What is love? (Velâs contemplation)
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Love wasnât quite a stranger to Velancea, but it was no good friend, either. Sure, she knew the idea of it. She loved her brother, and no matter his feelings towards her, she always would.
She loved Trahearne and Dragonâs Watch - they were her family; a bond she could never replace or recreate.
But to love someone in the sense of giving yourself up to another was absolutely foreign to her. Sheâd heard stories of it and seen it in action, but the feeling was something sheâd never experienced before.
How does one know when theyâre in love? How do they know that thatâs what the feeling is?
Perhaps itâs in the way they laugh - be it full-bodies and loud, or a soft chuckle under their breath. Or in their sarcastic, annoying comments that could be better timed in certain circumstances.
Could it be in the way his low voice seems to cut through her every distracting thought and bring her back to reality; the way he knows when and how to take command in serious situations, and show her how to take a deep breath and relax in less taxing ones?
Maybe itâs in the way her stomach gets that weird, fluttery feeling when his violet eyes bore into her with so much emotion and attention that she canât look away or form a coherent thought.
The way his hands feel on her shoulders when he works out the tension in her muscles; his lips lingering a little too closely to her ear when he speaks quietly with herâŚ
Perhaps one knows theyâre in love when they canât keep their mind off the other person and focus on the task at hand; when all they want is to feel their touch and hear their voice in person, rather than over a buggy communicator; when they just want more even if they donât know what more is because theyâve never known feelings like these.
These⌠gooey, fluttery, fucked up feelings that make her want to grab a bottle of whiskey for the night.
She hated them.
And she never wanted to stop feeling them.












