#v emo

i’ve had a weird couple of mental head days. like. i keep thinking about you and everything that happened and how it all went down and how lonely i feel, not being me&you, just being me and nothing else. i’ve been thinking about how you don’t think about me at all; how you broke me heart without me knowing, and then i knew and you didn’t , how neither of us understand each other now that are hearts aren’t put together, how insane it is that are hearts are made of the same pieces but they aren’t in the same configuration, and that made you stop loving me but i never stopped loving you. i love you still. and it hurts more and more everyday. i think a lot about how i still love you without talking to you, without seeing you, without even knowing you. i love knowing that you exist and that you are happy with her and that you had someone you loved enough to choose for. i feel idiotic. i feel weak. i feel worthless and unlovable and unwanted. i feel overdramatic and insane. i feel awkward and misplaced. i feel like a bad dream. i feel like an intruder. i feel like a movie extra. i feel all of these things and then i feel empty. i miss you, but i never want to see you again.

hi folks, what’s the vibe tonight?