#voidcalling

nine of pentacles signifies abundance and independence, being financially stable, upright like here it’s an affirmation card. knight of wands is having energy and following a constant trajectory, but advice to be careful of expending too much or I’ll crash (and the meds won’t be able to help with that). Taking that to mean that I’ve been doing much better recently but I shouldn’t get cocky (it would be right). Love wise it tells me to take initiative and put effort in. I realized that I have this complex about already putting so much effort in that I expect the other half of things to just be handed to me but I’ve been putting them in the areas that don’t NEED them at this point in time, and I’ve been neglecting the ones which do. Makes sense since our relationship has taken on a long distance lens and will be for a bit. That requires a different sort of investment, and my general methods won’t cut it.

I think pulling the empress means that am the empress rn??? and I need to take leadership and nurture (?) myself and others. General good omen for love life too. Its a nice affirmation to have

the page of cups is abt embracing emotions and trusting intuition, and building a stronger relationship with my capacity for childlike joy which allows me to be more loose with my emotions. I’m pretty restrained to avoid looking ridiculous and ig it’s not serving me anymore, especially when it comes to being vulnerable and just enjoying being with other people

The emperor reversed warns me against continuing to be passive and shying away from taking initiative. It might also tell me that I don’t have enough structure (?) ?? Which would make sense with my personality. Erm. It could also potentially be positive, meaning that Im moving away from rigid and black and white ways of thinking

These are all together, which makes sense. There’s a very cohesive sort of advice to it. You’re doing good, have confidence and keep advancing and straying outside of your comfort zone type of thing

Onto the bottom row

Knight of cups is SPECIFICALLY a romance card in this deck. It advises that I shouldn’t expect perfection and get caught up in idealism, the road will have bumps and I might be disappointed sometimes. Don’t take things to heart sorta thing. Good advice since I’m pretty sensitive honestly 😭 little deviations irritate me and it drives wedges in our relationship (small as they may be)

I think that the sideways card in the lovers is bridging a connection between the knight of cups and the next card. The lovers itself is also advice on having a good balance between structure and innovation so ur relationships don’t fall into mindless routine which fits with everything else so far

The lovers linking the three of cup sideways tells me that the knight of cups advice is the EXACT reason why I feel isolation which leads to difficulty expressing myself sometimes, bc my ass just gets too caught up in my ideals of what things SHOULD be like.

Interpreting that my mindset is pretty much the direct influencer of whether it becomes upright (deep and gratifying almost publically celebrated love type shit) or reversed (growing apart, losing passion, neglect from lack of effort, etc)

I found all of this extremely accurate and cohesive, and the funny thing is that in the middle of interpreting spreads I usually end up taking action DURING THEM because I always pull cards that tell me to take initiative and I guess it gives me the courage to. And every single time it’s ended up for the better. Goddamn.