#verbalconcept

I always thought you'd never be mine but you were always mine, 

it was I who could never be yours

This unrequited love fits us just the same

 the passion

the undying flame

while my life moves on

yours stands still

with what ifs, and whys

saturated with regret

Love was never the problem  

figuring out was it

Confusion, drugs, lust, fear,

driving a wedge

between something so fluid

so clear

I wanted so bad to have you that I withstood so much,

 but in the end it left me aching,

filled with so much mistrust

I wanted to believe you

I didn't want to leave you

but hate tainted too much

 Of this love it’s stained with blackness that I can't wash clean

I'm sorry I've been so mean,

but it was coping mechanism for all the tragic endings

we've had in the past

You were my end all to be all love affair and I realize now that you being gone wasn't fair

though I will never find a love like ours

I always thought I was the one

who couldn't let go

but it was you all along

It still hurts to read those words you said to me years ago,

"It's not you it's me"

After a thousand endings you think it wouldn't still hurt to my core,

You broke me,

Then you come back once I pieced myself together,

Take piece by piece of me,

Like a game of Jenga,

Until my tower would fall again,

Then you'd say sorry,

I'm a mess,

I'd sit in the destruction you caused trying to figure out if I could make myself fit again,

But every time I rebuilt that tower another piece would go missing,

A little less steady then before,

But still standing,

I won't let you back this time,

This tower has fallen enough,

Time to stand tall,

You will no longer make me feel small,

Your words mean nothing to me,

Even though this letter hurts as bad as the first I read it,

Your actions have made it easier to cut the cord,

Now you are nothing to me,

I don't take this love for-granted because  it doesn't exist anymore,

You are just a bad memory,

Of a time when I had trouble loving myself,

A mistake,

A lesson well learned,

Etched and burned on my heart,

I'm gone.