#vampire wisdom

That inner beast that wants nothing more than to protect you. To feed you. To grow you into strength. To warn you of enemies. How the fear people feel about you is dangerous. To you.

People will want to fuck you. They will want to be you. They will want to have you inside of them, and be inside of you to merge with that dark aspect of the Goddess. They can only worship you. Anything else is an affront to your divinity.

You can try to be friends. You'll see the glint of satisfaction in their eye when you've let go of your crown to "relate". The disrespect happens long before you even speak with them.

As a telepath, you'll know. You may not feel your own emotions as deeply, but you'll feel theirs. You're still growing, so be patient with yourself. Don't fall into dramatics because you're lying to yourself.

The heart is central to living for all, but especially you. Listen to your heart. Don't fall for the melodramatic trap that people push upon dark ones. Your heart is black? You feel only rage? You're still so young. Time will bend you. Don't let it break you.

Remember, youthfulness is key. Young in heart, mind, and body. Be playful. You're already born of mystery. You don't need to try to be anything you're not.

You'll learn to sniff out the spiritual from the spiritual aesthetic. But you'll draw them all just the same. Have fun with it.

I stopped fighting for approval. I stopped being the first one to reach out. I waited for reciprocation. What came back were ugly things. Entitlement. Jealousy. Envy. Passive aggressive behaviors.

Ra told me so long ago. He told me none of them were good for me. I don't blame myself for trying anyway. The level of pain that comes with that responsibility is disorienting. I wouldn't have been able to understand how to accept it back then. How to move with it. How to let it move through me. I was stubborn. Young.

I trust. Eventually, even the connections I think matter most will wither. They must.

If not for that, I wouldn't be in the position I'm in now. Mobility. Abundance. Wisdom.

Death. Only with guidance will it make you strong. Some people are born with a natural affinity with it. Those people will struggle with relationships. The forest will exist always as winter for them. That's where they were born.

The winter forest, where the trees have laughed themselves to sleep. Is it a struggle upwards? Or is it an aspect of the eternal?

Move with that fear. Tell it where you want to go, but let it do its thing. Exist alongside it.

The wisdom of that fear is your protection and strength. It's what keeps you from falling into traps.

It's what devours the enemy that lies in wait. Fear is a devourer. Let it devour your foes.