hellooo my online diary : )

i am returned from work , and i am also in my dr literally right now AHHH !!! i went to bed last nite w the intention of shifting to my voltron dr. i would love to talk more abt my dr actually, i never meet any1 w the same dr as i do.

i loooove looking at my notion w my script. its annoying how much notion is trying to push ai into the platform when its so perfect derfect already, but i'm actively not using it!! fuck ai and love my perfect voltron legendary defender script

anyway, yes, shifting is immediate and fast tracked and completely my decision, and i made that decision. i'm watching the office rite now(if my 3d is lagging it might as well lag with something silly).

every blink i get closer to seeing the reality i am currently in !! fuck this stinky 3d reality ! i love my dr i love all my dr friends !!

i saw a post earlier(i reblogged it) about the feeling of KNOWING you're leaving your cr, and it was sooo powerful in my brain. imagine being told, for 100% certain, this is the last time you'll ever see the reality ur in rite now. UGHHH the rush i got from that was immeasurable.

i'm gonna do laundry and keep affirming im in my dr :3 the 3d is dumb and i can feel it melting awayyyy ~

xoxo

hello again diary !! i am so happy to see you again !!!

i'm in my classes right now but i got such a strong urge to write about shifting again. everything is a lot bit busy(i'm directing a show!!) and i kind of crashed out last nite but that's FINEEE <3

i kind of had a revelation this week about my life here... like. okay. obviously this is not our "original" reality, and we are not tethered here as a "baseline". i think that, for me, thinking about this reality as a baseline has really fucked me over in terms of manifesting my success and joy.

you can use shifting to "run away" per say(i've done that a million times lol) but that kept affirming to me that THIS reality is the "boring" one. i don't like that. it's so limiting to think of this reality as the base, the starting point, the diving board. why can't this reality be one of my "fun" ones?

anyway, all that to say that i've realized that this reality is my fame dr(specifically my actor dr). and it's been SO WILD to make that connection. its made me happier to wake up here, and also its been a reminder that no one has an "original" dr. you are everywhere all the time, and currently my focus is here!

well, not for long. i've been kind of finicky with manifesting my voltron dr, which isn't limiting in itself... but me thinking that it's limiting IS :/

but i'll be okay! i'm so excited to record when my 3d fully melts and my brain realizes the reality i'm focused on right now. our brains are so silly to convince of anything, so it shouldn't be too long now.

i miss my boyfriendddd. :((( i can't wait to meet him and see his eyes light up and kiss him and play w his hair and fight a space war with him and AUUGHHHHHH. he's so perfect.

till we talk again, diary !!

xoxo

Mako Pekau, resident yellow paladin. 18 and a quarter years old, tan skin, dark hair and eyes, a wide, beautiful smile and an even more beautiful laugh. If the sun was a person, that person would be me. A vaiani surfer boy, a lover of mysteries, dance and sonic.

Observant, kind and warm, I make practically everyone feel welcomed and accepted. A tad bit reckless and very excited, I'm always ready to try the next new thing, no matter how insane or dangerous it is. Again, a lover of the odd or strange, weird and paranormal.

Open ocean, dirty paintbrushes and clay-caked hands. Dances around a campfire, shitty singing voices and picnics under the stars. fishing, old diners and comic books. Planes and wide smiles. acne and scars and tooth gaps.

keith did motorcycle racing before he started working on the space thing

pidge refuses to take off her binder (he uses he/she/they in my Dr btw)

keith, lance, pidge and I call each other the f slur on the regular while Shiro is horrified and hunk is straight.

stargazing!!

allura and coran do reminisce about altean culture, but since they're only two people they don't remember much

lotor just isn't a thing he doesn't exist. there are only two alteans left in the world

allura is much much angrier

keith really really likes lemon flavored candy. and warrior cats.