#voltage headcanons

Prologue 

The tension around between you and your significant other was unbearable. You didn’t know how it ended up like this but the two of you seemed me be screaming at each other at the top of your lungs. The other band members were starting to get worried about the two of you. 

“I don’t understand why you’re being unreasonable right now Y/N. Take a chill pill or something.” He said and glared at you.  

This made your blood boil once again. He just didn’t understand what you were going through heck you didn’t even know why this was happening to you right now. You’re normally the one that calms down the situation but for some reason, you didn’t want to lose this fight. “Yeah, it looks like you really don’t know what’s happening here since you’re so clueless.” You rolled your eyes. “You know what. I’m done. I’m done with this bull... It’s not even worth it.” You turned your back away from him but then you felt a little nauseous. You felt like your vision started spinning and used the wall as a support to maintain your balance. 

He took notice of this too and started to get worried about your well being. You tried to stop using the wall as a support and walk on your own but no avail. It was too much, you felt dizzy and collapsed on the floor. “Y/N!” He screamed your name. This worried your significant other and rushed to your side the moment you collapsed. Although the two of you were fighting just a few minutes ago this didn’t mean that he didn’t care about you. 

You were rushed to the hospital, he started to think of scenarios in his head. He knew that you were a hard worker and that you will stop at nothing until you’re satisfied with your job. He was afraid that he pushed you to your limits again and he blamed himself for it. 

You woke up in an unfamiliar room, you sighed to yourself because you knew that you were in the hospital. “Good, you’re awake. I can explain what happened to the both of you without talking to you separately.” Said the Doctor. “Miss L/N you should take care of yourself now that you’re carrying for another body in you.” The Doctor smiled. You and your significant others’ eyes widened in shock. “The reason why you fainted awhile ago was due to stress. During your pregnancy, you should avoid any stress or it may harm your unborn child. Stress, not eating and not getting enough sleep can affect the hold of your baby to you and if any of those arise, you may get a miscarriage.” Your significant other held your hand. “Now I’m not trying to scare you or anything but those are the things that can happen if you don’t take care of yourself properly. You can be discharged tomorrow and we’ll have to schedule your monthly check-ups.” 

Once the Doctor left your significant other felt guilty. He was happy that you were carrying his child but it broke his heart when the Doctor mentioned your stress and how it can affect your child. He promised himself that he will do everything in his power to avoid those things. He will protect and take care of you and his child. He lunged towards you and kissed you on the lips. “I’m sorry about my behaviour awhile ago Y/N. I didn’t mean to yell at you either.” He looked down as he rubbed his thumb on the back of your hand. 

You lifted his chin up, “I’m sorry as well. I didn’t mean to yell at you or anything... It just happened.” 

The two of you made up quickly and he happily announced to the rest of the band the great news that the two of you just received. Everyone was happy for the two of you and they made sure you were in top shape. The band members would take care of you when your significant other can’t be there for you and he was thankful to have understanding band mates. 

The first three months were the worst, the members of Revance have witness your wrath when you’re mad and made sure never to get in your nerves if they want to keep the band together. Taking care of you wasn’t that hard, it was just your mood swings. The members sometimes don’t know what to do when you have your mood swings, sometimes they think its better for you to stay home but they’d think of possible scenarios that could happen when you’re alone. You were thankful to have them by your side and didn’t know what you’ll do without them. 

Before you know it seven months have passed, your belly got bigger and it’s been really hard walking around. However you still needed to do light exercise such as walking or else it’ll be difficult to move around later. It took a lot of convincing and even power point presentation to your significant other why it’s okay for you to be left alone, well not really, you were going to have your best friend keep you company and check up on you. “I swear Y/N if you want me to be your Nanny, I will gladly do it.” There were stars in her eyes. “Don’t be silly Rina, I’m not going to hire you as a Nanny. You’re my best friend, you’ll be the Godmother of our child.” 

Whenever they have a shoot they would tell you to stay in the hotel close by because at least then your significant other is close by. This time they had a shoot in Okinawa, which was nice because it’s very peaceful and you could relax. You could probably even sleep all day. Since it was such a nice day Rina invited you out and she even got permission from your significant other to go out. 

He’s just too overprotective, he doesn’t want anything to happen to you since you’re two months away from your due date. “I expect a text every hour Rina.” 

“Yes, Sir.” She saluted. “Take care, I’ll see you in a bit and enjoy yourself too.” He kissed you goodbye and headed off to the shoot. However he couldn’t get this uncomfortable he was feeling, he hoped that nothing bad happens. 

The two of you didn’t do much other than sight see because this was Rina’s first time in Okinawa anyways. She wanted to see all the tourist spots but nothing too much because she knows your situation. Sailing or whale watching was out of the option as well therefore the two of you visited Shuri Castle, try local food and go to the village for today. 

Rina kept her promise to your significant other and report your move and where the two of you have gone at least there was a van that you were able to use to go around from places or else that would’ve been a pain walking and looking for some sort of transportation around.

“That was a much needed stretch and having some girl time right Y/N?” Your best friend smiled at you and made way back towards the hotel. The two of you happily talked when suddenly the van started to increase the speed. “Excuse me Sir? Can we slow down a bit?” You told the driver and he listened. He kept putting his foot on the breaks but nothing happened, someone has tampered the brakes. “Sorry Ma’am I don’t know what happened but it’s not working.” He was now in a panic. 

Rina was also panicking and texting your significant other, calling would’ve been easier but she didn’t want to interrupt the shoot. You also tried to call him but you decided to call Mister Sasayama instead. “Y/N?” He answered the phone. 

“Mister Sasayama! I apologize with the sudden call but we have an emergency. The van that we’re on right now, the brakes is not functioning and we’re just going too fast in the highway.” There was a slight panic in your voice. Before he could even answer you, your significant other already snatched the phone from him. He was telling you that everything was going to be okay, you could even hear the crack on his voice. He was scared, scared of losing you. It already happened just before you found out you were pregnant but he couldn’t bare it if you leave him. 

Far ahead you saw a sharp turn and it only leads to the Ocean. Maybe it would’ve been better if the driver just hit a tree or something. The driver though about it at first but considering your situation, he can’t do that. You told your significant other what you’re seeing right now. With a shaky breath you told him you love him. “No Y/N! I know you’re worried about the safety of our child but this will be hard. We can always try for another, but please I need you. You can’t leave me.” 

You gripped the phone. You couldn’t believe that he would want to do such a thing. This is your child and no matter what happens you’re going to protect the two of you no matter what. I just hurts to hear him say it. “I can’t believe you right now. You’re basically telling me that I should just abandon my child to stay alive because we can always have another baby. But what if I can’t conceive a child after this huh?” You were now sobbing. You knew that he wanted what’s best for the two of you but you knew that only one will stay alive. “I’m saving the child no matter what, even if means I die.” 

Your significant other couldn’t even say anything. He was now realizing what he just said. How can he say such ridiculous things to his unborn child? Before he could even apologize he heard you say goodbye and he heard the car crashing to the railings followed by a huge bang. He could only cry harder hearing those and rushed his way out. Mister Sasayama somewhat knows the situation and tried to excuse themselves. 

The rest of the band members have been informed of the situation. They also wanted to go to the scene but your significant other told them to stay and finish the shoot first and then they can come afterwards. They wanted to protest against it but they knew that they didn’t want to trouble the rest of the staff any further and agreed to follow him afterwards. 

The drive there was long and he hated it. He hated how he couldn’t do anything, he’s just hoping that you and the baby were alright. He won’t be able to take it if he loses the both of you in a blink of an eye. He was in a crouching position as they drove towards the area, lucky for him you had your location on and he was now getting near. 

However there was a commotion at the scene and the police was not letting anyone in but he didn’t care. He wanted to see you and you baby. He just want to make sure you’re okay. He pushed through the crowd and he didn’t care if people noticed him. The policed stopped him, “Let me go! My wife could be there!” He tried to shake the grip on him. 

In just a few meters away he saw someone being carried inside the Ambulance. “Rina!” He ran towards her he could see that she suffered some burns on her left arm and leg. “Are you okay? How are you feeling? How’s Y/N? Where is she?” 

Rina could only stay quiet and she sobbed. In moments the detective came and asked Rina what happened but the paramedics advised them to ask her once she in the hospital and got some rest. “Excuse me Detective but I’ve only seen one out of three of the people from the accident. I haven’t seen my wife yet, is she already in the hospital?” He was desperate to know what happened. 

“I’m afraid that we only saw two bodies. One was male assuming that he’s the driver and in critical condition. He’s badly burned and the other, well just you just saw her get into the ambulance. And since we now know there’s a third person we’ll do our best to look for your wife.”

“Please do so. You need to find her fast, my wife... she’s seven months pregnant. You need to find them as soon as possible, please. I beg of you.” He sobbed once more. The Detective felt bad for your husband, he didn’t have the heart to tell him that they saw trails of blood a few metres away from the land. There were also a lot of blood on the rocks but they weren’t sure if they were yours or Rina’s.

Your husband wanted to help but the Detective stated that he’s not in the right condition for it and it would make things worst and harder. He showed them a picture of you and your outfit today. Thank goodness he took a photo of you and Rina before heading off. “Thank you Sir, this is a very important photo and will help with our search. But if worst comes to worst, you should prepare yourself incase.” He wanted to punch him for saying those things but all he could think of is your safety. The less he talks to them, the faster their search is. 

Many hours have passed and there was still no sign of you. Where could you have drifted off too? You couldn’t have gone too far considering your state. The sun was now setting and the Detectives called off the search for now and passed it along the rescue team that’s searching the sea. They could only do so much during this time because soon, they will lose the light that’s guiding them. 

Your significant other didn’t even sleep or eat. He wanted to be there once they’ve found you, he wanted to be the first one to hug you. However their search for you failed. They didn’t find your body anywhere, they did find a piece of fabric from your outfit. Even with that small object gave him hope that you’re still out there. He’s worried about the baby and if they’re hurt badly. 

More than a day have passed since the accident and they still haven’t found traces of your body. The detectives were able to talk to Rina after she got plenty of rest and it didn’t seem to add up at all. Who would want you gone? “Sir, do you have any idea who could do this to your wife? Any jealous friends or family, maybe even fans?” 

Your husband was surprised to hear this. You were a very lovable person even when his fans first found out about the two of you, they were upset but they learned to love you. It wasn’t that hard not to love you when you’re the one that makes their idol happy. “No Detective, not that I know of. Why?” 

“We were trying to find connections because the van that was rented was in perfect condition and based on Miss Rina they were able to go to places without any problems with the brakes. It was only when they were going home that it stopped working. We came into a conclusion that someone was following them and tampered the brakes on their way home.”

This made him angry. Who would do such a thing and hurt his family and innocent people? Whoever it is, they’ll pay. 

Everyone else was losing hope and he hates to say it but he’s slowing losing that fire in him as well. On the third day they found a body and brought it for investigation immediately. It was hard to believe but it matched yours. This broke his heart a hundred time over and over. He kept denying that this isn’t real and that you were still alive and somewhere out there. 

The forensic team mentioned that it was a brutal death and whoever did this to you was not human. They saved the gory details and told your husband that you were indeed gone and that the finger prints matched the ones on the cellphone that you used to call him. 

He fell into his knees and cried, this is unreal. “One more thing, although its hard to tell because of the marks left by the fire there a high possibility that your child is still out there. That is if someone hasn’t taken them considering that they’ll be premature.” 

This was it, the last hope he has. He was very well aware that there is a low possibility for your child to be alive. Not a lot of babies would survive out there without the pulse oximeter and the incubator. Right now, he hopes that you’d give him strength and guidance to find your missing child, wherever they are. 

~ 5 Years Later ~

Five years and there was still no sign of your child he started to lose hope. Everyone has been telling him to start taking care of himself and he need to learn to let things go. Even after the entire world hearing about your death, it broke their hearts. 

They felt the pain that your husband was going through because as his fans, it broke them to see him like this. He lost weight, his eyes don’t shine anymore and he’s only breathing and living at this point. Some say he’s like a zombie ever since you left. 

“Come on man, you need time to yourself. Why don’t we take a small break in Guam?” One of his band members suggested and as much as he wanted to say no, he thought it’ll give him peace to finally move on. His band mates weren’t really expecting hi to agree and they hand plan B ready in action.

“I guess it won’t hurt.” He sighed. 

The flight to Guam didn’t take that long, the reason why he hated being near water is because it reminded him of the incident five years ago. 

The people in Guam were more focused on how to make the their small island become more likeable and be able to bring tourist to see their small but beautiful island. 

He was able to walk around town without getting bombarded by fans. As he was looking around he saw someone who’s been running through his mind even after all these years. He pinched himself to make sure that he wasn’t dreaming, and he was indeed awake. “Y/N?” He whispered.

Nagito Aoshima (Son Taiyo)

His pace got faster as his feet brought him towards you. He couldn’t believe what he was seeing right now, he knew you were dead but you were right in front of him. “Y/N!” He yelled, you didn’t turn around though because you didn’t recognize the voice. 

“Taiyo which one would you like? Don’t be shy let Mommy know okay?” You kissed your son and watching him pick out a souvenir for his Uncle. 

Nagito was in shock as he saw you with a child, and not just any child, your child with him. He was overwhelmed with joy and ran towards you and gave you a back hug. This gave you a surprised that a stranger was just hugging you from behind but you could tell that he must’ve mistaken you for his wife. “Let go of my Mommy!” Your five year old exclaimed as he lightly punched the man. 

“I’m sorry Sir but could you let go of me? I don’t know you and you must’ve mistaken me for your wife. However, you do seem familiar to me.” You politely said as you tried to loosen his grip on you. 

Nagito knew that he did not mistaken you for someone else, he could never forget your face and he can easily spot you in a crowd. “Y/N it’s me! Nagi! I’m your husband.” He held your hand but just like the hug, you tried to loosen his grip. “I remember where you’re from now! You’re from that band Revance right? I’m sorry but that’s kind of hard to believe that you’re my husband.” You picked up your son and excused yourself. “I’m sorry Sir but we must be going soon.” 

He stood there in shock. That did not just happen. What happened to you?

Iori Enjo (Son Rui) 

While he was looking at you he didn’t notice the young boy standing in front of him and staring at him. Iori felt like time stopped when you made your way towards him. “Rui stop staring. That’s rude.” You pulled away you son to give Iori some space. “I’m sorry about my son’s behaviour.” You apologized and before you could even tell your son to apologize. “Mommy is he my Daddy?” Rui asked. 

“No baby he isn’t. I’m really sorry about this sir but we’re in a rush.” You excused yourself. 

Iori tried to process what just happened, what did you mean that he wasn’t his. It was bright as day that Rui is basically a carbon copy of Iori, miniature version. Although you didn’t admit it, you knew that he was the father of your child but there’s just no way. 

How could he be the Father, why would he show up now? Where was he when you needed him? This confused you even more and just wanted to get out of there to clear your head.  

Iori wanted to punch himself for not being able to speak of move when you approach him. It was as if he was trapped under a spell and couldn’t move or talk. Even if he did say something, what would he even say. He had a lot of things to ask you but he didn’t know where to start but now you were gone once again. 

Despite that, now he has lead and know where to start. He has found you this time and will find out everything and how come you didn’t reach out to them for the past five years.

Takashi Ninagawa (Daughter Shion)

He knew that you weren’t gone. He didn’t believe them when they said that you’ve died. Yes he was in denial that time and when he was about to lose hope, there was a string pulling him and telling him not to. Now he’s finally seeing you again after five years. But he saw that you looked frantic and came up to people to ask them a question. 

Takashi wanted to walk towards you and embrace you but he heard a little girl cry. He didn’t know what but it made him sad, he couldn’t quite grasp how that affected him, he wanted to go to you but there was something pulling him to follow the cries instead. 

He walked further down and saw a little girl crouching down and approached her. “Are you lost?” He asked the little girl. 

The little girl looked up and met his dark brown eyes, just by the look of her, he knows that she’s his daughter. He was happy that he decided to follow the cries instead of looking for you because in the end, he found a way to look for you as well. “I lost mommy at the market.” She pouted. 

Takashi offered to help the little girl, he didn’t her to feel like his a creep at all so he kept his distance. Your daughter however held his hand, once he felt this his grip tightened slightly. However that only lasted for a few minutes. The moment that your daughter spotted you he let go of his hand and ran towards you. “Mommy!” She cried. 

Takashi’s hands felt cold but his surrounding felt warmer as he finally found the most important people in his life. “Thank you Sir for finding my daughter. I don’t know how I’ll ever repay you for this.” 

Takashi was stunned. Sir? Did you not recognize him? Do you not know him? He had a theory that you might’ve lost your memory and took this chance to ask you and suggested something. “How about having lunch? I’m not familiar with the place and I would love some good food to eat about now.” 

This is probably the first time in five years that he’ll have a proper meal. He knows that he’ll eat a lot knowing that you’re here with him now. He’ll make sure to find out how you lost your memories and will do everything to make new memories with you.

Kyohei Rikudoh (Son Kanato)

“Mommy hurry up!” Kanato ran away from you and wanted to go to the ice cream shop that you promised him. “Baby wait!” You tried to move around the crowd. 

Your son wasn’t watching where he was going and he bumped into Kyohei, not knowing that he was his biological Father. When Kyohei felt the small impact on his leg, he looked down at the little boy and he could immediately tell that this child is his. He’s been searching him for the longest time and now he’s finally found him. 

“I told you to be careful Kanato.” You pulled your son away from him. “I apologize my son wasn’t looking and accidentally bumped into you.” You bowed your head in apology. “I’m sorry.” Your son apologized as he copied your action. 

He stood there in shock and couldn’t even say anything. He was overwhelmed. He felt like he was dreaming but he already knew that he wasn’t and the mark on his arm is the evidence of that. 

He felt a bit disappointed that you didn’t even recognize him anymore, was this what the guys meant that he should’ve taken care of himself because he was not recognizable anymore? He knew that he needed to start looking like himself again but he knew that there was another reason why you didn’t recognize him. Kyohei was going to get to the bottom of this and take you back. 

“Oh that’s okay. It seems like he was in a rush, how about I treat this little with some ice cream.” Kanato’s eyes lit up because that was the place that he wanted to go in the first place. “That’s okay, we wouldn’t want to bother you.” 

“I insist, take it as me accepting the small apology for him bumping into me.” 

That honestly did not make sense but somehow you knew that he wasn’t going to let this go and agreed. At least it was in a crowded place and nothing will happen to you but you felt safe when he’s around. You smiled and nodded as him as you agreed to his small suggestion. 

“It’s almost time isn’t it?” Hesitantly he touched her growing abdomen. Ever since they found out she was with child, he had been careful every time he touched her. He didn’t realize how tense he had been until her hand covered his. Feeling the tension melt from his shoulders, he allowed himself to enjoy this time together with her. “Soon there will be three of us.” She must’ve felt his body stiffen again, because she looked up at him with those bright eyes of hers. “I’ll be here.” He nodded. She always understood even if he didn’t have the right words. “I’ll stay with you until you are ready for sleep,” he offered.

Masamune was anxious about the whole ordeal despite not being the one carrying the child. Would he be as good of a father as his own? What if his child didn’t like him? He was not one for reminiscing and did not recount his own childhood often. Kojuro did enough of that for the two of them. His mouth twitched at remembering his hard-shelled namesake.

In the quiet spring night, the moon provided a poor distraction for his wife’s face. Unable to keep from stealing glances, he tightened his hold on her delicate body. She looked so serene. He only hoped that she was as happy as he.

It had been so long since that fateful day that forever changed the path of his life. Unbeknownst to his wife, that day was long before a young poison taster named Yahiko came into his life.

He had been even younger than Kojirou, barely a boy and only newly an older brother. His father had brought their family to the capital on business, and when his father had stepped out, he had gone to take a closer look at his baby brother. It only earned him a slap and screaming on his mother’s part.

Cheek still red and with only a mother who cursed him as a demon, he ran from the inn. He ran and ran until his little lungs gave out. He had been so focused on running, he didn’t even see where he had been going, let alone know where he was. Tears welling in his eyes, he stood in the street unable to return to the mother who hated him or the father who was working. With Kojuro attending to his father, no one would come looking for him anyway.

It was getting late and he hadn’t eaten since dinner last night. “Are you lost?” a little voice came out of nowhere. He looked down to see a little girl peering up at him. “You look lost. Are you scared?” She didn’t seem deterred by his silence. He waited for her to go away, but she stood there, looking up at him with the big bright eyes. “If you’re scared, I know what will fix you right up. Father always says food is the best for when you’re down.”

Kojuro always warned him about strangers especially after what happened to his right eye. Masamune shook his head, hiding his right eye behind his bangs, but the little girl didn’t relent and soon he found himself following her as she tugged again and again on his hand. The hand that held his was small, but so warm. He didn’t know why he let her lead him away. He could’ve easily pulled away, overpowered the little hand that held his, but he didn’t.

She led him down a small alley, and through a back door. Soon, he found himself in a humble kitchen. Although his surroundings were not as large as the castle’s, the smells that came out of it were unmatched by any other. The unnamed girl had darted away after she found a stool for him. Returning with a steaming bowl and chopsticks, she held it out to him. “Eat.” She smiled up at him when he hesitated. “It’s okay. You don’t have to worry.”

And so he ate. When his bowl was empty, she filled it again and again. The taste was unmatched by any other. Better than any luxury or sweet, this food had soul. He felt it could embrace him and take all his worries away. Masamune didn’t even realize he was crying until she reached up to wipe his tears with her sleeve. He recoiled, thinking of the ridicule she would have for him seeing him weep. But the words that she said were anything but. “It’s good right?” His eyes widen, but she only kept smiling. He never said a word that night, and she never seemed to mind. Even as he bowed and dashed from the restaurant, she kept smiling, cheerfully waving him off. “Feel better!” she called after him.

When the sun rose high in the sky, he snuck out of the inn during the lunch hustle and bustle. He didn’t know how he found it, be it fate or some higher power, but he found her. He peered into the door of the restaurant. He wanted to thank the girl, but there was a constant stream of people going in and out. Should he just go in and see her? He could see her little figure, smiling and chattering cheerfully, bringing water and sake. She worked just as hard as the woman who looked to be her mother. He felt drawn to her, like a man to a light. Just as he was gathered the courage to step into the restaurant, an all too familiar voice called out behind him. “Lord Bontenmaru! What are you doing over there? Everyone’s been looking for you.” Kojuro looked out slightly out of breath, his hair slightly disheveled. “I…” “Lord Teramune wants to see you. Everyone’s getting ready to leave.” “But I…” “We don’t have time. Come on.” The older boy took him by the arm, and pulled him along.

He never got a chance to thank that girl properly. Even when he came back older and independent, he could only watch her. Her smile just as bright as the day it found him. She always greeted every customer cheerfully. The restaurant was never short of regulars, but he didn’t really need to notice anyone but her. The words never came to him though, and so he kept silent over the years.

He felt a weight on his shoulder, and her hand drooped in his, bringing him back to the present. He smiled. Her soft breathing indicated she had fallen asleep. Lacing his fingers with hers, he gazed at her sleeping face.

“I’m late, but thank you.”

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