Journal Entry #3 - 08/02/2024
Type: Lucid Dream, Astral Projection Attempt
Pre-AP Dream
I am inside a large mansion-like house that belongs to my former employer...
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I am outside of the large house and now there is a cute young brunette woman with me in a dress. My dream self knows somehow that this girl is my friend. In this dream, I too happen to be a young woman (which is odd, because I'm an adult male in my 30s).
Strangely, I know that I have to kill this girl who is my friend. I lure her in the night into the back yard of this big house. It is Halloween time, and the yard is decorated with jack-o-lanterns and string lights.
Once in the backyard, I take her close to the fence where neighbors cannot see, and she thinks that I am going to kiss her. I hug her, then I repeatedly stabbed her in the torso.
While standing there in the aftermath of my crime, I start to realize that I MUST BE DREAMING.
Three children dressed in Halloween costumes approach me from another direction and I chase them. Yet this only increased my awareness that it's all a dream. I do not stop to do a reality check, as I feel like the dream is very unstable.
I say to myself a few times āI want to astral projectā and, as I chase after the children, the scene goes from slightly-lit evening scene to completely pitch black...like I am running through absolute darkness. I can see some faint white light off in the distance ahead of me. Thatās when I started to project...
Astral Projection Attempt
I came back to the awareness that I'm laying in bed. I thought that I heard my dad say something, so I call out to him: āwhat did you say?ā
No reply.
A moment later, a high pitch ringing/whistle begins in my ears. This is immediately joined by the sound of some heavenly music (like meditation synth music and choirs singing very softly). The music is entirely in my right ear.
I begin to vibrate and float, but my lower back starts to hurt REALLY bad. I try to ignore the pain but it becomes unbearable.
I black out and fall back into another dream.
Important AP Elements
High pitch noise and heavenly music, mainly in right ear
Vibrations
Floating sensation
Pain in my astral body
In his book Astral Dynamics, Robert Bruce suggests that energy blockages in certain chakra points can cause pain during an exit attempt. Bruce and other experienced projectors have also suggested that physical tension in the body can cause pain sensations when your astral body begins to generate.
