Yesterday should have been an exciting and fun day. It should have been full of sweetness and love. But it has just been a day of disappointment and unexpected expectation. A day one should forget. It has been a day of different emotions. I have been drowning myself of thoughts and tears for the past week, but now, I am drowning of fears. Fears that I may get used to this kind of feeling and lose myself. I am afraid that one day I wonβt be feeling anything, that I will be numb of the pain. I am afraid that the longing feeling will be forever gone. I am afraid that he will feel all of these fears before I do. I am afraid that he might choose to lose me. I am afraid thinking that itβll be easier for him to let go of what I am holding on. Iβm scared to fall in love because I fear that the one I am in love with will soon fall out of love.