve. The Love you have to offer sometimes is too strong for someone that has never really experienced love to embrace. Although our hearts are breaking in silence, we still continue to love the ones that hurt us because somehow in this hurtful world of love we still believe there is still hope of having simple moments with those who hurt or put us through pain. Sometimes we let the urge of wanting what we want, when we want it and how we want it get the best of us and have us making a fool of ourselves trying to get someone we love or care for to reciprocate the same thing. Everyone doesn't put out the same heart as you do and everyone doesn't receive like you do and just because they don't does it mean that you should settle or compromise your self worth or respect just to keep them around. But at some point you have to smarten up, tighten up and wake the hell up and stop going to battle for someone or people that's not even willing to shoot a warning shot for you. See for some odd reason we love going to war for all the wrong people hoping that we can be the one that saves them but in reality they don't want you to be the one that saves them. What you have to understand is you can't save everyone, you can't love everyone, you can't have everyone you want, when you want them and how you want them and the sooner you accept that the sooner you will save yourself the trouble, some time, energy etc.. Even though your heart has a mind of its own and does what it wants when it wants, sometimes you have to go against the grain, against your heart just be realistic about things for once. We are never really ready for what love has to offer us good or bad but when you commit to loving someone or being loved by someone just be strong enough mentally and emotionally to accept and deal with whatever comes your way… #ThisIsKnowledge https://www.instagram.com/p/B-I_wQcn60E/?igshid=j3yp5lfmcb7z

Don’t expect what you can’t communicate and it’s just that simple. Everyone's not going to put up with "that's just how I am" stage forever. Feel free to be who you are and how you are at all times without a care in the world but don't expect someone to constantly put up with that shit as an excuse when those actions aren't living up to their standards. They shouldn't be trying to change and they should always want you to be who you are but don't make a fool out of them in the process. I'm allowing you to be who you are because I'm expecting the same from you in return but don't think for one second I'm going to let you keep using the excuse "that's just how I am" because you refuse to grow up and change your ways. It's all fun and games in the beginning when things are new and fresh but after awhile shit gets old and played out and people start to realize that you aren't who you say you are. Everything can’t be communicated via text message, sometimes you have to pick up the phone or be face to face. You can fake emotions and feelings via text messages but you can’t fake it face to face or on the phone because tone of voice and facial expression never lie. Everyone is grown until it's time to communicate. A lot of things go unsaid, a lot of things get misinterpreted, a lot of situations and things fall apart because there's no communication. You wouldn't be in certain situations with people whether they are good, bad, awkward, uncomfortable etc. if you just learned to communicate a little more in real life and not just on social media. People always got something to say via social media or but for some reason always get missing or become mute when they must open up the lines of communication in real life… #thisisknowledge https://www.instagram.com/p/Bu8kQgfHvWR/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1ipioz9skdvln

Keep it real or keep your distance. If you can’t get what you want with honesty or being real, what you want, is not for you.You will never have to force what’s real. If you have to fake the funk, become someone you aren’t, lie about your character, sell yourself short etc just to have what you want, what you want just isn’t for you. So many people lose their souls, lie, cheat, steal trying to obtain what they want or think they want just to realize that it isn’t what we really want and it doesn’t make us happy in the end. Sometimes we just aren’t ready for what’s real like we have think. We all say and scream we want real or want to feel something real until it's time for us to be real and then we just can't live up to our own expectations to be real. Be careful what you ask for because you just might get what you want and more. Stop asking for real and then start making excuses why you can't be real to your own demands. Don't ask for something real and forget that you have to be that in order to get just that. People will scream that they want this and that but soon as they get what they’ve been constantly asking for they get missing in action. I’ve had my moments were I’ve asked for more than I could stomach or was ready for and regretted it more than I appreciated it when I got it. People love saying they want something good, something real, something worth having until its right in front of them, then we freeze up and don't know what to do with it because it’s just too much to handle. Sometimes we just don't know what's good or what’s real even when it's right in front of us because we’ve been lied too or been lying for so long that we start to having a hard time deciphering what’s real and what’s not. These days so many people have a hidden agenda or a mission to gain something for nothing and it make it so hard to trust anyone these days but that doesn't meant that it isn't any good people out here worth having and risking it all for because it is. Don’t be so busy falling for the words of the fake real that you miss out on the real because the fake real got you believing everyone is just like them… #ThisIsKnowledge https://www.instagram.com/p/Bt2KWW_HbKf/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=eivc5398i010

Happy birthday to me, 11/11, what a time, what day to be alive, not where i thought i would be in my 30s but to be honest i was never expected to make it this far. Over the years i said i would do this and said i would do that, i said i would be here, i said i would be there etc and i must say i have perfected the craft of procrastinating, i have become great at it and that’s not something to be proud of at all. Last year taught me a lot, i took some major L’s and took them all on the chin with pride, i learned to eat my humble pie with a fork or a spoon and digest it without complaining how it’s served. Took some things for granted, took some people and our relationships, friendships etc for granted, had my buried my nephew, had my nephew/sons who’s been my reasoning for staying in va taken from me, constant beef with my sister, watched my baby brother become the best father to my niece, neglected family, friends With the good comes the ugly, with love comes pain, with loyalty comes betrayal, with friends come foes and family is family but i am appreciative of everything and everyone that’s helped shape and mold me into becoming the person i am today, thank you. If i told you i love you, i love you and even if we parted ways just know i still love you. I ain’t saying this year will be my year or this year will be better than last year but i will say i will hold myself more accountable, i will stop procrastinating, i will t.r.a.p. (TAKE. RISKS AND PROSPER) harder and go after everything i said i would without worrying if taste failure because what’s life with a few bumps and bruises. Thankful and blessed to see another year but it’s time to fucking flourish. 11/11 wishes made, wishful thinking, 🎂🎉🎁🎈🎊 #thisisknowledge https://www.instagram.com/p/BqDDXwXH01N/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=18zs0ssqlia9n

Being loved is something we all want, we all need and desire but never be too dependent on it that you forget that self love is more vital to your life than it is to be loved by someone else. Self love is so important and is why more important than the bullshit. Sometimes in order to avoid the bullshit life sends your way you have to love yourself enough to know not to deal with it. So Love yourself out of that bullshit and Learn to be alone, learn to stand alone, learn to be whole alone, learn to be happy alone and learn to love yourself without needing someone else. Being alone sometimes helps us become better people mentally, emotionally, spiritually and physically. Learn to Appreciate your "ME TIME" a little bit more. You don't need them like you think you do, you can survive alone. You need yourself more than you need them. We have to stop loaning ourselves out to people just to satisfy them, keep them happy or to keep them around. Stretching yourself thin just to keep someone else whole will do nothing but destroy you mentally, emotionally and physically. Stop going out of your way for people that will only check for you when they need something from you. Once you realize that you are able to stand alone you will never rely on someone else's presence to complete you. You can only play the fool but for so long before you realize that keeping certain people around just isn't beneficial to you on any level. It's cool to want someone, it's cool to think you deserve someone but it will never be cool to make yourself believe and think that you need someone to exist because you don't. You don't need them, they need you so stop playing yourself and start focusing on yourself more… #ThisIsKnowledge https://www.instagram.com/p/Bp4WpSgnJrm/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=tfz735x33dn3