#venting mostly

It's never been about protecting the kids. It never was and it never will be. The government doesn't care about protecting the kids. They don't care if kids are looking up porn or firearms or napalm recipes or whatever. And some folks won't like this, but it's not the government’s responsibility to manage what people's kids do online anyway. That's a parent's job.

Just like I don’t care what random kids do online either because they aren't my kids to raise. You wouldn't go up to a stranger and ask them to monitor your kids' internet use would you? No. So why should the government be involved either? But that's not my point.

My point is that so many people are looking at the wrong thing here imo. This is a situation where you literally gotta say fuck them kids and look past that to realize that if we let them get away with this it's going to come back around bigger and nastier. There is no reason for this outside of setting up the baseline for enacting a surveillance state. It is 100% about control. Say goodbye to online anonymity.

i keep memento after memento after memento i hold on tight because if i don't hold a physical reminder i won't remember

i won't remember

i won't remember

i won't remember

I NEVER REMEMBER I NEVER REMEMBER IT ALL FADES AND I WANT TO HOLD ONTO IT WITH CLAWS SO THICK THEY COULD SERVE AS PRISON BARS

if i keep it all safe I'll never forget. I'll never need to remember. if i lock it all up tight if i pull it all under my wing it won't vanish like everything and everyone ever does

all the good people the good memories all the bad experiences and the pains it's all the same in the end

banished to the void of forgetfulness

of simple mindedness

of single minded determination to grab hold of the happiness everyone tells me i deserve

ill take swing after swing after swing and grab hold of everything I've lost and keep it safe

memento after memento after memory

what remains?

what's here.

all i have is clouds, my head so far in the sky

what I mean: I'm at a low point emotionally and feel worried about bothering the same 3 friends too much bc I worry about being too needy and commanding too much of their time

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what I say: I wish I had more friends

what I mean: I desire more strong relationships where I can combat my worries more readily and easily with my own trust and facts

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what I say: I'm bored/nothing is good

My wife told me I had a busy day and I was like "??? No???" And she listed off some things I did today that I just... Didn't remember. At all. Nothing. I know that they got done, and it makes logical sense that they must have happened today, but do I remember them? No. Not at all.

What the fuck is wrong with me? Why does my memory fail me so easily?