lose some, win some | Spencer Reid Pairing: Spencer Reid x fem!Reader Category: Hurt/Comfort, Smut 18+, MDNI Summary: COLLEGE AU! When your debate team loses the national championship, you and Spencer return to your shared room and find a productive way to take out your frustrations. Content: Waldorf!Reader is a sore loser, lots of dialogue in the beginning, Sassy!Spencer, some talk of misogyny, Spencer makes up for it by being a munch (so f receiving oral), virgin!Spencer but heโs also a little shit, they are both little shits but itโs cute I swear, handjob, raw p in v but reader mentions she is on the pill, creampies, multiple orgasms for both of them (theyโre frustrated and horny give them a break) Word count:ย 4.8k (it's porn with a plot for once) A/N: Not really frenemies or rivals, theyโre just really angry young adults. Idk what Spencerโs actual age was in college, but he studied several times so for this fic, heโs on his third degree and is 21. If the debate stuff is incorrect, I'm sorry. I did do some research but there's so many different rules and styles lmfao. My friend who competes says itโs fine and understandable so :) also massive thanks to @just-call-me-by-yn @mggslover and @notlongtolove for helping me brainstorm and @wheresmacoffee because she was there JKย ILY ANDY their banter during the filthy part is for you <3.
Spencer Reid doesnโt particularly care about the prestige that comes with winning. Most people crave it for the validation, or because itโs another impressive thing they can slap onto their resumes, but being a genius his entire life allows him not to worry about that. His academics speak for themselves. He doesnโt need to pad it with extracurriculars. Instead, he enjoys the skills that are honed from debateโlearning to listen to arguments, finding the perfect way to rebut, memorization and reviewing with like minded individuals. The university team is a well oiled machine composed of four peopleโ him on his third degree, two other male juniors, and you, the only woman.
Over the span of two semesters, heโs memorized the quirks of his teammates. Itโs essential to building rapport, after all, and heโs eager to get something good out of this. Something less academic, and more social. Friends, perhaps. While heโs formed a bond with the other members, you have always been an enigma. Stoic and ambitious, you remind him of a statue. Cold and oh so beautiful. Youโve often kept to yourself. And after several rejected attempts at friendship, heโs learned to just observe from afar.
He knows from experience that observing allows you deep insight into people, and so he knows after two semesters that youโre perhaps the most competitive out of the entire team, the most hungry for a win. This drive, he suspects, comes from a deeply rooted desire to prove yourself, though heโs unsure why. What else do you have to prove? You have everything, as far as heโs concerned. Keenly intelligent, beautiful, with a circle of friends that adore you. You arenโt like him, who has to sink his claws deep into this debate team in order to get a dose of social interaction. No, you have a life, no matter how marblesque you may seem.
And yet, somehow itโs still not enough for you.
He thinks itโs utterly ridiculous, and absolutely fascinating.
The weekend of nationals is taxing. Youโve been fighting for the opener role since the semis, but it would require too much adjustment, which no one is willing to risk so close to nationals. Not only does he not want to give up his spot, he also knows how ruthless you can be as a rebuttal speaker. He's meek, and you have a tendency to be aggressive, it's why the original roles go so well.ย
Your adviser agreed, and thereโs been tension ever since.ย
To make matters worse, hotel arrangements somehow have placed both of you in the same room. The force of your resentment is palpable even to a normally clueless guy like him. Distracting. Pages being turned in your exaggerated annoyance. Heโd complain of dramatics, but he doesnโt want to start anything.ย
The fact that youโre rooming together also doesnโt help him. Sure, there are different beds, small twin mattresses on either side of the room, but still. Proximity to a woman his age has him anxious for reasons entirely unrelated to nationals.ย
So when you lose the championship, his concern for your reaction behind doors overwhelms the regret of losing.ย
No one is happy with the results. It is obvious from the set of his jaw, the tenseness of your shoulders. Spencer tries to calm down, accept defeat with a modicum of grace, at least in front of other people. He can tell the rest of the team is trying too, but quite unconvincingly. Onstage, accepting the medals for second placeโmockingly silver, and no trophiesโthe teamโs smiles are forced, plastic.ย
Back to the hotel rooms are a different story. When you slam the hotel door shut, it echoes down the hall and makes even your debate adviser flinch. It would have made Spencer flinch too, if he hadn't already expected it. He's grown accustomed to how bad of a loser you can be. Like a tornado, your anger spares no one from its destruction. It is in these moments that your stoic resolve crumbles, no longer unfeeling, but rather fully human. Hurtful. Ruthless Unfortunately for him, he's directly in your line of fire.
He catches bits and pieces of your muttered diatribes. Heโs used to those too. Normally, he would have ignored them. Losing sucks the energy out of a person, regardless of how uncompetitive he is. Besides, your ranting is mostly harmless, until one sentence snags his attention.
โโ knew I should have been the opening speaker โโ
He is clawing at his tie, trying desperately to get it off, but the words make him stop immediately. He whirls around, brows furrowed, โWhat?โ
You pause as well, โWhat?โ
โWhat did you say about being the opening speaker?โ He watches you roll your eyes. It does nothing to calm the bitterness in the back of his throat. The normal song and dance goes like this: heโd say a string of words in an attempt to soothe the fire burning in your nerves, and you'd say something so vitriolic he'd refuse to speak to you for the rest of your time together.ย
But today, having just lost the biggest championship after working so hard, he's a short fuse and your words are incendiary.
โI said I should have done it, like I askedโโ
โAh, as usual, you're mad that you didn't get what you wanted.โย
An offended scoff. He's almost proud he managed to pull that out of you. โYou take too longโโ
โNationals isn't the time to suddenly alter the roles,โ he tells you, shaking his head. He manages to loosen the tie, finally, tossing it on his bed with so much aggression it misses the mattress and lands limply on the floor, โI've always been the opening speaker.โ
โYes, and one would think that after going through so many debate competitions,ย you would learn to be more succinct,โ you snap, shoes making harsh clacks against the tiled floor, โThe goal isn't to let us know you're the smartest person in the room, Spencer, it's to set up the tone and groundwork ofโโ
โI don't need you to lecture me about being the opening,โ he interrupts, โI know what my role requires of me.โ
โDo you?โ Eyes flashing, you walk to him until you're almost chest to chest, โBecause we still lost.โ
โAnd you blaming me?โ he hisses, leaning down. He hates doing this, stooping to your level of pettiness. Normally, he would choose to be the bigger person, refusing your verbal sparring; he likes to focus his energy on the actual debate, the opposing team, not his own teammates. But your words cut deeper than normal; it isn't the fault the team lost, that's just a flat out lie, โWe advised you multiple times to memorize the statisticsโโ
โSomething you're better at!โ You look physically pained to admit his superiority, but the words spill anyway, โYou'd be so much better to do the rebuttals since you have your stupid photographic memory, and I can set the tone better, but nobody on this little boys club ever listens to me!โ
He's surprised at the choked tone your voice has taken. In his mind, you're a complete equalโyou made it to the team through hard work and impeccable skills, like the rest of them did, after all. It didn't matter that you are a woman to him, so of course his instinct is to deny. โThatโs not true.โ but even his voice sounds weak.ย
How would he know if itโs not true? Heโs never been in your shoes before, never had to reckon with what comes with being the only woman in a team of men.
โIsnโt it?โ he flinches at the venom in your voice, โYou all act like I'm an afterthoughtโI get the shittiest positions even when I know I can be more effective in a different one, no one ever asks me for strategy, hell, you never invite me to your stupid chess games.โ
His mouth opens and closes foolishly, latching on to the one thing he has a full response to, โI thought you hate chess.โ
A sharp laugh, petulant and bitter, โI do, but it would have been nice to be included.โ
He doesnโt know what to say. Youโve turned around, yanking off your pristine maroon blazer so roughly heโs afraid it might rip. The silence that grows makes him itch, hands balling into fists as he tries to think of what to do. Social dynamics have always been a thing of mystery to him.ย
He wonders if he is part of this problem. Heโs no stranger to feeling different and on the outs, and it pains him to think that he inadvertently caused someone else to feel that same, unpleasant exclusion.
But, no. Quickly, he recalls every single time heโs tried to include youโa museum trip that youโd declined because you had a party you wanted to attend. His extra tickets to the Nutcracker.
โThatโs not true,โ his voice is firm now, following you until heโs standing right behind. Lavender hits his nose and his brain registers the scent of your shampoo. Definitely too close if he can smell that, but he refuses to back away, intent on getting his point across, โThatโs not true, Iโve tried toโ you were always too busy.โ
โWhat, Iโm a liar now?โ you spin around, pretty features twisted to somehow express both anger and hurt. He almost falters. Almost.ย
But heโs too worked up, even though he knows he should back off, to not trivialize your experiences in order to defend himself. He should know better than this, but the sting of your accusation spurs him on. So he pushes, eyes narrowing, โLast year, September 14, 21, and 29, I invited you to come with us for several casual chess tournaments, you declined all invitations because you claimed you hated chess. October 29th, I told you about the new exhibit they were displayingโโ
โIt was Halloween weekend, I already had plansโโ
โDecember 19th, I offered you Nutcracker tickets and you said youโd already seen itโโ
โI have,โ your voice has grown quiet now, and if he stops speaking for a single moment to look, your features have relaxed into something gentler. But heโs on a roll, and you have always been right about things; his inability to be succinct is one of them.
โEven this year, I invited you to study multiple times, but youโve always had prior plans,โ the words are spoken with neutrality. He isnโt even angry anymore, just eager to list everything down and let you know how hard heโs tried with you. Even after the numerous rejections, heโs made an effort, but of course, you have other friends, other plans outside your nerdy debate team. Heโs never held that against you, but if you wanted to point fingers, he has the means to defend himself. And sure, he wants to prove you wrong on some level too, but thatโs the lesser point. โMaybe if you stopped acting like youโre better than me, and just accepted, you wouldnโt be feeling so excluded.โ
โI donโt act like Iโm better than you.โ
โYou just said you would have made a better opening speaker.โ
You scoff, โOh my god, youโre infuriating, I canโt believe Iโm stuck with you!โ
Spencer bristles at that, โIโm giving you the facts, itโs not my fault you canโt handle them.โ he says, leaning closer, trying to make her see his point, โYouโre always so closed off and the other guys have just given up trying. Maybe if youโโ
โWhat? If I smiled more? Acted less like a bitch?โ you sneer, eyes narrowed dangerously, โI thought a genius like you would know better than to use misogynistic language like that.โ
โWhaโ no! Donโt put words in my mouth.โ Spencer replies, shaking his head. The conversation is devolving into something dangerous, the air crackling with something electric. He assumes itโs anger. They will never get anywhere, so he sighs, softening slightly, โI never said that. Iโm just pointing out that you werenโt blameless in this, you know?โ
Youโre silent. He watches you, takes in how the resentment in your eyes have been dulled by something more contemplative.
He continues, โListen, Iโm sorry if weโve made you feel like you were on the outs. Iโm sure we have to do so much reflection as a team and as individuals about how we treat each other, but itโs unfair to say that we never include you when I have actively been making efforts toโโ
Your lips are upon him.ย
Thatโs inaccurate.ย
You are upon him, arms flung around his neck, body pressed flush against his. He feels the entire world tilt, and heโs unsure if itโs because youโre pulling him down or because your lips are so pillowy heโs instantly eager for more. Wants it like a man starved. Needs it, needs more, but his body betrays him. Whether itโs his inexperience or surprise or a combination of both. He freezes, blinking rapidly at the sight of you. Eyes shut, and face so close to him; so, so close he can count each individual eyelash, see the tiny freckle on your eyelid that gets hidden if your eyes are open.
And then you're gone. The freckle disappears as you look at him with wide eyed mortification.ย
โShit, Spencer, Iโโ
Itโs his lips that cut you off this time, seeking out the velvety warmth of your mouth. Your lips part under his, and he registers a sound, soft and whining. It takes him a moment to realize it came from him, from the back of his throat and muffled by your lips and tongue and oh youโre both falling.
Literally. He must have leaned too far into you; youโre suddenly collapsing, forcing him down because your arms have him in a vice grip and heโs too busy chasing after your lips. The next thing he knows is heโs on top of you and youโre sprawled on the bed beneath him. Time stands still; heโs painfully aware of how cliche that is, but every sense of eloquence seems to have been expelled from his brain as he takes you in; lips swollen and wet from his kisses, pupils blown wide. Every breath you take pushes your chest up against his, and he can feel your heart thrumming against his body.ย
โWell, that was one way of shutting you up,โ you chuckle with a cockiness that makes his heart speed up, though it isnโt borne out of embarrassment. Every single physiological effect of your body is evidence that youโre enjoying this, telling him youโre just as worked up as he is. The breathiness in your voice, the quickness of your heartbeat.ย
The fact that youโre pulling him down again, legs hooking around his hips. He surrenders to it, lips meeting yours once again, deeper and more desperate this time.
He closes his eyes, relishing this, kissing you, touching you, an act he had believed is reserved for attractive jocks and charismatic art nerds. Not him, quiet and lanky, shifting to avoid his angular bones from digging into you, and to place himself more comfortably on the bed. Inexperienced, ungainly, and yet here he is, his tongue pushing into your mouth in his first forays into something that his peers have experienced years ago.
Spencer Reid isnโt used to being the one behind, doing the catching up. Child prodigy, genius, the words arenโt meaningless. Heโs been ahead academicallyโwhich, up until this point, has been his whole life. But feeling warm lips beneath his own has him reconsidering some of his life choices.ย
The kiss is messy. Sloppy from his clumsy attempts to keep up with your eagerness. Youโre tugging at something, and he realizes itโs to untuck the rest of the crisp shirt youโve donned for the debate tournament out from your skirt. His hands settle on your waist, finding smooth, heated skin from where your shirt has ridden up. Careful fingers help push it up, burying under the fabric until his palms are mapping out the slopes of your body.ย
Soft. So damn soft.ย
Not cold marble after all. He theorizes you must be soft everywhere, and he decides to test it out with his lips, laving kisses along your jaw, down the sweet, musky skin of your neck where your perfume still lingers. Instincts take over and he allows himself a taste, tongue darting out. You shudder, so he does it again, greedy for your pretty moans and gasps.ย
He canโt help the smile that tugs at his lips, โThought you were mad at me?โ he mumbles, trailing his kisses down the column of your throat.ย
Youโre all mhms and ohhhs right now, so far from the usual image you present to the world, a preppy, manicured woman who wrestles for control over everything. You must hate this, he thinks, being beneath him physically, caged within his arms which are deceptively strong for how fragile he looks.ย
โShut up,โ you grumble.
โMake me.โ His grin is dopey when he lifts his head to meet her gaze.
Something brushes against his crotch, and now heโs the one gasping, jerking in surprise at the friction. Youโve slotted your thigh between his, and his traitorous body responds by grinding down on it shamelessly. The look on your face is smug, triumphant.
โHuh,โ saccharine and mocking, you blink up at him innocently, โThat was easier than I thought.โ
His head drops to your neck again, but he isnโt kissing you anymore. Just open mouthed breathing as he rubs himself on your thigh, hands tightening on your sides, โMhm.โ
โAre you gonna come? Spencer, I havenโt even touched you yet.โ
He sinks his teeth into your flesh to fight the needy whines because yes, heโs so embarrassingly close and youโre both still fully dressed. He hears a hiss, and he backs off immediately, murmuring apologies, โDidnโt mean toโโ
โโS okay,โ you tilt your head back, give him more access to your neck, โJust donโt leave marks.โ
Permission to bite. He gulps, heart beating wildly, before ducking back down. Chapped lips run over your neck, finding a soft spot to bite, forcing himself to soften the way his teeth sink into your skin. All the while rubbing himself on your thigh because itโs probably the closest thing to heaven a man such as him will ever experience.ย
He hears your laughter, your mocking cooes of, โYouโre so fucking needyโ but he canโt bring himself to care.
Youโre correct, he decides, as you usually are. Heโs needy, desperately so, eagerly chasing the delicious pleasure of dry humping your thigh.ย
โHold on, Spencer.โ
You push him back gently. A whine rips from his throat, โMhmโwhy?โ
He gets his answer soon enough. Your hands undo his belt and he swears this sets his whole body on fire. Nobodyโs ever seen him like this. Never has another person touched him so intimately, seen him so out of control, so brainless. Heโs babbling incoherently as your hand strokes up and down his length, his hips rutting into your hand. Itโs out of sync. Two dancers on entirely different rhythms.
Your laughter rings in his ears, one hand tangled in his hair as the other does unspeakable, tantalizing things to his aching cock.ย
โMhm, canโtโ Iโm gonnaโโ and heโs spilling into your hand, hot, viscous liquid overflowing from your hand and staining your skirt, โAh, shit.โ
He collapses against you, head on the crook of your shoulder as he tries to catch his breath. โโM sorry, Iโllโ Iโll pay for your dry cleaning.โ
Your chest shakes as you laugh, โWould you? I think you owe me more than that.โ The heat in your voice makes his breath catch in his throat.
Soft kisses press upon your neck as he gathers his thoughts, willing his brain to work again. Anatomy, female anatomy. Female pleasure. What does he know about this? A lot, surprisingly, though mostly from books. Mostly in theory, but thatโs a start. He can put them to practice right now. His hands drag down your sides until they catch the waistband of your skirt. โMay I?โ
โOkay.โ
He pulls gently, exposing the rest of your thighs and legs. Honey brown eyes devour the expanse of your skin, hands clutching at the softness. He marvels at the way your flesh accepts his own, bright red splotches imprinted from his fingertips.ย ย ย
He thinks of poetry, the uncountable amount of words and phrases written to immortalize women and love and sex, and he finds himself wishing he has the skill to compose something as beautiful, something worthy of you right now, radiant and half naked and somehow all his.ย
But he is no poet, so he touches his lips upon your body instead. Pretty words will escape him, but his lips can speak even without them, heโll make sure of it. He kisses down your abdomen, making sure to pay attention to every hidden freckle and birthmark he comes across. Your reactions make him feel drunk, to the point of affecting him physically. Messier kisses. Hands tugging and nearly ripping the lace of your panties because heโs unaware of his own strength.ย
โSo pretty,โ he mumbles, โSo pretty.โ Itโs all he can repeat, but then his tongue lands on your slick heat and suddenly words are forgotten in favor of vague groaning. Because how can he accurately describe the sensation of this? Tasting you. God how has he gone so long without this? Your nails scraping his scalp, his fingers sinking into your thighs as he keeps you still. Heโs halfway off the bed, legs dangling off the edge, your thighs squeezing his face.ย
Thereโs nowhere else he would rather be.ย
He laps at your folds like a mad man, tongue pressed flat and dragging up slowly to get as much of you in his mouth as possible. His feet find the floor, allowing himself more stability to once again rub his growing erection against a solid object. The poor mattress is going to be ruined once theyโre done.
โFaster,โ you gasp, jerking your hips into his face, โSpencerโ oh, yeah like that!โ
Spencer Reid is a quick study, and when he hears the positive reactions, he doubles down until he feels you convulse against his tongue. You jerk so violently he has to hold you down. He pushes his tongue past your entrance experimentally, and feels you tug roughly on his hair in response, gasping his name and Godโs name in slurred phrases as you ride out your high.
Itโs the hottest damn thing heโs ever experienced.
ย โJesus Christ,โ you gasp, and he has to repeat that ridiculous sentence again, because itโs true and he feels you deserve it.
โYouโre so pretty.โ He fears you might be some kind of magnet, because his lips keep getting drawn back to your skin. He lets his kisses travel up your hip bone, before grinning up at you, โEven when youโre being insufferable, youโre still so beautiful.โ
โGee thanks,โ you huff, pulling at his arm, โHow romantic, Iโm swooning.โ
โMight not be swooning, but you did just come on my face.โ brilliant rows of teeth flash at you as he smiles smugly.
โAsshole.โ
โIs that how you say thank you?โ he drags his body up lazily, draping himself over you.
โIโm notโ wait, are you hard again?โ
โUhโฆโ
โNeedy, needy boy.โ you pull him down to you, and he almost protests, his chin and mouth still covered with your slick. But you donโt seem to care, so he follows your lead, God at this point he would follow you anywhere at all. Youโre shifting beneath him, and the next thing he knows is your legs are wrapped around his waist again, your heat completely exposed and pressing against his cock.
โMhm,โ he pulls back, eyes wide, โIโโ
โWhat?โ you whisper, lifting your head to continue giving him kisses, teeth playfully nipping at his jaw, โItโs fine, Iโm on birth control.โ
โItโs not that,โ he canโt deny you, his body relaxing back down over you. His lips catch yours for a moment, slow and achingly tender, โIโve just never really done this before.โ
He waits for the inevitable laughter. Here he is, at 21, and somehow still the same person he had been when he first entered college at 14. But you continue to look at him with heavy lids, breathless and flushed.ย
โOkay,โ your voice is kind, sweet, โTake it slow then.โ your hand wraps around his length again, the movement slower this time, as you align him to your entrance. He hisses as the sensitive tip grazes against your folds, as he feels your entrance slowly give way to him and envelop his cock.ย
โOh,โ he sighs. With your help, he sinks halfway into you, one hand gripping your hip, the other bracing himself on his elbow. Eyes squeezed shut, he stills and manages to ask, โAre you okay?โ
You donโt speak, and so he forces his eyes to focus and look at you. The sight has him twitching inside you. Mouth agape and eyes hazy, youโre nodding up at him wordlessly as your hips rock up into his. โMore.โ
Itโs exhilarating. Heโs known you for the past year, worked alongside you but respected your need for distance. And now, here you are, not merely close, but one. Spencer sighs, and thrusts shallowly, eyes zeroed in on you and your reactions. He doesnโt want to hurt you, doesnโt want it to end too soon, so he moves slowly, dragging out his cock until only the tip rests inside you, then sliding into the hilt.
It elicits the most mellifluous sounds from you, making him smile in relief. He lets his forehead rest against yours, thrusts growing more confident, but still in that slow, almost dreamy pace. He memorizes every detail of this moment, from the way your eyes flutter closed, to the quiver of your legs as they wrap tighter around his thighs.ย
โSo good,โ he hears himself say, โGod, you feel so good.โ
โMhm,โ you nod, nails digging into his back, even through his clothes. In the heat of the moment, youโre both still half dressed, only getting rid of your bottom clothes in order to get what you need from each other, โMore, Spencer, I need more.โ
He nods, letting his thrusts grow faster, rougher. Itโs an awkward angle, heโs afraid his knees will start cramping, but the feeling of being surrounded by your warmth, drowning in your moans has him reckless. โThere?โ he grunts, angling just so, and he canโt help the smirk on his face when he feels your walls clenching around him.
โThere, there, yes!โ
Heโs not sure how he manages to last as long as he does. Maybe itโs the sheer desire to feel you fall apart, for his cock to be drenched in your slick that keeps his release at bay. Maybe he has too much pent up sexual energy thatโs just been dying to come out. Whatever it is, heโs thankful for it, because it means heโs spending more time inside you, hips moving with so much impact heโs pushing you forward with each thrust.ย
โYes, just like that.โ youโre shuddering beneath him, and he moves his arm to the top of your head, creating a barrier between you and the headboard so you donโt hit it. He could stop, readjust your positions, but he doesnโt have it in him.ย
No, he wants to stay inside you, forever if thereโs an anatomically feasible way to do it. But unless he invents it, heโll settle for right now, settle for the heat between your bodies, and how youโre practically melting into the mattress, arching so prettily against him.
โYou close?โ he murmurs, one hand finding your clit, drawing gentle circles with his fingertips.
โNo fair,โ you whine, bucking into him, โThatโs cheatโ Spencer!โย
You come undone in the most enthralling way, eyes squeezed shut, bottom lip bitten by your own lips. You squeeze and flutter around him, and heโs helpless to stop his own release, spilling deep inside you with a broken cry from his own mouth. Your name is whispered, over and over again, until he stills, his vision blurry as he collapses against you.
He curls around you, trying to get as close, โYouโthat wasโwow.โย
You giggle, still breathless and glassy eyed, โAre you sure that was your first time?โ
โYes,โ he gives you a series of kisses along your temple, โYes, it was. Youโwow.โ he carefully pulls out of you, hissing quietly when the cool air conditioned air hits his sensitive flesh. โWas that enough of an apology for not including you to our chess nights?โ
โYouโre making jokes now?โ
โNo,โ he smiles, leaning away to look at you, all starry eyed and boneless, โNot a joke. Because if itโs not enough, I can do it again.โ a kiss to your cheek, โAnd again.โ one on the tip of your nose, โAnd again.โ
When you laugh in response, he cups your cheek, โI mean it.โ he says with all the seriousness he can muster.
โIโll hold you to that.โ
โDoes this mean youโll accept my invitations now?โ he lights up, a large smile splitting his face.
โOnly if itโs a date.โ
"Then it's a date."














