#veereblogs

Part 1:

Hi Puddie.

You're probably gonna reject this anyway, so idk why I'm writing this. Ig it's because I sort of messed up and want a way to repay you. So here's a sort of explanation why I immediately was so quick to judge you.

So around 2023, my life was awful as heck. I basically was in a state of constant panic, fear, and I was one move away from going to Barnaby's party permanently. That's when I found my friend. Throughout the months, I felt less lonely because of it (it use it/its pronouns. Please respect that.)

Recently in 2025, I found out that Mothie had been harassed and assaulted by another user that was blacklisted. This upset me greatly. Mothie unfortunately is still trying to cope with the trauma, and the fact that it could've had yet another person hurting it sent me into a manic, angry spiral that caused me to hurt you tremendously. My overprotective attitude caused me to belive anything blindly, and now I figured out that was wrong.

I have had thoughts of being inhuman/unable to connect with others, and I felt the need to find a “correct” opinion to be normal, and that obsession combined with the manic spiral I had made me take everything too far. My extreme thoughts of being correct and the overprotective nature of someone who saved me from something caused me to overlook things, falsely accuse and simply go with others because of cowardice.

At first, I didn't know that you had also had said things about these allegations in your stream because I

Joined late and missed some of it

Accidentally turned volume too low because everyone was asleep

Was dealing with stuff that I still am struggling to explain

I didn't know the screenshot aligned with the stream stuff anyway because of this. And I thought these were much newer allegations. I didn't mean to falsely accuse.

(Also, you weren't banned. You were kicked meaning it was more of a server leave than an actual ban.)

Part 2

So this is grouped into one because you both seem to be upset for the same thing (false accusations and powertripping)

Hello Luca and Dar. (using Luca because I think it's much better than calling you not the axolotl all the time

..)

So I understand why you left. I was powertripping because of some sort of episode I had. I genuinely didn't mean to upset anyone and had no idea that Puddie was unfortunately stalked. I had a moment of manic insanity and instability, and the feeling of being correct made me want to cling onto something to forget about all my stress. I wanted to heal and become a perfect person in the server. I guess I wanted to be the best possible owner, but all I did was become mean and terrible to anyone who opposed me. I'm sorry my perfection ruined everyone. I just wanted a safe space for the server members…I didn't want you to be unsafe.

Part 3

Hey Yuki, Bailey, and most importantly, Cipher.

I understand you never would want to talk to me again after my breakdown, but I'd like to apologize after making you uncomfortable. I now understand that you don't need saving, but whatever happened to me caused me to become weird and overprotective. The fact that Cipher was going to get hurt triggered an intense flight or fight response, and my body chose a weird mixture of both. My goal to make the Fandom perfect wasn't just an escapism or result of an illness but a weird way of protecting everyone I cared about, regardless of whatever happened. Someone like you didn't deserve even HALF of the shit that happened, Cipher. I wish I could've stopped it. I wish I could've helped you. I'm sorry that I became one of your harassers as well.

I'll always remember all the good you've done for me, even if you forgot it. Thank you all three of you. I'm sorry I failed in actually doing something good for you.

Thank you so much for checking on me Bailey. I appreciate how you at least tried to help me through what happened yesterday. I'm sorry I didn't listen.

Alright. I think that's all. I don't expect anything good to come out of this. But ummm

Here?