#voguelman.

I get jealous and I get hateful and I get scared and I’m sorry. Bad things have happened and I need to learn to let them go. Five years do not need to go down the drain because of a change of heart. Five years do not need to become something that doesn’t matter just because you want to be happy. I need to grow up and come to terms that I’m not best for you anymore and I’m working on it. There is nothing that I want more than for you to be happy. I notice the little things like my link being replaced on your blog and the way that you speak to someone on the dash and it hurts like a brick dropping straight into my stomach but why should it? I need to let it go and I need to let you go and I will get there one day, I promise. You do you, be happy, and I’ll catch up eventually to tell you that I can settle for the way that we have been for years. I can settle for the role of the best friend that you need me to fill. I’ll get there eventually and you can be proud of me.