#vwnt

My mother just pisses me off so much and I have no idea why literally, okay one of her big things is we clean constantly because she's a Horder and doesn't clean and doesn't want to she has a heart condition but like it's bad around here I can't do laundry because she doesn't let me and she says she'll do it but she never does. When we clean with her and mess up or don't understand her directions clearly she literally throws a fit and has a mental breakdown and screams at us. Like yesterday she screamed at my brother for not cleaning up right then called him useless.Before that she called me helpful. Also today our dog pooped on her bed sheets and she just started having a mental breakdown and told us not to tell her boyfriend. After her break down I started growling and gritting my teeth so I just went outside. Another thing she does is ask me constantly to do things like that make no sense 😭 like she could do it but doesn't feel like it. She makes me get her bags of chips, she used to make me cook for my brother, get her a drink throw her stuff away, go tell her boyfriend something she once woke me up in the middle of the night kid you like 3 something to get her Pepsi and Tylenol. But idk I believe this is normalI get so worked up when she's asks these things and once she asked if I had scissors and I said no and wanted to go lay down because I was tired and was watching something but she told me to tell her boyfriend, I have no clue I'm literally laughing at this I got so mad for no reason and growled and screamed 😭 idk why. But after serious things she started crying because she can't deal with my addtudite all the time I didn't feel bad but now I do since I feel okay and I made her cry. she told me I was going to kill herAlso one thing from a day ago I had a bowel of chips and she said damn my name that's a lot of chips and I threw them away because I felt ashamed. She knows I'm obsessed I was obsessed with my weightShe constantly asks why I don't love her and she does everything for me and does a lot when she makes my dad have us most of the time and has him buy us stuff and she barely cooks she allways gets her boyfriend to get us food from his restaurant for free and says she will cook dinner but never does.She allways says she has no money but when I come back from my dad's she has bags of old food and trash around her from restaurants.She shames me for my room being dirty knows I struggle with depression but yet her room has rotting mildew dirty clothes bottles you can even walk in the room without stepping on her pile of clothes and stuff she buys but never uses.She once told me to use breathing techniques for my depression I told her that doesn't work and she said yes it does I have it you just need to try. There's more she does but yeah. She also allways complains and yells at me goes through my phone rarely.