I claim that I am detached from source all I want, but. and well, in a way it's true, I am detached from the world that I am introjected from. But at this point I can't deny that, despite being around for 6-7 years, I'm still emotionally attached to Color.
It's gotten worse with the creators bringing the AU's alive. On one hand, that's super inconvenient for my emotions (especially since my primary purpose as a part is to "remove" those feelings), but on the other hand I can't get enough of the content being produced. Every panel that colorful bastard is on, I feel the need to see.
But my attachment of him even goes beyond just pseudo-memories. It effects my preferences in people as well. I strongly prefer people who wear a bunch of different colors or put on colorful makeup. Bonus points if the makeup is an actual rainbow.
And as a result I am considered "finromantic," since those colorful attire traits are commonly associated with feminine men and feminine women (and feminine anyone else). It's difficult for me to feel interested in people who aren't, since they don't have the warm or lively appearance that my mind subconsciously gravitates towards.
It's just, those little things, you know? Little things that impact a lot more than you think it would. And I'm still learning how to come to terms with these feelings and realizations.
On the other hand I'd say I am incredibly lucky that the girl we are in the talking stage with is absolutely colorful and wears all sorts of different things. They also wear darker outfits too, but their fashion sense is so diverse I consider the whole spectrum to count as colorful. (I. like them a lot, I think. Speaking as an individual part.)
